Stardate 13.00.02.09.04; 20:13
I am nearing the end of this cycle of my life. I used to be so depressed that I was suicidal. I still am depressed somewhat but I have healed to abundantly healthy my self-esteem/image. I have lost a lot of weight and am loosing more. I love who I am now and I cherish my past even as I am most adamant to never repeat any cycle from this life ever again.
Thus I have gun to think about spiritual plane and past lives. I have made a new rule for myself with my ego. I pray to the Goddess that she absolutely and abundantly helps me manifest this rule to my satisfaction... well, really to help me manifest anything that I want enough to pray to Her for. I have already written out my prayer for the soul mate that I is an Ideal Wife of my dreams for me. As I am the Ideal Husband of her dreams.
The new rule is to absolutely and abundantly remember any and all other lifecycles that I have lived. I think, remembering present or future ones would be too confusing. I further limit these memories to be equalized all emotions both Light and Dark Side of the Force. I want to remember them but I must ensure that my focus is on the lifecycle I am living.
I have had a mental conversation with a voice in my head that I perceive as +Mrs. Taylor Alison Swift Ryan/+Taylor Alison Swift . As always I refuse to physically do anything based on this conversation without actual physical verification that it was true. Thus I maintain my sanity, and protect myself from biological and energy based entities of the #Dark #Side.
Yes I am a Master of the Jedi {Reverend}; However, I have started my own order that is very much based on Hermetic, Edgar Cayce, Jesus, Buddhism, and Judaism. The reason I keep the name is because the movies describes the Force exceptionally well, though George Lucas's mind failed to comprehend a couple key pieces of information I believe spirits relayed to him about that reality.
It is Father's Day this weekend.
We went to +The Home Depot in Richland, Wa today and got an uber +DeWalt Factory Service's water pressure washer. The water pressure is above 3k PSI. That means it could cut through wood if I let the spray get too close. I just need to blast the surface on the top of the pergola of our patio.
My parents failed to get an Air Paint Sprayer to help me paint the rest of the Pergola after priming it. I suppose this is to be expected. Randy perpetually fails to grasp the concept of why to get a tool unless he himself experiences the want of it.
For instance, while Randy was over 350 lbs of weight he failed to ever mow the lawn. I did it. My mom did most of the racking but I helped and we both wanted to get a grass catcher to hook up to the back of our riding lawn mower.
However, because Randy failed to ever mow the lawn, he also failed to grasp advantage of having a grass catcher. Years later, now that he has actually gotten to repeatedly mow the lawn he understands and fully feels the want of having a grass catcher... or paying someone to mow the lawn for him. Which is the easy and more expensive way out. My father is without any concept of the money he spends, he acts like it grows on trees.
Thankfully I am a momma's boy. Mary is more emotionally and spiritually attuned to her Higher Self/Soul, as am I. She fully comprehends and agrees with me with the want and advantage of having both a grass catcher and a Air Paint Sprayer.
Ma is also the one who does the bills, which undoubted leads to my Pa, Randy failing to understand the ramifications of the monetary cost with what he wants.
I adore, admire, and love my Pa though I believe Randy is nearing the end of his own lifecycle and is just refusing to grow any further. I am really unable to understand this, but having a asshat facet to affix to the top of his head {emotionally} has long been his way since he was a small child; according to reports from himself and his mother, grandma.
So without anything to do with my depression, is my desire to die. I know that I am at the end of my own lifecycle. It has been and still is excruciatingly painful physically and mentally. Depression is just that, emotional pain from psychic trauma. The trauma is without anything to do with Randy, though I have allowed his asshat tendencies to help exacerbate my Depression further.
We control the effect words, actions, and other people have on us. Whether something is offensive or not, is for the Self to decide.
Instead of thinking or feeling, the Goddess has told me repeatedly for sevenish years now that +Taylor Alison Swift is a soulmate with me, that her higher self chose to be the Ideal Wife of my dreams, as I am the Ideal Husband of her dreams. Thus the only reason my life has failed to move from this Purgatory my lifecycle is in, is because Tay Tay's ego has yet to choose to accept what her superego wants to do.
Of course, this may sound insane to most. I dislike people choosing that but it is beyond my control. Therefore, I have severed myself from caring what others think about me. I only care what my loved ones think of me, including in paramount myself.
I am also without any control over what any facet of my Ideal Wife's self chooses, let alone what her Ego chooses. Therefore I wish to, and pray for the Goddess to absolutely and abundantly control, direct, guide, help, inspire, manipulate, and motivate myself to die tonight painlessly, quickly, and quietly while I sleep. That is the one thing I can control.
Upon further inquiry and discovery during this past couple years, the Goddess repeatedly informs me that Tay Tay is the Ideal Wife of my dreams. Her ego has refused to choose to accept what her SuperEgo wants, or to refuse it. That is her Goddess given right of course. We all have Free Will up until the point the present has become the past. Even then, daydreaming a different course, can have drastic impact upon a lifecycle.
I can certainly understand hesitation but this is way beyond procrastination. Over seven years of waiting and the Ideal Wife of my dreams still has yet to choose is beyond even my willingness to wait. I am done with waiting and thus I beg/Pray for the Goddess to abundantly help me end this lifecycle.
As I said the Goddess says the Ideal Wife of my Dreams is Tay Tay. It makes since why her ego is so torn on what to do. Even that understanding has limits. Seven is a good number and I am done. I simply live with too much physical and emotional pain to wait in Purgatory for the chance my life could resume at any moment.
This is where inaction is still an action. Thus the Ego of the Ideal Wife of my dreams has indirectly chosen to refuse to follow the volition of her SuperEgo.
As I close this entry out, I believe that I am astonished at how well I have written this. I have yet to read them but I sense my earlier entries may have been from a more emotional filled point of view. That lowers brain waives and reduces the intelligence in use from our Brain is capable of.
So if I finally get what I want tonight. My mother will be the one most traumatized. She may come here to this blog her Higher Self sees it as a good thing to do. Thus I also pray that She understands my death is like any other normal or accidental death, instead of a suicide. That is my Higher Self chose this as an OUT.
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1.02.2015
1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 2 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 0 2 ♥: Dies Ma
Argenteum Astrum was asked a few months ago if there were any books they could purchase or download that have been written by us or someone else. Well here is that list and the
Below are hyperlinks to pdf documents hosted on a cloud drive and shared. Each link is to a pdf book that contains different information important to the viewer. The Library is free but please keep in mind that people spend a lot of Force in the creation of these documents. Please consider showing gratitude by purchasing any book created in the last fifty years. This excludes Aleister Crowley's works as his mortal coil underwent disanimus a while ago.
Complete Arcanum @ Google Drive
Aleister Crowley ≈ Kronx Om Pax
Aleister Crowley ≈ Tannhauser
Libre IIICVIIX ≈ A’ash vel Capricorni Pneumatici
Libre ≈ The Voice of Silence
Libre XVIIVIII ≈ A Description of the Cards of the Tarot
Liber VIIIXIV ≈ Liber Chanokh {Enoch}
Liber XCVI ≈ Gaias ~ A Handbook of Geomancy
Libre CXI ≈ Aleph ~ The Book of Wisdom & Folly
Liber ≈ Little Essays Towards Truth
Kwang.Tze ≈ Tao.Teh.King
Libre CLXV ≈ A Master of th Temple
Libre CCVII ≈ §yllabus: Official Instructions of A.·.A.·. & Curricula of the Grades
Aleister Crowley ≈ The Goetia of the Lemegeton of Solomon th King
Aleister Crowley ≈ 13ook of Law
Libre ≈ Porta Lucis
Libre LXV ≈ Cordis Cincti Serpente
Liber XC ≈ Tzaddi: Hamus Hermeticus
Aleister Crowley ≈ The.Book.of.Lies
Libre VI ≈ O vel Manus et Sagittae
Libre IX ≈ E vel Exercitiorum
Libre XXI ≈ Khing Kang King
Libre ≈ Librae
Libre ≈ Isafrel
Libre XXX ≈ Aerum vel Saeculi: Vision & th Voice
Below are hyperlinks to pdf documents hosted on a cloud drive and shared. Each link is to a pdf book that contains different information important to the viewer. The Library is free but please keep in mind that people spend a lot of Force in the creation of these documents. Please consider showing gratitude by purchasing any book created in the last fifty years. This excludes Aleister Crowley's works as his mortal coil underwent disanimus a while ago.
