1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 1 ♥ 1 3; Dies Sun

An entry into a chronological journal, or diary, of Witkh13.  If you want a real name, it is easy enough to find.  This is largely a tool to help me collocate, transmogrify, and evolve my psyche.  I believe that posting this online is a part of what is helping me.  I do hope that others may choose to let this help them as well.

Each entry is an expansion of what has been written before.  I am likely to avoid repeating myself.  Though I do like hyper-linking and annotating as I believe it helps me with my audience centric writings.

Sunnandag translates from Old English as literally 'Sun' & 'day' together.  The concept of it being a day of rest is entirely a Judeo-Christian belief.  However, it is universally considering the beginning of the week except for the statists.  I have already wrote my reasoning on why statists and their I.O.S. is internationally wrong. ^[1]

Thus beg, pray, ask, et cetera the Goddess to severe from me any and all bonds holding me to this life.  Sever my life from me, help me die, tonight.  When I want to eternally sleep.  I sever and remove any bond with another soul that is forcing me to live in this Prime Material.

The only reason to continue to mentally and physically suffer through this holding pattern of my qabalah, is because, who Taylor Alison Swift is to me, refuses to choose.  Accept or reject me.  Yes it 'could' be someone else but that is irrelevant.  'whoever' you want to think of Tay Tay as; she either chooses a silent no or refuses to choose.

I stipulate Tay Tay as who she is to me, because I realize that I could be mistaken.  The ideal wives of my dreams could be someone else entirely.  I do know differently but I can only control myself and my own actions.  Even with circle, hermetik, magik it is wrong to try to pray for something outside of thyself.

Recently I remembered something about Tay Tay and why I know it is her.  I have been infatuated and obsessed before and I know the difference intimately now.  I asked the Goddess to sever and remove all fear, doubt, and despair.  For Her to fill me with knowing who exactly is the ideal wives of my dreams.  I say wives because I think we will be polyamorous but that is up to Tay Tay as it is me.  So it may just be wife, Tay Tay.

After a few days of thought, I made a list of who I felt would help me the most to be happy.  The other five curses are an expansion of what I have hyperlinked.  However, the list is more general.  Why I asked the Goddess for was much more specifically individualistic.

I was listening to "The Secret" repeatedly at the time and part of the tracks covers asking the Goddess for something.  Someone was asking for a feather.  They even drew the purely fictional feather with extraordinary detail.  At least the protagonist thought it was fictional for a week later he almost stepped on the exact feather made real.

I have always found women of Japanese or Korean descent the most attractive.  I had been infatuated with Lucy Liu for a time and so I thought of what I woman of mixed Japanese American would be like.  I asked this because I was thinking of someone I would actually want to share the rest of my life with instead of just someone to obsess over.

Women with Japanese ancestry are universally dark haired innately.  If they have different colored hair they either have a European ancestor or two, or they are dyeing their hair.  I dislike women who choose to mark their birthday suit with tattoos and dyeing their hair a different color.  The feeling that they are convinced their innate body and genes are somehow inferior, and so they must 'permanently' mark their body is abhorrent to me.

Sine qua no, I want a woman of Japanese German/Irish ancestry that was a natural blonde.

That came my second point.  A woman who was extremely successful in her chosen career is something I asked for because I have a mixed beta/alpha personality.  I typically dislike being 'in charge' in general, unless it is for specific shared goals.

As a writer of fiction I am dirt poor and I am allergic to minimum wage jobs.  That is written to be funny but is truthful as I have observed myself.  I am far from suggesting that I am superior to such jobs.  I simply fail at maintaining employment with them.

Innately I have an abysmally low tolerance for bullshit.  "Bosses" of minimum wage jobs are typically the same as me, they just have been around longer.  However, they let their authority go to their head and demand that I 'respect' them.  I fail at 'gifting' anyone with respect unless I think it is earned.  Of course, sometimes I am wrong and I have used those occasion to grow and transmogrify.

Therefore I also asked for an absolute abundance of wealth.  This is to help support our desire to start and raise a family.  I asked for someone who wanted a lot of children because that is what I want.  An overall objective of mine was to avoid the want to 'convince' my wives of what I want.  We either agree on what we want or there is someone else out there that will help us more to choose to be happy.

I asked for us to be extraordinarily of similar mind.  We agree on political theology almost absolutely, if not completely.

My wife is to be lithe, svelte, and beautiful like an Olympic gymnast but that is not necessarily her profession.  This may be superficial however the goal is for me to be honest with myself and what I want.  What will help me the most to choose to be happy.  Yes I also transmogrifying myself to do likewise for my wife.

