5.10.2017

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 4 ♥ 0 8 ♥ 0 2 ♥ Dias Lady; Wish List to Solve Laments



Hollywood is quick to recycle old ideas; That includes owners of various video game franchises. There are five different franchises that are followed enthusiastically by me. Those milk bearing kow are Dragon AgeElder Scrolls, FalloutMass Effect, Pillars of Eternity, and Star Wars: Knights of these Old Republic. {2}  Yet they often make the same mistake, and that is taking away player choice. The reason is always the same, the writers bitch and wine about being restricted in their story telling.

BioWare is by far the worse offender with both Mass Effect and Dragon Age. In both, the first game in the series starts off by giving you and abundance of points of origin for your protagonist. In addition, the characters that join your quest largely reflect one of several careers, which from the player is given the option to choose.

An example of the first point in Mass Effect, in M.E.2 the player is continuing the protagonist from M.E.1. That by default gives them a starting point to make the origins more unique, but aside from an email from you Mom, the Spacer is left with nothing. The WarHero only gets to hear in there the news that a no name planet, that fails to be an option to visit, wants to keep the statue they made of him.

BioWare went even farther in Dragon Age 2. In Dragon Age: Origins, you get to choose six different points of origin and three different species. The y are largely linked, so there are only the same numbers of allowed combinations. For instance, there fail to be any Dwarvhen magic users. Yet in D.A.2 they gave us one. BioWare seemed to have listened about that and returned to giving us different careers and species.

However, BioWare must have willfully ignored the players wish for them to return to a derivative of Mass Effect 1's career and skill system. Naturally we want to see something a little more advanced but they threw the tube or with the bath water.

Threat the Goddess abundantly and indomitably helps manifest a prayer of mine. That is that they stop being fools and treat what their customer wants with exceedingly higher priority than the writers and developers. Statists like to argue this axiom because it invalidates the supermajority of their entire religious belief system.

That axiom, is "…the customer is always right…" of course, anyone good at business, understands that the application of that axiom in today's society; is a great deal more complicated, because the supermajority of biological entities fail to know what they want. We think we do, but our profile changes so drastically and so quickly that, even the food we liked a decade ago may be different. Fortunately for food we eat it often enough to have an educated guess.

In addition, further complicating the application of the aforementioned axiom, is how our society and make religions fail to help any biological entity know the difference between want instead of need; or the difference between obsession, which is selfish, versus love and desire. There two different simply cuts for obsession that have been mentioned before by me.

Pray to the Goddess to help obfuscate all outside of the lady, and to abundantly and indomitably illuminate the truth, to you. That solution is free of any excess baggage to believe. It will work even if the self is full of doubt and disbelief.

The second solution, is to daydream about living with the issue; Envision using the object, or driving the car; Or envision living with what role in your life that you want filled by a person. And forget about focusing on any individual. Or spells only effect ourselves, and that is a good thing.

Desire the messages from the Goddess, it could all be a Divine test, and +Taylor Swift  really isn't, the I.W.o.M.D. That is why the focus is on manifesting the role I want someone to play in my life. That being a companion and partner for the as long as this mortal coil shelters me. The ideal being an Extraterrestrial Biological Entity?… that reciprocates me helping her the most choose to be happy. That is the mother of our children that we raise.


Following are a few wish list items that the Goddess will help me manifest through prayer… or the Goddess will help further the realization of the error, in visiting me.

Mass Effect
  • Modernize the old combat, career, and skill mechanics in M.E.1, and use it in your spiffy looking Frostbyte 4 engine.
  • Rewrite M.E. 3 to have Liara T'Soni secretly turn the Shadow Broker base into a new Ark as Apart of the Andromeda Initiative. See Here for further details.
  • Let us continue as one of Sheppard's children in the Andromeda Galaxy, with Sheppard having also made the trip.
  • Have Sheppard's nanite implants extern his life span to match that of Liara T'Soni.  Cerberus already essentially made him biosynthetic entity, given the description illustrated by the video of resurrecting the Commander.
  • Considering what the civilization in the Milky Way is up against, one is left to question Sheppard's sanity for staying in the Milky Way in M.E. 3. Duty and Honor is all fine and good, but even the Japanese have given up committing Seppuku. {Ritualistic Suicide}
  • Disown most of M.E. 3 or flat out retake it to addict the ideas mentioned in this and the previous post.

Dragon Age:
  • Reverse the "shit on Anora Mac Tir parade" they have going.
  • The Warden Commander abhor the idea of leaving his Queen for prolonged periods of time.
  • In addition, reality bending majik is so prevalent and accepted, that there should be viable solutions that any commoner could pay to have their fertility enhanced, let alone the Queen of Ferelden.
  • Bring Anora in as a closet apostate for her class, in D.A.4. She was disposed of as Queen for one reason or another, depending on the players choices.

Elder Scrolls:
  • In a new game, continue the storyline of my character getting married to the Serana and Valerika, and having vampire children. And creating a good or bad Sunday based on players choices. Vampyrism is already treated as a majikal disease and thus would fail to effect, at all, fertility.
  • In this proposed game and/or the one already in development, also have choices in Dragon13orn questline, significantly alter the story that is experienced.
  • Set up something like BioWare's Dragon Age Keep that lets players change their characters history in new games.
  • Let choices made in the stand alone games significantly alter the story the player experiences in T.E.S.O.