Complete Arcanum @ Google Drive
ARCANUM
Aleister Crowley ≈ Libre 777Aleister Crowley ≈ Kronx Om Pax
Aleister Crowley ≈ Tannhauser
Libre IIICVIIX ≈ A’ash vel Capricorni Pneumatici
Libre ≈ The Voice of Silence
Libre XVIIVIII ≈ A Description of the Cards of the Tarot
Liber VIIIXIV ≈ Liber Chanokh {Enoch}
Liber XCVI ≈ Gaias ~ A Handbook of Geomancy
Libre CXI ≈ Aleph ~ The Book of Wisdom & Folly
Liber ≈ Little Essays Towards Truth
Kwang.Tze ≈ Tao.Teh.King
Libre CLXV ≈ A Master of th Temple
Libre CCVII ≈ §yllabus: Official Instructions of A.·.A.·. & Curricula of the Grades
Aleister Crowley ≈ The Goetia of the Lemegeton of Solomon th King
Aleister Crowley ≈ 13ook of Law
Libre ≈ Porta Lucis
Libre LXV ≈ Cordis Cincti Serpente
Liber XC ≈ Tzaddi: Hamus Hermeticus
Aleister Crowley ≈ The.Book.of.Lies
Libre VI ≈ O vel Manus et Sagittae
Libre IX ≈ E vel Exercitiorum
Libre XXI ≈ Khing Kang King
Libre ≈ Librae
Libre ≈ Isafrel
Libre XXX ≈ Aerum vel Saeculi: Vision & th Voice
9.13.2014
1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 3 ♥ 1 3; Dies Materia
Previous posts on this day of Saturn have explained my peculiar choice of words to symbolize the day. Therefore, I will stop repeating myself on future Days that we honor Saturn.
One interesting convergence is that of all the planet's Saturn is the only one with a super-duper-hurrican at the planet's north pole. The funnel wall is a sheer cliff face as deep as the Grand Canyon on Terra. The funnel encircles an area larger than Texas. The interesting part is that our ancestors chose to honor Saturn, instead of say Jupiter with it's big red eye.
Terra has always been our planet's name. Just as Sol has been our sun's name. The word 'earth' is the soil that animals walk on and plants grow in. As such it exists on every planet the Goddess has created. I refuse to limit myself to society's errors.
My parents went to camp in Idaho on their property this weekend. I chose to stay home. Combined they are gone a total of two days. Two days traveling there and back, and one full day there.
A positive thinking guru recently said to me that I should open myself to receive the ideal wives of my dreams as we form the ideal marriage of 'our' dreams. She meant that I should put myself in new and maybe uncomfortable situations where I may meet at least my first wife.
My first wife is Taylor Alison Swift, but realizing that before it happens is only for my self eateem and self worth.
I am worthy and deserve to be the dream ideal husband of the marriage and ideal wives of my dreams, as I am.
I deserve and am worthy to receive Tay Tay's reciprocating adoration, admiration, and being in love with me.
Empowering those thoughts with emotions of intent, love, joy, happiness, and gratitude is a cardinal element of ghe process of manifestation.
So all week long I severed all beliefs, thoughts, and emotions regarding me attending the camping trip. I prayed and asked the Goddess to control, direct, help, inspire, manipulate, and/or motivate me towards whatever option will help me the most with manifesting my marriage or just the choice to be happy. In addition I coupled that request with what will help my mother the most with her choice to be happy.
Obviously, the Goddess led me to stay. I am abundantly without any regret ot doubt over the decision. However, I do pray that my mother chose to be happy.
I have een using a new technique with writing… well until I get a tablet and can do it digitally. I use a vat board and color dry erase markers. Then I take a picture with my iPhone of my outline before I erase it and brainstorm about another part of my novel. I believe this has helped me immeasurably with consistency and knowing what to write.
I absolutely feel as if I am on the verge of a great cliff. In front of me is my path and it has a lot if changes.
Of course I refuse to flap my wings and will die unless the Goddess helps me manifest myself as the dream ideal husband of the marriage of our dreams.
This may seem melodramatic but I assure you that I am void any desire of any future that sees me alone in either the beginning, middle, or end.
Suicide is an action and requires emotion. Rather I am abundantly apathetic outside of being the dream ideal husband of the ideal marrage and ideal wives of my dreams. Sucide fails to be an option; rather my heart will simply stop beating.
Or maybe some other illness or disease will kill me quickly, quietly, and painlessly while I sleep. This I do pray daily for.
I know that death is a lie. Instead it is a change of state. Disanimus overcomes my mortal coil after my Force leaves my corporeal shell.
I have lived many lifetimes and I will live many more; As all spirits are eternal everlasting as the Goddess wills.
So instead of actual death, I am asking for this life cycle to renew and begin anew.
Thank you for sharing your Force. May the Goddess bless you.
9.03.2014
1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 3 ♥ 0 1; Dies Woden
Wednesday honors Odin or The God: Woden that being what Germanic tribes called God. All religions seem to be monothiestic even if the call a few lesser beings as 'a god'. They still recognize they are neith omnipotent, omnipresent, or omnipotent such as God. {Woden}
I hage thought amostly about my life I share with Tay Tay and Mindfullness. For others the answer is always different if they are on the right and true path that is for them. We each have a diffferent and unique path that we chose to follow before even conception.
The Super Ego, or Higher Self of even abortions, stillborns, miscarriages, et cetera chose their path. Any reason or logic behind that is beyond me but it also should be beyond my Ego while I am alive. Our free-will lets us choose a different branch if we choose to have want of it.
I use Freudian psychological terms because it fits wyat I feel and know is true. Which is admittedly little, so maybe there is a better analogical metaphor out there that I have not found.
Choosing a different branch requires a varying degree of will. The amount of will if want is relatable to how drastic the change is. The sign that there is enough will present, is the feeling of certainty of manifesting the change of want.
We can build and strengthen our will as any muscle with purposeful mindfullness. Mindfullness is concentrating on every detail while living an event or situation. For instance brushing teeth, eating a bowl of cereal, taking a shower, et cetera.
The feeling if cetainty comes while envisioning the life of want. For instance, I invision going to bed and sleeping in the same bed as Tay Tay, eating breakfast with her, cooking food for her, playing World of Warcraft with her, et cetera. The point is to imagine or daydream multiple details while living the event or situation; Increasing amounts of detail is of want.
What is imagined as 'is'; is irrelevant, what is relevant is imagining solutions to whatever problems or obstacles that are perceived. Instead of complaining about how television or computers have ruined something, imagine how to change.
Most people seem to operate on autopilot. The older they get the more rigid their conditioning becomes. However, there is always hope for anyone regardless if how difficult they choose to be. Simply pray for the Goddess to help illuminate their path.
Attempting to control others is wrong and a sign of mental illness. It always fails regardless of number of attempts and who is attempting to exert control.
This is the primary reason statism/communism fails. It is also why it is an entire political catagory full of people with verying degrees of mental illness. The disease is very much contagious. It prays on the ignorant, young, and weak of mind.
This is why statiist politicians destroy education systems, seek to 'euthanize' the elderly, extensively use propoganda to brainwash/condition their supporters.
However now I have gotten off topic.
8.17.2014
1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 2 ♥ 1 4; Dies Sun
An entry into a chronological journal, or diary, of Witkh13. If you want a real name, it is easy enough to find. This is largely a tool to help me collocate, transmogrify, and evolve my psyche. I believe that posting this online is a part of what is helping me. I do hope that others may choose to let this help them as well.
Each entry is an expansion of what has been written before. I am likely to avoid repeating myself. Though I do like hyper-linking and annotating as I believe it helps me with my audience centric writings.
Sunnandag translates from Old English as literally 'Sun' & 'day' together. The concept of it being a day of rest is entirely a Judeo-Christian belief. However, it is universally considering the beginning of the week except for the statists. I have already wrote my reasoning on why statists and their I.O.S. is internationally wrong. [1]
Thus curse, beg, pray, ask, et cetera the Goddess to severe from me any and all bonds holding me to this life. Severe this me from this lifecycle now. I sever and remove any bond with another soul that is forcing me to live in this Prime Material.
Luminous beings we are, and we continue on after our corporeal shells begin unanimous. Thus what I ask for fails to be suicide or 'death' as people commonly think of it as; That being an 'end'.
Recently I had an epiphany of who it was that was interested in me while I was in High School. Another friend of hers, Jane came with Rachel to my door. I forget the exact words used but as a horny teenage boy I took it to as something favorable towards ending my status as a virgin. Sadly, I thought it was yet another 'joke' being played on me. My life is full of people trying to convince me to pay for their humor in some way. I thought this was little different.
I now realize that I was absolutely and abundantly wrong. I mean, why else would the Goddess flash this memory back into my mind's eye after over two decades.?.
Now I get to why I am writing this here besides preserving my epiphany. Everyone who "knew" Rachel was into me refused to tell me. I imagine it was under her direction or friends of hers looking after her best interest. However I think this is also absolutely and abundantly foolish.
