Someone said that if you repeat yourself three times, it becomes a habit. That may explain why I am typing this journal entry now instead of skipping a day.
I got going this morning on time. However, my parents {who like to drive me to Spokane and back} namely my father likes to complain. When there is nothing to complain about he invents one. Like me suddenly being 'late' when I was 5 min early.
So today started with me ignoring my father half the trip. Why waste my time and lower my frequency just to play an angry verbal sparing game. A game I never like to win because then he just invents something else and the emotion from before continues unabated… So no, I'll just be quiet and think happy thoughts and meditate.
While writing more on my first novel.
My trick of ignoring father only partially because he tries getting under my skin by telling me what to do. Suddenly I am expected to shut the laptop off five minutes before we reach any destination…
I soo dream of expanding my iPhone into an Ipad. 😒
So we get yo the appointment so early the doctor sees me an hour early…. 'cause I was soooo super late? Rhetorical question.
I logged onto the Game of Thrones: Ascent long enough to further todays daily reward, and set a few of the hour long timers going again.
I am reincarnating two characters to open up all the fealty buildings for both toons.
The second toon is for my Ideal Wife {mb Taylor Alison Swift} to play on the game, with me. It is fun but running two toons is too intensive for what it is worth to me.
We got home at around 16:30. Our Britney Spaniel, Ariel Miss Scarlett, is absolutely and abundantly joyful and happy to see her pack return. Showering me and mom with doggy kisses.
I saw a few women I definitely would go out with if the opportunity presented itself. I saw a blonde at Yokes in Pasco, and she blanked my mind for a second.
Yes, I percieve the Goddess as having shown that Tay Tay is my Ideal Wife. That has zero to do with appreciating beauty, or the fact that sometimes I am wrong. I desperately 'want' to be wrong about Her because all she seems to do is ignore me.
I am far from mad, or any other negative emotion, about that. If Tay Tay truly does reject my romantic interest in her then that is her choice. Stalking her or being boligerent would be selfish of me and have the opposite effect of what I want.
I do refuse to take silence as an answer, however, I live my own life and pray. Loving someone means supporting whatever decisions they make in life, even if I perceive it as hurting me…
Though, I do believe that for them to make that decision means they are disharmonious from being 'Ideal' in any ways.
I spell for the Goddess to help me know what is true… to control, direct, help, inspire, and motivate me to be the Ideal Husband to the Ideal Wife and Ideal Family that I want. I spell for the Goddess to help me move on and past Tay Tay, and onto my Ideal Wife.
Hence, why I feel Tay Tay is… or 'will be' my Ideal. Here is where people say I am crazy though. I am through waiting though and will force my slirit to vacate this mortal coil.
Hell is a myth… part of the matrix created by the District of Columbia, meant to keep souls here even if they are 'living in hell'. Only the self can damn thy own self. The Goddess loves all withought condition.
After almost 39 years of abundant pain and misery, I have reached the end. I have found a way out of it. I have been, am, and will always be healing my psyche from whatever past life trauma caused this episode. I think our psyche are always heing damaged by life itself.
As our own body regenerates to replace cells that die off. Life is constantly damaging our mortal coils too, and so too must we 'heal' our psyche. By being positive, law of attraction, and most importantly believing and having faith in the Goddess. Any religion 'can' serve this function.
I have been imagining a spiritual path, religion, that helps the aggregate the most to choose to be happy… to choose to heal their psyche.
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