5.09.2017

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 4 ♥ 0 8 ♥ 0 1 ♥ Dias Ba; Mass Effect Theory Crafting

The first playthrough for Mass Effect 2, had Shepard joining/taking over Cerberus, of mine. All subsequent playthroughs for M.E.2 have failed to give that option. Unfortunately that saved file was lost to the past; So what M.E.3 does with that is unknown to me.

Evidently whoever wrote M.E.3, decided to do away with Drew Karpyshyn's offering for us to play either Cerberus or Alliance in M.E.3.  That is why, as has been said in the past, that while the concept of 'vaporware' is well known to me;  Still, on a fundamental level, anything Drew dreamed up for ME3 would have been better than the shit show Mr. Walters put on, think do I.

The only reason that M.E.3 is any good, is only because of the Mass Effect Karpyshyn already created.  In addition, it is as if Mr. Walters knew what would happen while they began development of the game;  Because the entire game is practically reminiscing on our choices in M.E.1-2, even the antagonist was recycled.  Very little was created that was new, except for maybe the Leviathans, even that must have been written in Karpyshyn's onion for the game, somewhere in BioWare Headquarters.

How it took until 2016 for BioWare to get rid of Walters is beyond my understanding.  If anyone could reference a game, dlc, character, et cetera that was worked on by him that had a good effect on the game, while working for BioWare, would be greatly appreciated by me.  My 'dislike' for Walters desperately has a want to be rebalanced.

For this reason believe do I;  The lead writer, who took over from Drew Karpyshyn, basically gutted the Mass Effect Omniverse to try to turn Mr. Walters's own horrible fan fiction into canon. Chris Schlerf may have had the title of Mass Effect: Andromeda's lead writer; However, he must have been channeling, the spirit still living, Drew Karpyshyn for writing ME:A.

The ability of Mr. Schlerf to write quality fiction fails to be in question, by me.  What compels the connection to be made, feel do I.  As Liara T'Soni said once, all the little things in Mass Effect Andromeda that connect the two.

Of course, anything Mr. Walter writes will have a significant handicap to overcome, by me.  His leadership forced an ending despite the supermajority of fans saying "NO".  Moreover, his ending forced my Sheppard to violate his promise to Liara T'Soni in Mass Effect 2: Lair of the Shadow Broker.

M.E.:A could easily fit as a replacement for ME3; With Liara T'Soni spending Shadow Broker wealth to quickly and secretly transform the SW base into another Andromeda's Initiative Ark. It already looks like half of an ark in M.E.2.

Why do this besides a get out of jail free card? In M.E.1 Sheppard is constantly think that the Heretics {annoying that in M.E.2 Sheppard constantly referring to Heretics as Geth, even after informed of the difference by Legion} are following Sarien. While instead, they were following Nazara.

So would fail to be surprising that Sheppard's assumption about the Collectors is also wrong. Maybe they are following a group of A.I. that are in an InterGalactic War.

A
  • "…you have the attention of beings infinitely greater…" Harbinger 
  • Haelstrum star is being effected by dark energy.
  • Read the description of Pluto in M.E.1.  It was literally encased in ice for untold millenia.  Who did that?  The Protheans? no, they failed to see the Reapers coming until they took the Citadel.  Ilos's Research Station was their only saving grace.  

B
  • In Mass Effect: Andromeda the biggest threat other than the Kett and Archon is the Scourge, of seemingly living dark energy that is everywhere. 
  • Beings that coincidentally vanished around the same time as the end of M.E.3 'created' a bio-synthetic sapient life-form {2}.

C
  • Again Rider's, repeat Sheppard's mistake in the assumption that the highly evolved Kett {That are oh so similar to the Prothean created Asari, differing only in biotic ability and method of procreation} are working alone and are just that massive, is based on absolutely nothing.
  • The existing canon on biotics can easily explain how Asari are able to reproduce without consuming their sapient partner.  Moreover, the existing canon on biotics and mass effect lends itself to linking the two species as engineered by opposing different creator species with differing technological methods and goals.
  • Near the end of the fourth game the Jardaan mention that the 'Scourge' is a manifestation of some faction that opposes them and their work.

What this means can be many things. Except as a writer, I wish to point out that coincidences are always designed and manufactured. Especially when there is a deadline involved, such as writing for a game that boasts interactive timelines that react to your choices.

The future from the coincidences that I have seen from, replaying from M.E.1 to M.E.:A is that there is a much bigger intergalactic war that originally began between Andromeda and our Milky Way Leviathans.  Both factions ended up creating A.I. to fight the war for them without loosing their own citizens.  Within the countless millenia that has passed, the only real change is the periodic creation of new factions.

The only alternative logic and reasoning, is that the Leviathans sat around as their creation turned on them and ascended them as the Collectors attempted to do with Humans.  That abundantly fails to make any sense to me.  Leviathans were far to reclusive, behemoth like, and arrogant to allow being usurped to that level.