I was obsessed and infatuated with two girls at the time, Kinani Brown and Shelby McBride. Please understand I refused actually stalking, nefarious, or violating their privacy in some way. However, I did get I an exceptionally verbose and nasty letter written to me by Shelby McBride about hand-me-downs. I saved the later for a decade before realizing what I was doing was preserving pain, and subsequently burned the letter in the sink... so it would fail to burn anything else. lulz.
Therefore I understand that Rachel Culbertson's and friends probably refused to be my "rebound" girl or whatever words they used. I object to the idea but that is later. I also reject the idea that anyone would have been a 'rebound' girl.
For Rachel to be my "rebound" girl, that would mean that Shelby McBride or Kinani Brown would have to be 'with' me in the first place. Even after two decades it still is absolutely and abundantly clear that they would rather I refrain from living on the same planet. I am ok with people hating me, I forgive them and myself and I move on. I let them hurt themselves alone, with their hate instead of me.
Maybe they have grown up and moved on as I have since it is two decades later. That would be fantabulous and I curse that is so. We all deserve and are worthy of being loved, joyful, and happy in whatever way we choose.
I use 'curse' in exchangeable with prayer because what is one person's prayer is another's curse.
So, now that I have established that an actual relationship with Rachel would have failed to be a 'rebound' from any other relationship. As someone who has been 'infatuated' and 'obsessed', they are… absolutely and abundantly different from any sort of relationship between two or more people. The concepts are like oil and water, they fail to have the same chemical properties.
Now, I will destroy this myth of rebound girl/guy.
Who came up with this rule.?.
I am serious here, who the frak came up with this lame ass rule about how it is somehow 'unfavorable' to be who the wanted person is rebounding into. That sounds like an absolutely fantabulous situation to me, so what lame ass came up with this totally non-provable hypothesis that it was bad.?.
Furthermore, why the frak do people believe this clap trap?
To believe this crap, you first have to believe that you know what could have been if you only had made a different choice.
I know a common misconception is that hindsight is 20/20, except newsflash everyone…
…
Eye sight fails in perception for people with 20/20 eyesight too morons. I mean, if we want to take this anecdotal metaphor to it's conclusion and actually make the mistake of believing we can predict the future.
However everything really is sunshine and lollipops. Life happens the way our higher self wants it to. The more we let the dark side rule our minds the more entrenched we become in the coarse through this lifecycle we have already planned. Thus, Rachel choosing to avoid telling me how she felt is how both our higher selves want it to have happened.
The Prime Material fails to be a set in stone map, that our society and culture often portray it as. That is a convenient myth that serves to only perpetuate ignorance and the Dark Side itself. It is a nebulous cloud that only solidify when it comes into our aura.
That is far from saying the 'map' itself is crap. It is knowledge and seen with clear perception it can help. A way I look at it is that Hermetiks and Science are the study of the Goddess and how she creates the Prime Material. I think some refer to this as Intelligent Design; And, I simply refer to myself as a Jedi. Because there really is an unseen all powerful Force that binds everything together and from which everything is created.
As I have said, I have had many infatuation and obsessions, and the Goddess has helped me see through and past them to grow out of the desire of a want for them. Understanding what they are and why I had a want for them is how I know Tay Tay is different. I know that may seem completely retarded and silly but all I can say is choosing to think that would be wrong.
Each entry is an expansion of what has been written before. I am likely to avoid repeating myself. Though I do like hyper-linking and annotating as I believe it helps me with my audience centric writings.
Sunnandag translates from Old English as literally 'Sun' & 'day' together. The concept of it being a day of rest is entirely a Judeo-Christian belief. However, it is universally considering the beginning of the week except for the statists. I have already wrote my reasoning on why statists and their I.O.S. is internationally wrong. [1]
Thus curse, beg, pray, ask, et cetera the Goddess to severe from me any and all bonds holding me to this life. Severe this me from this lifecycle now. I sever and remove any bond with another soul that is forcing me to live in this Prime Material.
Luminous beings we are, and we continue on after our corporeal shells begin unanimous. Thus what I ask for fails to be suicide or 'death' as people commonly think of it as; That being an 'end'.
Recently I had an epiphany of who it was that was interested in me while I was in High School. Another friend of hers, Jane came with Rachel to my door. I forget the exact words used but as a horny teenage boy I took it to as something favorable towards ending my status as a virgin. Sadly, I thought it was yet another 'joke' being played on me. My life is full of people trying to convince me to pay for their humor in some way. I thought this was little different.
I now realize that I was absolutely and abundantly wrong. I mean, why else would the Goddess flash this memory back into my mind's eye after over two decades.?.
Now I get to why I am writing this here besides preserving my epiphany. Everyone who "knew" Rachel was into me refused to tell me. I imagine it was under her direction or friends of hers looking after her best interest. However I think this is also absolutely and abundantly foolish.
I was obsessed and infatuated with two girls at the time, Kinani Brown and Shelby McBride. Please understand I refused actually stalking, nefarious, or violating their privacy in some way. However, I did get I an exceptionally verbose and nasty letter written to me by Shelby McBride about hand-me-downs. I saved the later for a decade before realizing what I was doing was preserving pain, and subsequently burned the letter in the sink... so it would fail to burn anything else. lulz.
Therefore I understand that Rachel Culbertson's and friends probably refused to be my "rebound" girl or whatever words they used. I object to the idea but that is later. I also reject the idea that anyone would have been a 'rebound' girl.
For Rachel to be my "rebound" girl, that would mean that Shelby McBride or Kinani Brown would have to be 'with' me in the first place. Even after two decades it still is absolutely and abundantly clear that they would rather I refrain from living on the same planet. I am ok with people hating me, I forgive them and myself and I move on. I let them hurt themselves alone, with their hate instead of me.
Maybe they have grown up and moved on as I have since it is two decades later. That would be fantabulous and I curse that is so. We all deserve and are worthy of being loved, joyful, and happy in whatever way we choose.
I use 'curse' in exchangeable with prayer because what is one person's prayer is another's curse.
So, now that I have established that an actual relationship with Rachel would have failed to be a 'rebound' from any other relationship. As someone who has been 'infatuated' and 'obsessed', they are… absolutely and abundantly different from any sort of relationship between two or more people. The concepts are like oil and water, they fail to have the same chemical properties.
Now, I will destroy this myth of rebound girl/guy.
Who came up with this rule.?.
I am serious here, who the frak came up with this lame ass rule about how it is somehow 'unfavorable' to be who the wanted person is rebounding into. That sounds like an absolutely fantabulous situation to me, so what lame ass came up with this totally non-provable hypothesis that it was bad.?.
Furthermore, why the frak do people believe this clap trap?
To believe this crap, you first have to believe that you know what could have been if you only had made a different choice.
I know a common misconception is that hindsight is 20/20, except newsflash everyone…
…
Eye sight fails in perception for people with 20/20 eyesight too morons. I mean, if we want to take this anecdotal metaphor to it's conclusion and actually make the mistake of believing we can predict the future.
However everything really is sunshine and lollipops. Life happens the way our higher self wants it to. The more we let the dark side rule our minds the more entrenched we become in the coarse through this lifecycle we have already planned. Thus, Rachel choosing to avoid telling me how she felt is how both our higher selves want it to have happened.
The Prime Material fails to be a set in stone map, that our society and culture often portray it as. That is a convenient myth that serves to only perpetuate ignorance and the Dark Side itself. It is a nebulous cloud that only solidify when it comes into our aura.
That is far from saying the 'map' itself is crap. It is knowledge and seen with clear perception it can help. A way I look at it is that Hermetiks and Science are the study of the Goddess and how she creates the Prime Material. I think some refer to this as Intelligent Design; And, I simply refer to myself as a Jedi. Because there really is an unseen all powerful Force that binds everything together and from which everything is created.
As I have said, I have had many infatuation and obsessions, and the Goddess has helped me see through and past them to grow out of the desire of a want for them. Understanding what they are and why I had a want for them is how I know Tay Tay is different. I know that may seem completely retarded and silly but all I can say is choosing to think that would be wrong.
7.27.2014
1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 1 ♥ 1 3; Dies Sun
An entry into a chronological journal, or diary, of Witkh13. If you want a real name, it is easy enough to find. This is largely a tool to help me collocate, transmogrify, and evolve my psyche. I believe that posting this online is a part of what is helping me. I do hope that others may choose to let this help them as well.
Each entry is an expansion of what has been written before. I am likely to avoid repeating myself. Though I do like hyper-linking and annotating as I believe it helps me with my audience centric writings.