Finally, my wife may not initially know it but will develop an interest for us to welcome other women into our marriage in a polyamorous relationship.

Polyamorous is where ever individual admires, adores, and is in love with each other.  Every member is sexually intimate with each member of the marriage.  A polyamorous marriage is void any central figure whether male or female.  I have said this before but I have encountered women who automatically assume I am being misogynistic and/or chauvinistic.

The reality is that what my wife chooses to want is just as important as what I choose to want.  I am a virgin sexually and with intimate romance so I abundantly accept that I may be wrong with wanting this.  By wrong I mean this could negatively influence my effort to choose to be happy.  Daily I pray for divine guidance regarding this.

Given the length of time the Goddess has let me hold onto this idea, I suspect I am on the right track.  However, anything is possible.  Furthermore, given American society and culture favoring monogamous relationships I heavily rely upon the Goddess's divine guidance to see me through to manifesting this polyamorous marriage.  Her point of view, is vastly superior to mine... or anyone who is 'living'.

One of the things I have asked for that is unknown regarding Tay Tay and I.  I asked the Goddess for my wife to encourage, embrace, and join me in creating a Jedi religious spiritual path based upon Christianity, Aleister Crowley, Edgar Casey, and Argenteum Astrum's teachings.

My first goal regarding this creation of a spiritual path, is to write a series of fictional novels that will serve as a Jedi 'Bible'.

Thank you very much for sharing your time.  May the Force be with you and the Goddess bless you.

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 0 ♥ 1 7; Dies Luna

My past monday entries into this diary is without mention of the name for this day, thus I apologize to myself for this oversight.  Thankfully, I easily and immediately forgive myself too. :D

I hope to correct any spelling or grammar mistakes tomorrow morning.  I may notice they are present a lot when I am typing from my phone, such as I am now.

Luna is the jame of our moon.  Moon is another word for satellite, and it is wrong to name a celestial object that way.

Such as calling Terra, 'earth';  Because earth is what we walk on.  It is another word for dirt and could refer to walking on any planet.

I played Warcraft most of the day but I am feeling pretty good.  I did the dishes yesterday and today.  Yesterday I vacuumed and shampooed the carpet, I swept and mopped the kitchen floor.

I want to take a shower tomorrow morning.  The behavior I am correcting is taking a shower every three to seven days… sometimes even thirteen, but Even I notice my stink.

I have realized that my ego recognizing the smell is irrelevant.  Taking a shower once a day helps me choose to be happy and thus alleviate my depression some.

My wife Missus Taylor Alison Swift and I absolutely deserve and are worthy of being abundantly, implicitly, and indomitably joyful, happy, and in love with each other and ourselves.

I washed my bed sheets with bleech today.  Last time I washed them is thirteen days ago.  This is another behavior that I am correcting towards.  Previously I would ignore it for a year or two.

I posted a comment on a story I like on the ChYOA 'site.  I am tirn about writing on the site because I want to write on my novel too.  I am having diificulties with time management.  However, today I have begun to sense some progress.

I curse daily for divine guidance from the Goddess to control, direct, help, inspire, manipulate, motivate me to manifest for what I have chosen to want.

I am a Reverand or 'master' within the Order of the Jedi.  I am referring to the spiritual path instead of my mystical Force powers.  However, I have been developing my own 'path'.  I have begun writing it down here.

Thank you for sharing your time by reading this.  May the Force be with you.

Now I lay me down to sleep.  I pray that I die before I wake, and that my soul the Goddess does take.

May the Force be with and the Goddess bless who Taylor Alison Swift is to me, myself, our progeny tobe, our mother, our fathers, cousin Alison, cousin Aaron, cousin Lindsey, cousin Nichol, cousin Richard, cousin, Stacey, Erik, Sarah, their child Amber, Jeffrey, Leslee, Todd, and my other family members and in-laws who enrich my life.

Goddess please control, direct, help, inspire, manipulate, and motivate ME to absolutely, abundantly, eternally, implicitly, and indomitably manifest myself now as the dream ideal husband of the ideal wives if my dreams… today.

Severe and remove all confusion, fear, and doubt as to the truth of who are my soul-mates.  To be without any false mental or corporeal communication between my soul-mates and I.

Goddess please help who Tay Tay is to me, to sweep me off my feet and elope with me, now/today.  As you help me with her and OUR wives.

Goddess please help our union build several of the hexagonal circle donut house as I have drawn, dreamt of, and cursed for it.