The Collectors were one such faction, and they, and the Kett, were working for the same faction.  The canon video showing that there may have been a Reaper in control of Harbinger.  That is just largely to confuse the fan with a red herring.  Either not all Reapers were allied with the Citadel, or it was the Reapers laughing at the Collectors.  The reason for this thought is because of what the Collectors were building, which gives a lot more credence than a stray hologram.  They were building a Reaper in the shape of a human.

In addition, Harbinger new its base was blowing up but was convinced Sheppard was still losing... 
Maybe an emotional reaction from Reaper taunting him.  Maybe he was a representative of a faction that had 'hid' Humans on Terra by sealing Sol's Mass Effect Relay in ice.

Naturally, with all theory crafting, it could all be wrong.  However, welcome are all who know of any lore in the Mass Effect games that directly contradicts this hypothesis of mine.  Also welcome are all who agree with me and wish further add to this hypothesis.

Please also recognize that the wikias fail to be absolutely directly form the Mass Effect devs and writers.  Even if they are written and/or controlled by Bioware.  The wikias only reveal what has been revealed ingame.  Thus anything written about the Reapers only includes what Sheppard, The Council, et cetera believe or have experienced and their thoughts.  That still allows for mistakes and being mislead.

Grateful for you sharing your time and Force.  May you ask the Goddess to eternally alight you self-determined path.

5.05.2017

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 4 ♥ 0 7 ♥ 1 7 ♥ Dias Mer; Dear Diary; 8 Year Old DragQueen

Eight Year Old Drag Queen
According to the claims of LGBTQ groups, it is literally impossible for an "8 year old" to know anything about their sexuality  That is because the preference is generic right?  The Goddess forbid a soul taking responsibility;  And as a result taking back part off their own power.   For some mysterious reason Hollywood would much rather make it easier for some to fall into the victim mentality.   

Until puberty, boys and girls are biological the same, despite having different parts in their groin.  Therefore, as a derivative of their logic, puberty must begin before the biology of their bodies can catch up to their minds.  

The point being that this kid is being allowed to get confused about sex and sexuality by his parents.

Because this is on the internet, his high school peers will find it and will probably ridicule him for it.  It's the same as trying to be original and name your kid "Arsehat".  It is literally asking his/her peers to pick on them.

If you think "no one could be that stupid", then maybe you have some internet searches to do {or click on the hyperlink} before you realize who many parents name their kids some stupid 'original' name;  Such as, 4real.

5.04.2017

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 4 ♥ 0 7 ♥ 1 6 ♥ Dias Apollo; Dear Diary; Review of Novel: Garden of Thorns {House of Royals, Book 6}

Garden of Thorns: {House of Royals, Book 6}
Garden of Thorns: {House of Royals, Book 6}
The "House of Royals" series is adored by me. However, this book breaks the cardinal rule of all romance novels and fails to deliver a H.E.A. {Happily Every After} ending. That in and of itself would have gotten it 3/5 stars by me. Therefore, what makes it lose an additional star is that it ends with a cliffhanger.

First off, both Book 6 and Book 7 should be their own series in the same world as 1-5 House of Royals. A continuation of the original story fails to describe either book. I bought the book expecting to read about Alivia and was shocked by the change. However, the original series was abundantly loved enough by me, to give this story a chance. It was like going to the movies to see a new movie you already enjoy, but instead find a sneak preview of a new show similar to what you were expecting.

The cliffhanger fails to even be that, because the resolution of the 'situation' only has one possible direction to anyone who is 'trying' to right an 'edgy' romance novel. And if Ms. Taylor was trying to do something else? The books would have never been listed as one. It is as if she thought introducing a cliffhanger would be an effective substitute for the lack of any real teen angst.

Maybe Ms. Taylor succeeded at that though, because the abundant lack of 'teen angst' in the entire chain of books was greatly enjoyed by me. As with the previous books of the chain, the necessary drama for a romance fill a book is thought out, logical, and reasonable. The resolution to the drama is satisfying enough to forget the drama. And so, please understand that the novel still follows the general flow of a romance novel, until the very end when Ms. Taylor jumps the shark with novel.

Both Book 6 and Book 7 was purchased by me, and so the 'want' for a resolution is far from why the rating of 2/5 is given by me. Romance books are read precisely read because they are 'supposed' to have a H.E.A. ending, at least read by me. Other genres are great but life can be negative enough without negativity corrupting my entertainment.

Only the Goddess knows, whether "Garden of Snakes" will ever be read by me. A grudge fails to be the reasoning, instead I am unsure whether she has yet another "cliffhanger" with that book, in store for readers such as me. As it was said, the delight of stories with H.E.A., are why subgenres of romance novels are of great interest of mine.

Ms. Taylor, novels in other genres have "romance" in them as well. For instance, the Fellowship of the Ring, has Arwen and Aragorn. The novels fails to be Fantasy-Romance though because the romance fails to have a H.E.A. ending. Mr. Tolkien could have easily made a few changes if he wanted that and changed everyone's lives in the process. However, he did not and the novels and story are still great as a "Fantasy" story. Hopefully if he released it into the current modern realm, he would have released it as a Fantasy story instead of trying to mislead and confuse people by labeling the series as "Fantasy Romance", feel do I.