Sunnandag translates from Old English as literally 'Sun' & 'day' together. The concept of it being a day of rest is entirely a Judeo-Christian belief. However, it is universally considering the beginning of the week except for the statists. I have already wrote my reasoning on why statists and their I.O.S. is internationally wrong. [1]
Thus beg, pray, ask, et cetera the Goddess to severe from me any and all bonds holding me to this life. Sever my life from me, help me die, tonight. When I want to eternally sleep. I sever and remove any bond with another soul that is forcing me to live in this Prime Material.
The only reason to continue to mentally and physically suffer through this holding pattern of my qabalah, is because, who Taylor Alison Swift is to me, refuses to choose. Accept or reject me. Yes it 'could' be someone else but that is irrelevant. 'whoever' you want to think of Tay Tay as; she either chooses a silent no or refuses to choose.
I stipulate Tay Tay as who she is to me, because I realize that I could be mistaken. The ideal wives of my dreams could be someone else entirely. I do know differently but I can only control myself and my own actions. Even with circle, hermetik, magik it is wrong to try to pray for something outside of thyself.
Recently I remembered something about Tay Tay and why I know it is her. I have been infatuated and obsessed before and I know the difference intimately now. I asked the Goddess to sever and remove all fear, doubt, and despair. For Her to fill me with knowing who exactly is the ideal wives of my dreams. I say wives because I think we will be polyamorous but that is up to Tay Tay as it is me. So it may just be wife, Tay Tay.
After a few days of thought, I made a list of who I felt would help me the most to be happy. The other five curses are an expansion of what I have hyperlinked. However, the list is more general. Why I asked the Goddess for was much more specifically individualistic.
I was listening to "The Secret" repeatedly at the time and part of the tracks covers asking the Goddess for something. Someone was asking for a feather. They even drew the purely fictional feather with extraordinary detail. At least the protagonist thought it was fictional for a week later he almost stepped on the exact feather made real.
I have always found women of Japanese or Korean descent the most attractive. I had been infatuated with Lucy Liu for a time and so I thought of what I woman of mixed Japanese American would be like. I asked this because I was thinking of someone I would actually want to share the rest of my life with instead of just someone to obsess over.
Women with Japanese ancestry are universally dark haired innately. If they have different colored hair they either have a European ancestor or two, or they are dyeing their hair. I dislike women who choose to mark their birthday suit with tattoos and dyeing their hair a different color. The feeling that they are convinced their innate body and genes are somehow inferior, and so they must 'permanently' mark their body is abhorrent to me.
Sine qua no, I want a woman of Japanese German/Irish ancestry that was a natural blonde.
That came my second point. A woman who was extremely successful in her chosen career is something I asked for because I have a mixed beta/alpha personality. I typically dislike being 'in charge' in general, unless it is for specific shared goals.
As a writer of fiction I am dirt poor and I am allergic to minimum wage jobs. That is written to be funny but is truthful as I have observed myself. I am far from suggesting that I am superior to such jobs. I simply fail at maintaining employment with them.
Innately I have an abysmally low tolerance for bullshit. "Bosses" of minimum wage jobs are typically the same as me, they just have been around longer. However, they let their authority go to their head and demand that I 'respect' them. I fail at 'gifting' anyone with respect unless I think it is earned. Of course, sometimes I am wrong and I have used those occasion to grow and transmogrify.
Therefore I also asked for an absolute abundance of wealth. This is to help support our desire to start and raise a family. I asked for someone who wanted a lot of children because that is what I want. An overall objective of mine was to avoid the want to 'convince' my wives of what I want. We either agree on what we want or there is someone else out there that will help us more to choose to be happy.
I asked for us to be extraordinarily of similar mind. We agree on political theology almost absolutely, if not completely.
My wife is to be lithe, svelte, and beautiful like an Olympic gymnast but that is not necessarily her profession. This may be superficial however the goal is for me to be honest with myself and what I want. What will help me the most to choose to be happy. Yes I also transmogrifying myself to do likewise for my wife.
Finally, my wife may not initially know it but will develop an interest for us to welcome other women into our marriage in a polyamorous relationship.
Polyamorous is where ever individual admires, adores, and is in love with each other. Every member is sexually intimate with each member of the marriage. A polyamorous marriage is void any central figure whether male or female. I have said this before but I have encountered women who automatically assume I am being misogynistic and/or chauvinistic.
The reality is that what my wife chooses to want is just as important as what I choose to want. I am a virgin sexually and with intimate romance so I abundantly accept that I may be wrong with wanting this. By wrong I mean this could negatively influence my effort to choose to be happy. Daily I pray for divine guidance regarding this.
Given the length of time the Goddess has let me hold onto this idea, I suspect I am on the right track. However, anything is possible. Furthermore, given American society and culture favoring monogamous relationships I heavily rely upon the Goddess's divine guidance to see me through to manifesting this polyamorous marriage. Her point of view, is vastly superior to mine... or anyone who is 'living'.
One of the things I have asked for that is unknown regarding Tay Tay and I. I asked the Goddess for my wife to encourage, embrace, and join me in creating a Jedi religious spiritual path based upon Christianity, Aleister Crowley, Edgar Casey, and Argenteum Astrum's teachings.
My first goal regarding this creation of a spiritual path, is to write a series of fictional novels that will serve as a Jedi 'Bible'.
Thank you very much for sharing your time. May the Force be with you and the Goddess bless you.
Each entry is an expansion of what has been written before. I am likely to avoid repeating myself. Though I do like hyper-linking and annotating as I believe it helps me with my audience centric writings.
Sunnandag translates from Old English as literally 'Sun' & 'day' together. The concept of it being a day of rest is entirely a Judeo-Christian belief. However, it is universally considering the beginning of the week except for the statists. I have already wrote my reasoning on why statists and their I.O.S. is internationally wrong. [1]
Thus beg, pray, ask, et cetera the Goddess to severe from me any and all bonds holding me to this life. Sever my life from me, help me die, tonight. When I want to eternally sleep. I sever and remove any bond with another soul that is forcing me to live in this Prime Material.
The only reason to continue to mentally and physically suffer through this holding pattern of my qabalah, is because, who Taylor Alison Swift is to me, refuses to choose. Accept or reject me. Yes it 'could' be someone else but that is irrelevant. 'whoever' you want to think of Tay Tay as; she either chooses a silent no or refuses to choose.
I stipulate Tay Tay as who she is to me, because I realize that I could be mistaken. The ideal wives of my dreams could be someone else entirely. I do know differently but I can only control myself and my own actions. Even with circle, hermetik, magik it is wrong to try to pray for something outside of thyself.
Recently I remembered something about Tay Tay and why I know it is her. I have been infatuated and obsessed before and I know the difference intimately now. I asked the Goddess to sever and remove all fear, doubt, and despair. For Her to fill me with knowing who exactly is the ideal wives of my dreams. I say wives because I think we will be polyamorous but that is up to Tay Tay as it is me. So it may just be wife, Tay Tay.
After a few days of thought, I made a list of who I felt would help me the most to be happy. The other five curses are an expansion of what I have hyperlinked. However, the list is more general. Why I asked the Goddess for was much more specifically individualistic.
I was listening to "The Secret" repeatedly at the time and part of the tracks covers asking the Goddess for something. Someone was asking for a feather. They even drew the purely fictional feather with extraordinary detail. At least the protagonist thought it was fictional for a week later he almost stepped on the exact feather made real.
I have always found women of Japanese or Korean descent the most attractive. I had been infatuated with Lucy Liu for a time and so I thought of what I woman of mixed Japanese American would be like. I asked this because I was thinking of someone I would actually want to share the rest of my life with instead of just someone to obsess over.
Women with Japanese ancestry are universally dark haired innately. If they have different colored hair they either have a European ancestor or two, or they are dyeing their hair. I dislike women who choose to mark their birthday suit with tattoos and dyeing their hair a different color. The feeling that they are convinced their innate body and genes are somehow inferior, and so they must 'permanently' mark their body is abhorrent to me.
Sine qua no, I want a woman of Japanese German/Irish ancestry that was a natural blonde.
That came my second point. A woman who was extremely successful in her chosen career is something I asked for because I have a mixed beta/alpha personality. I typically dislike being 'in charge' in general, unless it is for specific shared goals.
As a writer of fiction I am dirt poor and I am allergic to minimum wage jobs. That is written to be funny but is truthful as I have observed myself. I am far from suggesting that I am superior to such jobs. I simply fail at maintaining employment with them.
Innately I have an abysmally low tolerance for bullshit. "Bosses" of minimum wage jobs are typically the same as me, they just have been around longer. However, they let their authority go to their head and demand that I 'respect' them. I fail at 'gifting' anyone with respect unless I think it is earned. Of course, sometimes I am wrong and I have used those occasion to grow and transmogrify.