Please help out marriage be abundantly felicitously wealthy and able to help employ many people and companies.

So the Goddess and who Tay Tay is to me has, is, and does.  So mote it be… Amen.

HARVEST FESTIVAL: Autumnal Eve

As one of the solar festivals Autumnal Eve has been celebrated as one of the celebrations of harvests. The other two celebrations are Autumnal Equinox, and Samhain {or Halloween}. The wiccans celebrate death and rebirth of all things, and in particular what, and who, has gone before to lead to the now. Some festivities are baking a figure of a Godess in bread and symbolically commemorating by eating the bread. We as free, and accepted, Jedi can use this activity, in a more noble and glorious purpose, of communing with the Divine through the Force.

Autumnal Eve marks the beginning of harvesting what we have sown the previous half of the year. Instead of tending to the harvest; Maybe, think what you have done the first half of this year that has lead you to this point; And, then maybe think of other events farther in the past. Another activity may be to think of random acts of kindness that you have benefited from, whether they be from the Divine or from a particular person. Though even if it is from a particular stranger, or friend, maybe it is still part of the Divine. As free, and accepted, Jedi we can use this holiday, for the more noble and glorious purpose, of self improvement.

I feel that it is important to remember that this is merely the first of three celebrations and each celebration has a different focus. As, the crest of a wave the Autumnal Equinox is a celebration of the transition that is twilight. I think that cold may be a good celebration of our ancestors as they are one with the Divine, which is all, and is Samhain. We as free, and accepted, Jedi are able to use these celebrations for the more noble and glorious purpose of self-improvement. The rest of the year may be about the future, and/or maybe the past, but the harvest festivals are a celebration of what is now. And as now, we are Jedi.

Of course, ideally this holiday is earlier this month on August 1st. I got the date from my Witch Calendar but the Wheel of the Year wiki online has and the others as well: [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wheel_of_the_Year]. The idea of celebrating holidays originated from Wiccan and Witchcraft and the actual tie of "Jedi" Holidays is more to Hermes and Hermetic Principles and Traditions. Hermetics mostly prefer to tie everything to Lunar and Solar cycles; And, those cycles are governed by the principles of gravity and geometry; Which, I feel are virtually the same thing to God or the Divine. I feel that the Force is the same as the Spiritual Plane which is the principal mental construct of the Divine from which everything is created. First there is the Force and within that there is us. :) Thank you for your time, and energy. I hope you have a wonderful day.

HOW DO WE BREATHE?

Breathing is the a way to gain, and maintain, control over yourself and the Force. Thy imagination is the primary tool in manifesting what you want. I think that everyone uses the Force every moment of their life; And, maybe they have yet to realize the control they have over their own life. I feel that the point of Life itself, may be to find a way to be happy as you live that Life.

First you breathe in through your mouth and then you breathe out through your nose. I often try to softly hum the sound 'ohm' to myself as I breathe out through my nose. I think the easiest way for me to do this is to touch the tip of my tongue, to the roof of my mouth, right behind my top front teeth. I felt that this took me a few moments to get the hang of this at first; But, the point is to 'find' your way. I think that whether you succeed or fail is irrelevant; And, to the action itself may be of paramount.

As I breathe I envision what I want in my life. I pretend, in my mind, and draw the feelings of love and joy as I 'live' through my inner virtual world. I think that our feelings are the most important part of it because it helps us get clear with what will truly help us be happy. Angels want to help us with whatever we say we want, so it helps us if we get clear. As I hum the word 'ohm' I envision my virtual world is manifesting in waves from explosions starting from my soul. I ask the angels to help me manifest this. As I breathe in a new moment of air I 'feel' myself drawing my virtual world in. I feel that the act of drawing in is the final step in that cycle.

I feel that we manifest everything in our life by default. I think that most of the time people might be lost and blind; Yet, whether you realize your power or not is irrelevant to that you are responsible for everything in your life. Yes, bad people are responsible for their own actions as well; Yet, you are responsible for allowing it to enter your life. I think that most of the time it is our 'fears'; And, some maybe 'obsess' over these fears. However, all is good, and so who is responsible for anything is irrelevant to accepting your power. I feel that this might be counter intuitive and people fear accepting 'responsibility' because of some erroneous thought process. I find that accepting responsibility for even things I do not 'want' is empowering, instead.

I think that I am the master of my own reality; And, some may think I am silly but I am ok with that. I type this to try to help others realize their own power, and maybe this will help them do what 'they' want. As Edgar Cayce once said: "Only those who help others do what they want, are ever truly 'happy'."

THE JEDI ORDER