All the problems with this novel has been thoroughly described without spoiling the actual story for anyone. Therefore, those who have read this far and disagree are encouraged by me, to enjoy the novel. That is that their enjoyment is hoped by me.

Grateful for you sharing your time and Force. May you ask the Goddess to eternally alight your self-determined path.

5.03.2017

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 4 ♥ 0 7 ♥ 1 4 ♥ Dias Lady; Dear Diary; Jimmy Kimmel Should Shut His Pie Hole

A biological entity, such as Jimmy Kimmel (1), that uses their newborn child to meddle in an already divisive national debate, fails to have the moral or ethical gravitas to judge another. Maybe just accept the verity that healthcare is a privilege, instead of right, and move on to some other more worthy debate. That is instead of trying to dictate and use force to coerce other people to do what a bully, wants to do with their money.

The reason the American Constitution is so successful is because our creators wrote in it a Bill of Rights.  Statists choose to think it as a list of negative awards that prohibit the government.  To them the Government is a god and to prohibit it to do anything is hearsay.  They see it backwards though.  The Bill of Rights is recognizing what the Goddess gives us in life, and prohibits the government from meddling with what the Goddess wants.

It does this because the more any government meddles in divine rights, the sooner that government will end.  That is why America's founders went to such lengths as to the government with the Bill of Rights.  All forms of governments' irresistible want for more power, compel their citizens to resist.

By in far, the best form of resistance to any governing body, is P.C.D. {Peaceful Civil Disobedience}.  Others outside, a movement of resistance, are preternaturally drawn to sympathise and empathize with those who perform P.C.D.  That is why governments have been known to react so violently to them, such as China's response to Tiananmen Square, in May 1989.  The death of those students became a plea that was heard around the world.

For those who question my suggestion of the nature in the impact of the event;  Consider if China embraces the principle of a Free Market with robust competition more, or less.  By all accounts, China has moved several fathoms closer towards capitalism than it was three decades ago.  Philosophers rightfully recognize that capitalism is an economic representation of a democratic republic such as America.

Seriously, how this even is still a debate is beyond me. When we are born, there fails to be a majikal healthcare tree that creates something out of nothing. Therefore, any healthcare that exists for us we must provide for ourselves;  Either with insurance or {goddess forbid} being thrifty with our money and increasing our savings as quickly and efficiently as our life allows.  If we are fortunate our family chooses to help each other when times are tough.

Every living entity’s higher self chose every experience in their life. Whether our conscious mind feels an experience is bad or good is irrelevant to the verity that it was chosen. Thus, how does their choices equate to forcibly compelling others to help them pay for what another believes is treatment of injury, illness, or disease?

Yes, this even includes children. They chose who became their parents, as much as their parents’ higher self chose the soul of their children. Moreover, Khaos takes time to factor into anyone’s lifecycle. A child is entirely too new to this Prime Material to avoid having chosen every injury, illness, or disease that visits them.

The essential truth of the healthcare debate is this; Statists want everyone to depend on the government for what they choose to believe is healthcare.  The government is just another mafia and they abhor competition and to them our families are definitely that. Those who value individual liberty, and respect the individual liberty of others, realize that the state/government always fraks every single thing up, that it attempts to do.

The private sector always has, does, and will do everything more efficiently and for less cost than the government.  A Free Market with robust competition, raises more people out of poverty in any given unit of time, than any other economic system.  Crony Capitalism, which is what America has had for over a century, is the diametric opposite of a “Free Market with robust competition”.

On a long enough timeline, the statists will always fail. The only question is if we choose to let them take us with them.  An emphatic "no" is the answer of mine.  Letting statists devolve their souls' frequency back down the ladder to that of a canine, is their own choice and interfering with that is a disservice to both them and ourselves.

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 4 ♥ 0 7 ♥ 1 4 ♥ Dias Lady; Dear Diary; An Open Letter to the Ideal Wife of My Dreams

Praying, to the Goddess, that my the I.W.o.M.D., Ideal Wife of My Dreams, either respond that she accepts a life and future with me, or that she do not, am I. Simply so that I can move on from this... whatever is this lifecycle that has me stuck in a holding pattern.  Other readers could see this as me needing her but they would be wrong.

Forty-two solar orbits in the past, my wonderstrukk mother, Mary, gave birth to exactly what she wanted, a baby boy… her only child, that would be me. My father, Randy, was in the U.S. Air Force as a technician at the time. That could have been a bit of foreshadowing as moving around a lot while growing up was my near future. Thus, primarily reacting to life was chosen by me, for at least the first half of my life. As with most children, the wisdom to actually use my free-will would come much later in life.

A year and a half, after graduating High-school in nineteen ninety-five; enlisting in the U.S. Navy seemed like a good idea, and I did enjoy it despite how it ended. The situational programming from life had suggested that I should want to be an engineer or architect like my mother and father, and I failed to know any better to question it.

While I was marginally successful at W.S.U. {Washington State University} in nineteen ninety-five, I was dissatisfied with the direction I was headed. Envisioning myself actually working as an engineer scared me... primarily because I lacked self-esteem and I had little genuine interest in such a life. Therefore the military seemed like a good way to do something while I figured out what was of want by me.