Therefore I also asked for an absolute abundance of wealth. This is to help support our desire to start and raise a family. I asked for someone who wanted a lot of children because that is what I want. An overall objective of mine was to avoid the want to 'convince' my wives of what I want. We either agree on what we want or there is someone else out there that will help us more to choose to be happy.
I asked for us to be extraordinarily of similar mind. We agree on political theology almost absolutely, if not completely.
My wife is to be lithe, svelte, and beautiful like an Olympic gymnast but that is not necessarily her profession. This may be superficial however the goal is for me to be honest with myself and what I want. What will help me the most to choose to be happy. Yes I also transmogrifying myself to do likewise for my wife.
Finally, my wife may not initially know it but will develop an interest for us to welcome other women into our marriage in a polyamorous relationship.
Polyamorous is where ever individual admires, adores, and is in love with each other. Every member is sexually intimate with each member of the marriage. A polyamorous marriage is void any central figure whether male or female. I have said this before but I have encountered women who automatically assume I am being misogynistic and/or chauvinistic.
The reality is that what my wife chooses to want is just as important as what I choose to want. I am a virgin sexually and with intimate romance so I abundantly accept that I may be wrong with wanting this. By wrong I mean this could negatively influence my effort to choose to be happy. Daily I pray for divine guidance regarding this.
Given the length of time the Goddess has let me hold onto this idea, I suspect I am on the right track. However, anything is possible. Furthermore, given American society and culture favoring monogamous relationships I heavily rely upon the Goddess's divine guidance to see me through to manifesting this polyamorous marriage. Her point of view, is vastly superior to mine... or anyone who is 'living'.
One of the things I have asked for that is unknown regarding Tay Tay and I. I asked the Goddess for my wife to encourage, embrace, and join me in creating a Jedi religious spiritual path based upon Christianity, Aleister Crowley, Edgar Casey, and Argenteum Astrum's teachings.
My first goal regarding this creation of a spiritual path, is to write a series of fictional novels that will serve as a Jedi 'Bible'.
Thank you very much for sharing your time. May the Force be with you and the Goddess bless you.
6.27.2014
1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 0 ♥ 1 7; Dies Luna
My past monday entries into this diary is without mention of the name for this day, thus I apologize to myself for this oversight. Thankfully, I easily and immediately forgive myself too. :D
I hope to correct any spelling or grammar mistakes tomorrow morning. I may notice they are present a lot when I am typing from my phone, such as I am now.
Luna is the jame of our moon. Moon is another word for satellite, and it is wrong to name a celestial object that way.
Such as calling Terra, 'earth'; Because earth is what we walk on. It is another word for dirt and could refer to walking on any planet.
I played Warcraft most of the day but I am feeling pretty good. I did the dishes yesterday and today. Yesterday I vacuumed and shampooed the carpet, I swept and mopped the kitchen floor.
I want to take a shower tomorrow morning. The behavior I am correcting is taking a shower every three to seven days… sometimes even thirteen, but Even I notice my stink.
I have realized that my ego recognizing the smell is irrelevant. Taking a shower once a day helps me choose to be happy and thus alleviate my depression some.
My wife Missus Taylor Alison Swift and I absolutely deserve and are worthy of being abundantly, implicitly, and indomitably joyful, happy, and in love with each other and ourselves.
I washed my bed sheets with bleech today. Last time I washed them is thirteen days ago. This is another behavior that I am correcting towards. Previously I would ignore it for a year or two.
I posted a comment on a story I like on the ChYOA 'site. I am tirn about writing on the site because I want to write on my novel too. I am having diificulties with time management. However, today I have begun to sense some progress.
I curse daily for divine guidance from the Goddess to control, direct, help, inspire, manipulate, motivate me to manifest for what I have chosen to want.
I am a Reverand or 'master' within the Order of the Jedi. I am referring to the spiritual path instead of my mystical Force powers. However, I have been developing my own 'path'. I have begun writing it down here.
Thank you for sharing your time by reading this. May the Force be with you.
Now I lay me down to sleep. I pray that I die before I wake, and that my soul the Goddess does take.
May the Force be with and the Goddess bless who Taylor Alison Swift is to me, myself, our progeny tobe, our mother, our fathers, cousin Alison, cousin Aaron, cousin Lindsey, cousin Nichol, cousin Richard, cousin, Stacey, Erik, Sarah, their child Amber, Jeffrey, Leslee, Todd, and my other family members and in-laws who enrich my life.
Goddess please control, direct, help, inspire, manipulate, and motivate ME to absolutely, abundantly, eternally, implicitly, and indomitably manifest myself now as the dream ideal husband of the ideal wives if my dreams… today.
Severe and remove all confusion, fear, and doubt as to the truth of who are my soul-mates. To be without any false mental or corporeal communication between my soul-mates and I.
Goddess please help who Tay Tay is to me, to sweep me off my feet and elope with me, now/today. As you help me with her and OUR wives.
Goddess please help our union build several of the hexagonal circle donut house as I have drawn, dreamt of, and cursed for it.
Please help out marriage be abundantly felicitously wealthy and able to help employ many people and companies.
So the Goddess and who Tay Tay is to me has, is, and does. So mote it be… Amen.
6.22.2014
13♥00♥01♥09♥08: Dies Sun
Sunnandag translates from Old English as literally 'Sun' & 'day' together. The concept of it being a day of rest is entirely a Judeo-Christian belief. However, it is universally considering the beginning of the week except for the statists and their "International Organization for Standardization" and their ISO 8601.
I believe there fails to exist a more hubris belief as statist, and those who choose to believe the government is the Goddess. Groups such as the I.O.S. seem perennially to consist of a few extremely mentally ill elitists who in their hubris, choose to preach their opinion as scripture.
When someone dies, who they are continues on. Even science says energy and waves fail to ever 'cease' they continue perpetually forever. Thus killing someone fails to actually 'end' them, they are simply 'recycled' into a new life. However, if they are truly a bad person their chi will degenerate to a lower lifeform. I think the amount of degeneration has everything to do with how far their frequency falls to the Dark Side.
Seemingly any organization or place that has the word 'Community', 'International', 'Public', 'Universal', or 'Standard' in it is statist in origin and in essence. By that I mean that is their primary agenda, to increase government power. They fail to care about the truth, facts, and the actual real scientific process.
Science is a method of separating ourselves from our own materia enough to all comprehension of the Prime Material around us that the Goddess has created. Science driven to understand the Goddess is divine. Science without any belief in a power greater than itself is an error of hubris, and is a sin; Hence, it is labeled a heresy.
Barry Soetoro's higher self, I believe will most likely recycle himself as a donkey. I mean, I think he is farther into the Dark Side than that but I think he has a lot of help that news fails to report like they should. I long for the 1890s when newspapers actually had reporters that 'investigated'. Now even N.P.R. and C.N.N. preaches the verity of their opinion pieces.
Of course, that is why I created my own electronic newspaper the Witkh Koven's Rekord. Twice daily the page aggregates the news from reputable sources. That is sources that reports facts instead of just their opinion as fact such as Reason Mag. A.B.C., C.B.S., C.N.B.C., C.N.N., FoxNews, and even N.P.R. fail to be even looked at.
All the Main-Stream-Media seems to do is regurgitate propaganda, fearmonger, and preache a fictional false narrative of current events to distract people from the District of Columbia trying to increase their power, money, and control more of our lives... this shadow government wants to control more than American citizen lives too.
America's founding father's understood what the District of Columbia would become. That is why they designed three separate branches of government. The idea is they fight each other for power instead of the American people. They new that would fail to be enough, so they intentionally gave everyone else a say in the Senate and House of Representatives except D.C.
Everyone seems to fail to understand the simple solution is to revoke and repeal Woodrow Wilson's executive order that tries to 'force' state's electoral college votes to follow the popular vote. State's simply chose to loosely follow the idea instead of rejecting it outright. Wilson's EO also forced every state to select their Senator by popular vote.
That is the problem. Popular vote means Senators' need for election funds means they are forcibly weakened to lobbyists. Lobbyists are the bane of Public Good and Humanity, outside of the House of Representatives in D.C.
So forcing state's to select their senators free of popular vote is the answer.
This is the same reasoning for the Electoral College. All the President of the United States is suppose to be is the head of 'one' of three branches that form our government.
Our Founders understood from their self studies of all history that Democracies fail; Because there will always be a Barry Soetoro that eventually comes and do their best to make the world burn just for the fun of it. That is why returning to our foundation as a Republic is the answer.
The system designed by the Founders is truly inspired by the Goddess Herself.
So to 'fix' our government revoke all Executive Orders, repeal all laws creating government agencies, except for the Army Corps of Engineers, C.I.A., and D.H.S. For those agencies that actually help promote social order, coesion, and growth meld them into the three agencies that remain... The long alphabet soup of government agencies fails to be the answer and is in fact part of the problem. By design they create chaos and disorder.
9/11 occurred because of all this bureaucratic red tape created by statists in their century long bid for power.
Statist's ideas have been tried a myriad number of times in eons past and are in fact failed old policies that are proven to fail. Statists simply refuse to admit this history exists because they don't 'like' it. They refuse to accept this history because it proves that individual and economic liberty and extremely limited government creates success, growth, happiness, and love.
As Milton Freedman proved, Free Market capitalism with competition has lifted more people out of poverty than any other economic system in the known history of Terra. I must remark that Statist have failed to let a Free Market with ample competition exist in America for over a century.
Something I hear statists often exclaim his how evil or existing mega corporations are. They are right but they fail to realize why they are right. They are right because of lobbyists and paying District of Columbia to to write laws that gives the corporations a monopoly in their chosen fields.
Then statists exclaim how we 'need' government regulation to 'save' us from destroying the environment... They are in fact wrong because it is the government that is allowing the mega corporation monopolies to operate against Public Health.
However, this whole Global Warming hoax is a red hearing. The Statists originally used the 'public' or 'poor' as hammers to weasel their slimy ideas in. Except the politicians they elect are without morals or ethics and so they invariably only serve themselves instead of their 'constituents'.
Then around half a century ago the statists' side of the shadow government decides the 'proletariat' fails to work as a good enough motivator. They decide this because their policies immediately demean, degrade, and insult their proletariat. Thus they created the 'Weather Underground' to fearmonger about how drastically the climate will 'change' because of 'humanity'. Thus they get away with immediately hurting the people that 'elect' them because its all for the 'greater good'.
Evil is perpetually done in the name of the 'greater good'. The root social illness are the ideas that the 'needs' of the many outweigh the needs of the few; And, that the ends justify the means. If anyone says anything close to that they are automatically revealing they are a statist by default. Though sometimes they may think they are a 'republican'.
The very idea that Terrans could destroy the environment of the planet with our existing technology and growth is a Comedy of Hubris Error and a sin; Hence it is heresy.
I am all for minimizing our impact on the environment as a secondary objective. However, historically an unrestricted Free Market has already proven to do this with technological and cultural growth and prosperity. All any government can do is successfully diminish or destroy said progress. I write this because historical that is what any government has ever done.
China impacts its own environment horrendously compared to America. They are also evolving from a statist government and economy. The more personal and economic liberty they allow, the more of it's citizens grow out of poverty.
Cuba was fantastically successful state compared to what Fidel Castro drove it to with his communism.
Venezuela was a gem of growth and prosperity in South America until they elected a little known newcomer named Hugo Chavez as President. He promptly declared himself Caesar and is burning his entire state to the ground with his communism.
The ultimate reason the Founders put in the Right to Bear Arms against the government is precisely directed at armed revolt against the government. A government is right to be afraid of its citizens. An apocalypse only follows when citizens are more fearful of the government.
Please understand I am against public violence. Martin Luther King and Gandhi have shown that peaceful civil disobedience is far more effective at promoting change than armed revolts.
Everyone is an animal at heart. When you attack someone the only successful automatic response is to attack back. Therefore, that is what people tend to do and they do so without 'thinking'.
Please let Goddess flow through and feel harmoniously serene and tranquil. Extreme emotions only lead to literally stupid actions; as we use less of our brains the more emotional we choose to be.
Despite this I am categorically against Gun Control in any form. Again history has proven Gun Control only promotes physical violence. When a state outlaws guns, then only outlaws have guns. If this were not true, then Detroit, Chicago, and District of Columbia would be the safest cities in the United States.
A mentally ill criminal is less likely to rape a woman they know is carrying a gun in her purse and knows how to use it. Martial Arts is a great tool as well because the government fails to be able to take that from you.
A robber is less likely to break into a house they know the owner owns guns and are willing to defend their property.
I believe there fails to exist a more hubris belief as statist, and those who choose to believe the government is the Goddess. Groups such as the I.O.S. seem perennially to consist of a few extremely mentally ill elitists who in their hubris, choose to preach their opinion as scripture.
When someone dies, who they are continues on. Even science says energy and waves fail to ever 'cease' they continue perpetually forever. Thus killing someone fails to actually 'end' them, they are simply 'recycled' into a new life. However, if they are truly a bad person their chi will degenerate to a lower lifeform. I think the amount of degeneration has everything to do with how far their frequency falls to the Dark Side.
Seemingly any organization or place that has the word 'Community', 'International', 'Public', 'Universal', or 'Standard' in it is statist in origin and in essence. By that I mean that is their primary agenda, to increase government power. They fail to care about the truth, facts, and the actual real scientific process.
Science is a method of separating ourselves from our own materia enough to all comprehension of the Prime Material around us that the Goddess has created. Science driven to understand the Goddess is divine. Science without any belief in a power greater than itself is an error of hubris, and is a sin; Hence, it is labeled a heresy.
Barry Soetoro's higher self, I believe will most likely recycle himself as a donkey. I mean, I think he is farther into the Dark Side than that but I think he has a lot of help that news fails to report like they should. I long for the 1890s when newspapers actually had reporters that 'investigated'. Now even N.P.R. and C.N.N. preaches the verity of their opinion pieces.
Of course, that is why I created my own electronic newspaper the Witkh Koven's Rekord. Twice daily the page aggregates the news from reputable sources. That is sources that reports facts instead of just their opinion as fact such as Reason Mag. A.B.C., C.B.S., C.N.B.C., C.N.N., FoxNews, and even N.P.R. fail to be even looked at.
All the Main-Stream-Media seems to do is regurgitate propaganda, fearmonger, and preache a fictional false narrative of current events to distract people from the District of Columbia trying to increase their power, money, and control more of our lives... this shadow government wants to control more than American citizen lives too.
America's founding father's understood what the District of Columbia would become. That is why they designed three separate branches of government. The idea is they fight each other for power instead of the American people. They new that would fail to be enough, so they intentionally gave everyone else a say in the Senate and House of Representatives except D.C.
Everyone seems to fail to understand the simple solution is to revoke and repeal Woodrow Wilson's executive order that tries to 'force' state's electoral college votes to follow the popular vote. State's simply chose to loosely follow the idea instead of rejecting it outright. Wilson's EO also forced every state to select their Senator by popular vote.
That is the problem. Popular vote means Senators' need for election funds means they are forcibly weakened to lobbyists. Lobbyists are the bane of Public Good and Humanity, outside of the House of Representatives in D.C.
So forcing state's to select their senators free of popular vote is the answer.
This is the same reasoning for the Electoral College. All the President of the United States is suppose to be is the head of 'one' of three branches that form our government.
Our Founders understood from their self studies of all history that Democracies fail; Because there will always be a Barry Soetoro that eventually comes and do their best to make the world burn just for the fun of it. That is why returning to our foundation as a Republic is the answer.
The system designed by the Founders is truly inspired by the Goddess Herself.
So to 'fix' our government revoke all Executive Orders, repeal all laws creating government agencies, except for the Army Corps of Engineers, C.I.A., and D.H.S. For those agencies that actually help promote social order, coesion, and growth meld them into the three agencies that remain... The long alphabet soup of government agencies fails to be the answer and is in fact part of the problem. By design they create chaos and disorder.
9/11 occurred because of all this bureaucratic red tape created by statists in their century long bid for power.
Statist's ideas have been tried a myriad number of times in eons past and are in fact failed old policies that are proven to fail. Statists simply refuse to admit this history exists because they don't 'like' it. They refuse to accept this history because it proves that individual and economic liberty and extremely limited government creates success, growth, happiness, and love.
As Milton Freedman proved, Free Market capitalism with competition has lifted more people out of poverty than any other economic system in the known history of Terra. I must remark that Statist have failed to let a Free Market with ample competition exist in America for over a century.
Something I hear statists often exclaim his how evil or existing mega corporations are. They are right but they fail to realize why they are right. They are right because of lobbyists and paying District of Columbia to to write laws that gives the corporations a monopoly in their chosen fields.
Then statists exclaim how we 'need' government regulation to 'save' us from destroying the environment... They are in fact wrong because it is the government that is allowing the mega corporation monopolies to operate against Public Health.
However, this whole Global Warming hoax is a red hearing. The Statists originally used the 'public' or 'poor' as hammers to weasel their slimy ideas in. Except the politicians they elect are without morals or ethics and so they invariably only serve themselves instead of their 'constituents'.