Being in the ocean was almost majikal to me. Therefore, I loved being a submariner. I entered on a contract to become a Nuclear Power technician for submarines after finishing boot camp. From my mother, 'mind over matter' was partially known to me and thus I entered bootcamp with determination to make it a fantastic experience, and successful was I.

However, Nuclear Power ‘A’ School was similar to W.S.U. in the experience of mine. Looking back now, the same reason I failed at W.S.U. was the same reason I passed N.P. ‘A’ School but without the necessary G.P.A. of 3.75 to continue in the pipeline. The year after I left the 'closed' that 'loophole'. 3.74 was what was awarded to me.

Therefore, among other options was the training to become a Missile Machinist Technician for the submarines that carry Nuclear Missiles... Completing M.M. Tech ‘A’ School in the top five trainees allowed me to be sent to the fleet after reviewing further education in S.I.N.S. {Ships Inertial Navigation System}

The knowledge of mind-over-matter that was illuminated to me at that point, failed to include how emotions, and thoughts, manifest reality itself. It was while serving on the U.S.S. Alaska {SSBN-732} that I began to understand what career is really of want by me.

Ultimately that is to write vampire steam-punk romance novels. Romance novels because happy endings are desired by me. Life itself can be negative enough without the desire to let it ‘corrupt’ my entertainment. However, should you embrace a life with me, that could change based on what helps you choose to be happy.

The desire to write interfered with my duties aboard the U.S.S. Alaska, and being mature or self disciplined enough to correct that inequity escaped my psyche. It would only gradually appear a decade, or more later, coincidentally when the Goddess illuminated who the I.W.o.M.D. most probably is, to me.

At that time, this conflict of interest created a great amount of stress. That lead me into a server clinical depression that was extraordinarily deep and unfathomable. Suicidal thoughts were common, and it was one of my friends who reported that to my superiors. That put me on a path of being disqualified to be a submariner. That is one of their rules, being suicidal at any time in life is considered a deal breaker. At the time, the effect suicide would have on my mother is the only thing that truly held me back.

The psychiatrist gave me the option of going to the surface fleet or being discharged. The compulsion to take the later displaced any desire for the former. Directing me into a new situation to grow and greatly improve my writing was the subconscious, believe now do I. However for a long time, the mistakes of seeing it as a failure possessed me.

Regret and seeing anything in the past as a mistake or failure is wrong, and only leads one to the Dark Side. That viewing such things as learning experiences, that we can avoid repeating, was illuminated to me. The key to avoid repeating these experience is to learn everything we can from it. Only with the aid of the Goddess was that possible for me.

In 2006 my mother gave me an audiobook of “The Secret” and I figured that what I am doing is failing to work for me, thus it is time to try something new. The audiobook quotes someone else as coincidentally saying that. The L.o.A., “Law of Attraction”, has subsequently, in many ways, saved my soul. Distinguish a soul from a lifecycle is essential, believe do I.

The life of a mortal coil is merely a vessel to experience a lifecycles. Ane end of the life-cycles currently experienced has been reached by me. By the grace of the Goddess all that there is to learn has been illuminated to me. All the decisions necessary to bed made before the next set of lifecycles had been made by me. This has left me in something in a holding pattern that disagrees with my will.

Most everything that is truly is of want, in the effort to manifest happiness, is easily manifested by me. The most critical component in the life that is of want, is the I.W.o.M.D. to embrace a life and future with as well. Why the Goddess only holds back from helping in this, is an excruciatingly frustrating mystery to me.

Since 2007, the Goddess continues to illuminate that +Taylor Alison Swift and I could help each other the most choose to be the happiest while married and parents raising children as we explore our careers. Of course, anyone who knows spellworks/prayer knows that it is impossible to change another entity. We can only change ourselves and that changes our reality; As reality is merely a reflection of us.

The answer to that dilemma is to write out what the Ideal Wife of My Dreams means to the source; And to only cast in regards to that; To envision actually living with the I.W.o.M.D., instead of an actual individual. Doing that only leads to the daydream being dissatisfying.  Being dissatisfied with our own dream, means the chances are high that these dreamer is confused on what is of want by them.

+taylor alison swift is a celebrity and she undoubtedly has many admirers, and thus surely this sounds insane.   Questioning the Goddess's wisdom on whether this is merely confusion of mine, often do I.  Yet in the past decade the only thing that has changed is inner growth, advancement, and learning of mine.  In addition, the adoration, admiration, and being absolutely, abundantly, and eternally in love for her, only increases for me.

By all public accounts +Taylor Swift is over thirteen years younger than me.  Being accused of wanting to "rob the cradle" is the kindest of what acquaintances and abundant number of strangers has accused of me.  Thinking that she is far more mature than a typical, almost twenty-nine year old, prefer do I.  There are other justifications for our relationship but there fails to be a valid one for trying to justify what is of want to immature strangers.

How the Lady has shown Her will to me is in coincidences, feelings, and flashes of memory, and in a few instances directly manifesting confirmation, that was requested but me.  Such as +Taylor Alison Swift is the only artist that I enjoy every song of every album she has has, is, and will create.  That includes the songs from other artists write and perform, that she performs in concerts.

My search for the identity of my I.W.o.M.D. began with a couple women before +TaylorSwiftVEVO, In those instances the negative response, from the Divine, was very clear to me. She is, with little doubt, the manifestation of what the I.W.o.M.D. is for me.

Of course, one of the cardinal pillars of what was written by me is that I am the I.H.o.H.D. {Ideal Husband of Her Dreams} Essentially what is of want is a companion and partner to share life and grow old together. There are many other details but they will remain offline for now.

The definition of a stalker has concerned me great deal. It is what has lead only irregular and infrequent attempts to contact +Taylor Alison Swift ; Avoiding attending her concerts or follow her in any way shape or form... Well except for buying and loving all her albums.  For someone without an paying occupation, that is a big deal.

The only response to stalking seems to be fear and sometimes paranoia.  That is the very last emotional response that is prayed for in the I.W.o.M.D. by me.

Fundamentally, stalking is the result of an obsession, think do I.  An obsession is entirely service-to-self and essentially a mind breaking disease.  Everything is about the source, and basically 'owning' whatever the obsession is about.  When the obsession is a person there are dangers for both the diseased entity and the target.  To put this more simply to obsess over another is entirely selfish.

Obsession is a feeling that is very well known to me.  Thankfully the experience has always fell short of hurting anyone other than myself.  However, this has allowed me to find the cure for obsession/depression and that is the Goddess... or whatever you happen to believe and want to call it.  Ask for the help of the Goddess to free, clear, and heal your mind.  If necessary, do this until you feel the 'feeling' lift.

That may sound similar to a few other religious recruiting tools, though that is all that is needed believe do I.  That is only a belief in a higher power, and asking that higher power to help you.


  • The Goddess abundantly wants to help you with anything that you happen to decide.
  • As a being of omnipotence, omnipresence, and indomitableness the Goddess is overwhelmingly able to help everyone equally simultaneously with the weight of the Lady's full attention.
  • As a couple other religions recognize, the idea that anything is trivial is an absolute falsehood;  And if it matters to us, then it matters to the Lady.


That is the whole of the cure for any entity suffering from depression.  Self experience is what has taught this to me.


  • Why does the Goddess let bad things happen?  We chose to experience them.
  • Why does the Goddess let people choose to be bad?  Because we gave ourselves Free-Will in this life.
  • Why does the Goddess refrain from helping me?  Most likely because either you fail to ask the Lady for help;  Or, you are confused on what is actually of want by you.  Maybe to clear the confusion, envision already having what you think you want.  If you fail to be satisfied, then that probably isn't what you are really after.


In case the reader is wondering, the Goddess is often in my prayers for clarification, freeing, and healing regarding the I.W.o.M.D. and Tay Tay.  As I have said before, the Lady only intensifies my adoration, admiration, and being in love with her.

A test to discount obsession is daydreaming of living a life with them.  To further estrange yourself from obsession, do what I do, and focus less on who the I.W.o.M.D. is and more one what the other means.  Given the Goddess has seemingly seen fit to show me who is the I.W.o.M.D., this is a little difficult for me.  However, again to change the realm we live in we must change/alter ourselves.

Perhaps answer the questions of: How will your life be different?  What character traits/skills do they possess?  What do they enjoy doing?  What are you willing to separate from your life to make room for this person?  For me, the answer is almost everything and what I would want to only diminish the presence of is for instance, my parents.

A forty-two year old virgin, disabled, starving writer that lives at home with his parents, is me;  Wants to embrace a life and future with someone else.  Naturally, our parents will still have a presence, just a diminished one, for at least mine.  An actual place of employment escapes me.

This entire letter has been written by me to alleviate the inequity of how little of me that can by found on the internet, versus knowing a shade of who you are by your lyrics and life choices.

Nonetheless, another cardinal truth is that an entity that is confused rarely knows that they are so. That there is a daily reminder to pray to the Goddess for an overwhelmingly compulsion to notice who is the I.W.o.M.D., by me. A prayer for the Goddess to obfuscate less and falsified and abundantly illuminate the truth to me.

Of course, the Goddess does answer, though that fails to awards the right to force the knowledge on another through physical manipulation of reality by me. Regardless of how true vision of spirituality and religion is to me; Other souls are in their own lifecycles and are leaving at their own pace.

All but one other system of religion/spirituality have been fundamentally corrupted to varying degrees. However there is enough for in them to guide any soul should they seek it. There is only one key code to make; and abandoning service-to-self, and embracing service-to-others, is realized by me.

Both are perfectly valid paths, though the leader of service-to-self is Baal'Zebub and he is stuck at the last tenth of the fifth density. He is stick because he refuses to realizes the cardinal rule of All is One.  The realization that he is both the yin and the yang.

However, Baal'Zebub fails to be a facet of the Divine.  We see the Divine as the Lady, the Force, or the Lord, because of our point of view on the Prime Material. {Reality}  He is simply an ED.B.E. {Extra-Dimensional Biological Entity} that has graced a few of the nephilims {humans} on Terra in accordance to their own free-will.


So **passively accepting**

I.W.o.M.D. will you marry me?