Then around half a century ago the statists' side of the shadow government decides the 'proletariat' fails to work as a good enough motivator. They decide this because their policies immediately demean, degrade, and insult their proletariat. Thus they created the 'Weather Underground' to fearmonger about how drastically the climate will 'change' because of 'humanity'. Thus they get away with immediately hurting the people that 'elect' them because its all for the 'greater good'.
Evil is perpetually done in the name of the 'greater good'. The root social illness are the ideas that the 'needs' of the many outweigh the needs of the few; And, that the ends justify the means. If anyone says anything close to that they are automatically revealing they are a statist by default. Though sometimes they may think they are a 'republican'.
The very idea that Terrans could destroy the environment of the planet with our existing technology and growth is a Comedy of Hubris Error and a sin; Hence it is heresy.
I am all for minimizing our impact on the environment as a secondary objective. However, historically an unrestricted Free Market has already proven to do this with technological and cultural growth and prosperity. All any government can do is successfully diminish or destroy said progress. I write this because historical that is what any government has ever done.
China impacts its own environment horrendously compared to America. They are also evolving from a statist government and economy. The more personal and economic liberty they allow, the more of it's citizens grow out of poverty.
Cuba was fantastically successful state compared to what Fidel Castro drove it to with his communism.
Venezuela was a gem of growth and prosperity in South America until they elected a little known newcomer named Hugo Chavez as President. He promptly declared himself Caesar and is burning his entire state to the ground with his communism.
The ultimate reason the Founders put in the Right to Bear Arms against the government is precisely directed at armed revolt against the government. A government is right to be afraid of its citizens. An apocalypse only follows when citizens are more fearful of the government.
Please understand I am against public violence. Martin Luther King and Gandhi have shown that peaceful civil disobedience is far more effective at promoting change than armed revolts.
Everyone is an animal at heart. When you attack someone the only successful automatic response is to attack back. Therefore, that is what people tend to do and they do so without 'thinking'.
Please let Goddess flow through and feel harmoniously serene and tranquil. Extreme emotions only lead to literally stupid actions; as we use less of our brains the more emotional we choose to be.
Despite this I am categorically against Gun Control in any form. Again history has proven Gun Control only promotes physical violence. When a state outlaws guns, then only outlaws have guns. If this were not true, then Detroit, Chicago, and District of Columbia would be the safest cities in the United States.
A mentally ill criminal is less likely to rape a woman they know is carrying a gun in her purse and knows how to use it. Martial Arts is a great tool as well because the government fails to be able to take that from you.
A robber is less likely to break into a house they know the owner owns guns and are willing to defend their property.
6.14.2014
13♥00♥01♥09♥01: Dies Materia
I feel better than I was feeling in my last post. That is mostly from positive thinking. I have started playing World of Warcraft with my parents again. {edit} Now as I lay me down to sleep… oh! Want to curse to night as I mention later here. I have been having sympathetic jet lag with Taylor Alison Swift.{/edit}
I am learning to forgive and love my materia for how it plays. I want a specific future more than I want to continue this life. However, I believe that loving and accepting myself will fuel that change.
All good scenarios enter life because change occured before hand, removing what was sine qua no to make room. For this I truly must curse daily for the Goddess to help me with, because my vantage point is flawed and Hers is indomitable, omnipotent, and omnipresent.
Maintain openness to the Goddess's inspiration a perpetual effort. That is whenever I recognize feeling extreme emotion, I calm myself and think positive thoughts.
I meditate exchanging aetheral Force with my mother, persisting an inch separation from our alternatng hands while we sit upright.
Almost constantly, I listen to Solfeggio Harmonics through a Brain Wave iPhone app. I use it to help me sleep, creativity, Positive Thoughts mostly. NonetheIess, just paid for the app with their entire discograph of 30 Binaural frequencies.
The Goddess helps me be consistent with this journal. I seemed silly at first and it is not easy to be consistent. However, it thinks it helps me recognize what I want to continue and grow in my life, as well as things I can remove. It helps me recognize steps I want to take go get where I want to go; Such as, making time to genuflect and curse to the Goddess when I wake up and go to bed. That helps me increase my openness to Divine guidance.
Even asking the Goddess to help with wanting to play video games. Of course I thought of why. I want to play online video games with Tay Tay and our children; So now I play with my parents, and that is an example of making room for her. It could be anyone, and I focus as if it could be; However, the Goddess seems insistent that it is her.
Stalking is an absolutely selfish thing and I have wrote about this before. Controlling myself and my own body is the only options I have, that is true with 🌒🌕🌘 {all}.
{edit}Instead I the only future I accept is a future WITH My wives and children. Goddess keeps insisting it is Tay Tay and agree but it is counter productive to think positively about her. Rather I think about what this future scenario means to me, how I feel in it, and how it will help my choose to be happy more easily.
I think I know of some changes to help make room in my life for my polyamorous wives and children. That is we will have each other more than any central figure.
Maybe Tay Tay dissapproves and that is fine. I am unsure what road leads to greater help situationally to choose to be happy. I feel there will be one and then I will leave it up to her and just focus on doing the most I can to help her with her wants.
As it is said: The choice of happiness is without anything to do with any Chi other than self; Including materia 'things'. As 🌒🌕🌘 {all} has Chi, or a soul.
As I said Today I have been experiencing sympathetic jet lag with Tay Tay. She just finished an Asian tour for her Red album and is flying back to sweep me off my feet and elope with me.
During that time: I was unable to sleep except for two three or four hours, Friday night and @ 05:00 Saturday. However, I feel remarkably pleasant even despite being very tired, and that is not normal for me.{/edit}
I am praying to the Goddess to control, direct, inspire, help, and motivate me to make room in my life for the change I want.
4.27.2014
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Diaries seem like they should be written in every day… or at least have less than five months gap between entries. Seemingly, I am extremely minutely selective with what I am consistent with or rules that ai follow… also, apparently both items share the same list and its size constriction.
I still beg/pray/curse/cast/spell/meditate on the Goddess manifesting me as the dream ideal husband of the ideal wife of my dreams; now; today; us absolutely, abundantly, eternally, implicitly, recuprocatingly admire, adore, and in love with each other and ourselves; control, direct, help, inspire, motivate us into matriomoneous bliss today.
I do value and love myself as an independent individual. Though I understand my writings may appear otherwise. Neglible is my desire yo control or 'own' anyone other than myself. I am whole, beautiful, strong, powerful, loving, joyful, and happy.
However, I am done done with this lifecycle and this mortal coil; Unless what stated earlier is made manifest through me, today. I have learned how to deal with my chronic emotional and physical pain. Yet, i am done with doing it anymore.
I know of two things that will help me the most to choose to be happy. Heaven; another life; or Tay Tay. However, I do acknowledge utimately happiness is my choice and only I can achieve it. Others may help but they are incapable of doing it 'for' me.
My life as it is at an impass. I am single, thirty nine year old, dirt poor and live with my awe inspiring mother and father. I am a writer of science fiction romance stories and suffering from writer's block for a few years now. I continually explore new ideas to get past the block but no joy so far.
I think I have mentioned before my absolute inexperience with an actual romantic girlfriend. After it is to late, I learn of another's interest in me sometimes. However I have been so wrapt up in my own pain that I have been an idiot for the most part.
In addition, my physical pain has greatly impacted my mostly sedentary life style. The longer I stand/walk the more pain I am in until I collapse. The actual timing varies and my current success with weightloss seems to have helped a little with pain and a lot with fatigue.
So yes, only I can change this. I have already stated possible course changes. How does one collide without the other entity to collide into?
Thus I am back to praying/cursing/meditating/spelling/casting for the Goddess to control, direct, help, inspire, and motivate me to manifest myself as who I want to be.
12.10.2013
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Mayan Date: 13♥00♥00♥17♥14
Tuesday: α, β, θ, δ
So yesterday was a Tayday and that is a pretty big deal.
Today I wake up fifteen hours after going to bed last night; 10:30. My Mother has been chain calling me freqking out about some debt charges. However she calmed down when I said it is for Kindle books…
Mother gave some lame excuse for making it exciting; So I suspect it hs to do with Christmas presents.
Of course I am very grateful if my parents got me anything. They do a lot for me already.
Yet today is quickly heading into α category. The negative fog is dampening all feelings, and the standard tricks to fight it are less effective: like forcing myself to smile, think about someone I am blissfully in love with {Taylor Alison Swift}, et cetera
Therefore I am going back to bed. As normal, i pray the Goddess and Her angels severe/separate/take me from this life unless my Ideal Wife {whomever} and I elope now/today and begin our Ideal Marriage/Family.