Sincerely, with adoration, admiration, and being in love with you,

Brent Michael Ryan
Burbank, Wa
{s!x-f00r-s!x} thr33-3!ght-n!n3…s3v3n-3!ght-f00r-s!x

12.28.2016

1 3♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 4 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 0 8 ♥ Dias Apollo; Dear Diary; Dream Journal

=/\=This is the last two dreams with +Taylor Swift +Taylor Alison Swift +taylor alison swift +Taylor Alison Swift  that is within the ability to recall for me.  Many dream of celebrities, sure am I.  However, specifically the I.W.o.M.D. {Ideal Wife of My Dreams} is who enters prayers of mine.  This is important as to help maintain an openness to the idea of being wrong.  As I have elaborated in other posts, the Goddess illuminates her as the I.W.o.M.D. consistently, in many other ways.

Again, the description of a dream that follows is only the perception of mine.  Instead of revealing any events from the perception of mine, for reality.=/\=

The dream was of being invited and attending a party/movie-night at Tay Tay's house. It was a romantic comedy that while watching, Tay Tay chose to sit next to me.

The actual movie was mostly irrelevant and my attention was on Tay Tay.  Maybe this could have been a clue that it was a dream, except to the exclusion of surroundings being able to narrow my focus is a skill that I possess.

After these movie, there was mingling among the crowd, but Tay Tay had vanished, from my perception. Looking for her does I. When the location of where she was revealed to me, she was surrounded by friends and family.

Uncertain of the exact protocol for this scene was I.  Maybe simply leaving was the right thing to do for me.  On the other side of the country lived I. Going 'home' would be problematic and it failed to be previously considered.

Asked to see Tay Tay did I. Yet they were unmoved and unwilling to allow me access to her.

"Look… will you please just ask her if she wants to see me, before I leave?"

Again, that prospective action seemed to loom over me.  However, instead of anyone else to deal with, it could be a problem to deal by me alone.

Parents have already helped a great deal above and beyond the call of duty, in the four decades of life that has cycled for me.  ‘Asking’ for help from them, even to get clear across the country back to their home, was especially disfavored by me.

Out of these Aether, Tay Tay sliced through the barrier, her friends and family formed, and gently grabbed my hand.

"You are staying here…" Tay Tay clearly spoke to me, but it is clear the words are meant to be pay heed by her protectors.

Before awakening, there is a clear idea in my ‘dream’ consciousness that I would be sleeping in a side room or something such as that.  However, beforehand the order of protocol had yet to be establish.

At that point, awaken from slumber do I.

=/\= Only as writing the next dream here was began, was the first dream with Tay Tay remembered by me.  It is quite clear despite being almost eight years in the past of mine.=/\=

The scene is Pasco, Wa Airport.  My dream consciousness knew this location without being told in any way.  Tay Tay and I sat at a table and we got to know each other better.

The exact topics of conversation were a mystery, even in the dream at the time, to me.  Simply only the jumble of pleasant emotions were clear.

The table was round and white but there failed to be anyone sitting.  Only her personal and airport security were present in the distant background.  Maybe her mother, and/or other friends were there, even in the dream it was mostly vague to me.

The emotions and perception that the end came to quickly was present as Tay Tay bid a form of goodbye with the promise to meet again.

“May I go with you!?!”  Was clearly blurted out without thought by me.  If thought had accompanied it, shyness would have likely hide it.

Pleasant surprise colored Tay Tay’s expression for some reason.  She seemed confused on why it was easy to leave all that is known, for me.

Alas, that is where I was awoken by my mother.  I tried to return to the dream but, if I did the experience is currently beyond the ability to be recalled by me.

=/\=What follows is a collection of other reoccurring dreams that may or may not include other friends and family of mine.  Tay Tay is the lone celebrity to ever grace never-never-land, according to the ability to recall memories by me.?

This particular one was repeated often when slumbering, for me.=/\=

The scene is a sea dock made of wood covered in thick syrupy fog, and there is a pub.

The thick smell of the sea permeates the air at night.  The pub is active and thus there are periodically people who come and go.  The fog either reluctantly lets them go or engulfs them as they arrive or leave.

A mystery there is to why be I.  Kevin Stockard is a friend from around sixth grade in Burbank, Wa.  In 1989, father drug the family to Orofino, Id for six months.  However, Kevin wrote letters and remained a friend since then, for me.

That is unusual, Leaving is what most people do, that get awarded the title of ‘Friend’ by me.  How they leave has varied from simply moving away, stealing, and/or baseless accusations of criminal activity.

This is one of the few pillars that made recovering from depression more difficult for me.  Abundantly reversing negative self-worth into the positive is required.  That is difficult if society itself calls the self a failure.

The dream moves with me entering the pub and finding Kevin.  This dream first visited me when I was in High School.  It would somewhat prove correct as after I left the Navy I was twenty five years old.  Parents welcomed, what turned into, an indefinite return to home.

A year later parents moved to Burbank, Wa and went with them did I.  Then a very negative person was I.  However, Kevin was still living in the Tri-Cities, Wa at the time and thus the dream proved correct.

There were variations of this dream, mixed with another.  The variations consisted of me jumping off the dock and into what ‘must’ be water.  Except there never was water, just an endless abyss of fog.

Perhaps that was a warning of against actually committing suicide.  Such thoughts have graced my mind in the distant past.  Now they have become a lot more positive and uplifting.

Death is only a transformation.  As Yoda says: “Luminous beings are we…  Not this crude matter…”  Another Axiom that I either discovered, or heard beyond the ability to recall the memory by me: “A soul has a body;  Instead of a body having a soul.” The point is committing suicide is a selfish act.  If it is truly my time to die, then my higher self with see it done without my conscious decision.

There must be some reason for my continued life, since alive still am I.  Also the realization that being happy with my current life cycle, will lead to the arrival of the next.

=/\=Another reoccurring dream that began when I was in second grade, is what follows. =/\=

The scene has two locations.  Either it is in an arcade center, or it is in the middle of a six lane highway that ran near the arcade.

If in the Arcade, an attempt to find mother and father is made by me.  Invariably mother is playing “Time Pilot” because it was a game she loved most there.

Walking out of the arcade center and down a poorly paved road is either mother and I, or myself alone.

The weather is heavy rain.  West of the Cascade Mts. in Washington state is where we lived.  Anyone who has been there knows that ‘Forks’ fails to be the only small town that rarely sees the sun.

The middle of the highway with three lanes either side, stopped are we, or I.  A concrete divider is what separates the traffic.

Any further progress to get off the road fails to be met with success by me.  There is still two more directions to travel, and so those are the directions searched by us, or I.  Searching for father are we.

The other version of this dream, begins on the highway and always alone then am I.  Searching for mother and father am I.

Any ulterior message to this dream eludes understanding by me.  Maybe there is some branch in the Tree of Life where it does make sense to me.  However, given the subject matter, that it fails to relate is something that is enjoyed by me.

12.27.2016

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 4 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 0 7 ♥ Dias Wodnes; Dear Diary, Lucid Dreaming

While sleeping last night a wonderful and beautiful dream with +Taylor Swift +Taylor Alison Swift +Taylor Alison Swift, graced me.  This has happened a few times recently to me.  This dream has inspired me to begin to enter them into my diary.  This catalyst is accompanied with a desire to dream lucidly more frequently;  And increase the lucidity while dreaming.  This record is published online, to help overcome my shyness and enhance my self-confidence.

Those who know, are aware that writing out our dreams is an easy way to advance into lucid dreaming.  Certain sounds and subliminal messaging has seemingly helped accelerate the growth of mine.  However, it seems a journal is the only actual catalyst that has been discovered by me.

If there is a dream featuring coital exercises, succinct, concise, and clear will be what is told by me.  Instead of illustrating the activity any.  However, that has yet to occur in recent memory.

The dreams are written from recent to farther in the past.

=/\= Admittedly, a few of the finer details are added to help relay the scene.  The precise details are found through remote viewing as this journal entry is written, by me.  So the chance of error is present, yet to be true is believed by me. =/\=

First off we are in a restaurant, believe do I.  We are sitting in a booth and Tay Tay and I are sitting together opposite of someone else.  The table is clean, waxed, and tan colored.  The bench seats have a dark red colored leathery cushions.

The shoulder length straight blond hair frames the aristocratic beautifully chiseled face of Tay Tay.  The length of her hair is just above her shoulders.  She is wearing a red cashmere top and black dress slacks.

What the visitor is saying is unclear to me but towards our relationship, a negativity is sensed by me.  What is the protocol, is unclear to me.  An idea comes to mind that perhaps the distance between us is to small, by me.

The response from Tay Tay is immediate, as she moves closer with our hips touching side by side.

At this point, the conscious mind begins to swell from the background and I force myself to put my arm around Tay Tay’s shoulder.  Her response is again immediate and she leans into my chest.

That is the time when I wake up.  The feeling of abundant happiness, serenity, and tranquility pervades into my awakening conscious mind of mine…  As was said previously, this was perhaps one of the most beautiful dreams that has graced my slumber in four decades of life.

=/\= The new supergirl television series on CW has inspired a reoccurring dream.  However the dream is different in that Kara’el {Tay Tay} is Superman’s sister and they were never separated and are close to the same age.

What I relay is strictly the perception of mine, in the dream.  This is shorter because the details are beyond the ability of my current self to recall.=/\=

Maybe Jimmy in this scene, is the point of view of mine;  Because for some reason a distant contact with Superman, was had by me.  Maybe I was a high school friend or something.  As a teenager, young adult, the time to go adventuring was limiting for me, by studying.

Kara’el {Tay Tay} and I meet when she is attending the same university.  They are in the same class as superstars of movies, television, music, et cetera.  Thus her reciprocating my interest in her, amazes me.

Kal’el gets wind of my interest in Kara’el and reflexively objects to my courtship of her.  That he fails to actually ask what Kara’el wants seems apparent to me, especially now as this is typed by me.

However, as mentioned, Kara’el reciprocates my interest in her and that leads to us furthering us courting each other further in secret.  It certainly seems difficult to do this but somehow we manage.  Perhaps the fact that Kara’el is Kal’el’s younger sister enables us to skirt his perception.

The dream ends with us being discovered by Kal’el.  There is a sense that Kara’el is being more assertive in defending me and our relationship from her older brother.

Fantastically there are any number of ways this could be expanded upon with detail, by me.  However, relaying the dream itself is the actual purpose of mine.

KNOWLEDGE