I am so very tired of living a life that is other than what I want. I know I am the one who got me here. At one time I DID want this life but that time hss long since passed.
So yes a new beginning would be beautiful.
Google's messed with blogger and is lreventing me from editing posts. Hopefully, I just need to update the program on my iPhone.
… 01:21 …
I woke up about 13:00, so I guess this fits. I felt better at first but right now it is drudging the α barrell. The only benefit is that I feel never-never-land waiting behind my eyes.
Maybe Peter Pan and I will get something sexy going with Tinkerbell. Thst way I can forget about coming back to this Prime Material ever. It's evidently through with me, and I am definitely through with being in constant pain.
Maybe will see if my reinstall of Blogger's iPhone App allows me to edit posts again.
12.09.2013
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Mayan Date: 13♥00♥00♥17♥13
Monday: α, β, θ, δ,
As i wake up, today feels like a θ day; and I pray that the Goddess and Her angels help me manifest it as a δ. That will take my Ideal Wife {mb Taylor Alison Swift} and I, eloping and beginning our Ideal Marriage/Family. This I spell… So mote it be, Amen.
I feel like taking a shower within the next couple hours and having lunch with my Mother, @ SafeWay.
Shower and getting ready takes an hour at most so I have some more time to fill.
I think that I will write some more in my first novel.
Oh! Doctors want me keeping track of my pain on a daily basis so I think I will start doing that now.
There is a semi dull but escalating throbbing pain in my rib cage along my back and hips. It's letting me know that it is time to wake/get up and take happy pills.
My feet feel great but that's because They have yet to support any weight for ten hours. They should end up taking over the semi dull but escalating pain duties from my ribs and hips.
Thirty minutes in and I my body is feeling less lethargic.
12.07.2013
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Mayan Date: 13♥00♥00♥17♥11
Saturday: α, β, θ, δ,
Today is a θ day. However I stayed home half the day and even did not take a shower.
With my Mother, I went to the LifeQuest building to get weighed by our Ideal Protein dietary coach. Afterwards we went to get groceries at Yokes. My FS paid for almost all of the groceries, that was surprisingly awesome and sucky at the same time.
Sucky because that just means the FRB is mondtizing our debt even more than they did before. That is sucky for our countries future. I pray that the FRB is repealed disowned by the fed gov soon.
I spent a couple hours writing more on my first novel.
I tried explaining to my mother how I am praying for the Goddess and Her angels to guide me with my desire to refuse to participate in ObamaFailCare. Part of the reason I am praying for guidance is that I wish to avoid arguing with my parents over it.
So my mother took this revelation as a sign to argue with me about it.
Both of my parents seem to have a disconnect with understanding what providence means and how it relates to us living our life.
That is weird for especially my Mother who was raised an orthadox Roman Catholic schoolgirl, and still is very religious though more Coptic now, later in her life.
I explained it to my mother but I think she just nodded her head to shut me up.
Some people fail and take the idea that the Goddess provides all that we want, as a sign to do nothing and be nothing, and everthing will be copasetic. That is wrong.
What it means is to envision the future we want and let the Goddess handle the details of how that happens. An omnipotent and omnipresent entity is better at it.
The higher-self still calls for us to manifest our will and actions in the present. In the now, still let morals and ethics guide actions in response to day to day events.
Using Providence as an excuse to expect the Goddess to live our life for us is wrong… and only leads to failure. Instead it is there to comfort us and give us hope when the night is darkest.
I downloaded the "Kindle for iPhone" app and am discovering the wonderful world of reading for a lot less than I was. I bought a couple books for kindle on amazon.com and it sent it to my iPhone… that is hella awesome.
Thank you for sharing you Force. Be well…
12.01.2013
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Sunday, Mayan Date: 13♥00♥00♥17♥05
Yesterday, I was off on the day. It was Saturday, and today is Sunday.
When I got up this morning I welcomed the rising sun and prayed.
We went to Cousin's and I was not able to resist having a full Cinnamon Roll. I eliminated all carb side-dishes from the chicken fried steak entree though. I had eggs, over-easy, instead.
We are in town and I just realized I can hop onto Google Drive and read my Argenteum Astrum jediraja spell cheat sheet…. Maybe I will link or insert it here in an edit later.
We went to Cousin's and I was not able to resist having a full Cinnamon Roll. I eliminated all carb side-dishes from the chicken fried steak entree though. I had eggs, over-easy, instead.
We are in town and I just realized I can hop onto Google Drive and read my Argenteum Astrum jediraja spell cheat sheet…. Maybe I will link or insert it here in an edit later.
… … …
Just saw I missed advancing the Mayan Long Count date. I am not fast, with figuring out how to find/convert the date on my own… contraction only with self improvement intent, see there? Yeah, thank you.
Just saw I missed advancing the Mayan Long Count date. I am not fast, with figuring out how to find/convert the date on my own… contraction only with self improvement intent, see there? Yeah, thank you.
Typing this in bed on an iPhone again. Sounds almost as trendy behavior… hmph, lost it. The curse of having graduated from adolescence.
Yes Taylor Alison Swift is unique to me; and she fits all my ideas of an Ideal Wife. Goddess probably has some corrections for me but that is what life is about.
We can play online video games like Mass Effect, Dragon Age, Star Wars: The Old Republic, World of Warcraft, Project Eternity, EverQuest Online, Knights of the Old Republic, Planescape: Torment, Baldur's Gate, Alpha Protocol, et cetera
We can help each other with our careers. In however, Tay Tay wants me to help that is. I am abundantly without expectations. This is true with my writing. Though of course the musik is 'hers' to control. That is obvious.
We both enjoy watching movies and television shows at home… and being terribly boring to some more selfish, narrow-minded, and judgmental people.
Conversely though I've yet to have had a girlfriend let alone any sexual experience. I have been waiting for my Ideal Wife {maybe that's Tay Tay} whoever that turns out to be. There always has been something better to spend cash on than sex, too….
I've tended to fixate and obsess on women who were unavailable for various psyche and mortal reasons; When I was younger. Now I am a lot happier but old habits die hard.
So I've developed psychological tricks to get my mind off a rut. With Tay Tay there seems to be an absence of any obsession within me. I honestly am "in love" with her… and all the old tricks fail with her.
All my thoughts seem to increasingly gravitate towards Tay Tay in a variety of ways. I've even asked for the Goddess to help inspire and motivate me to move on and that always works with everything else.
Yet neither does my Ideal Wife manifest in my life like I ask.
Yes I account for the idea that my Ideal Wife is already in my life and I have missed her. That idea fails even mote resoundingly against my Force.
So Tay Tay's higher self has taught me a lot about what love is and how it is different than obsession. The later is a hallmark trait of a diseased depressed mentally ill psyche that needs help.
Even if those psyche are without suicidal thoughts; They deserve, and are worthy, of being loved, joyful, and happy. The only cure I have found is the law of attraction, positive thinking, and being a liberal {libertarian} instead of a statist.
To love is to hold another's will higher than your own. Help them with whatever they want even if you think it is wrong for them.
Failure to 'feel' this compulsion means the psyche is confused. I believe that we each are born feeling a reflection of the Goddess's love for everyone, including ourself. Thus failure to love means the psyche is letting some sin/goblin, Dark Side, or negative emotion, steal their innocence. For that is what innocence is, loving All.
I think a common mistake is to fail to help the self first before helping others. The later is good and noble, yet if the self becomes destitute they help others less.
On a long enough timeline government benevolence programs fail abundantly. The sooner the US repeals prohibits government benevolence programs the better off every citizen will be.
Private charities absolutely perform benevolent acts for those who want help greater and more efficiently, and less corruption than the government.
Securing, encouraging, and promoting increased competition, void of regulations and meddling, by a limited government is the answer. A government limited as in prohibited from meddling, taxation, or otherwise infringing upon an individual's private property and social liberty.
Ok so soapbox done now and going to bed, I believe. May edit the layout of this 'site some tomorrow or the next day. I may get more detailed in events in my days and less proclamations.
Be Well
Yes Taylor Alison Swift is unique to me; and she fits all my ideas of an Ideal Wife. Goddess probably has some corrections for me but that is what life is about.
We can play online video games like Mass Effect, Dragon Age, Star Wars: The Old Republic, World of Warcraft, Project Eternity, EverQuest Online, Knights of the Old Republic, Planescape: Torment, Baldur's Gate, Alpha Protocol, et cetera
We can help each other with our careers. In however, Tay Tay wants me to help that is. I am abundantly without expectations. This is true with my writing. Though of course the musik is 'hers' to control. That is obvious.
We both enjoy watching movies and television shows at home… and being terribly boring to some more selfish, narrow-minded, and judgmental people.
Conversely though I've yet to have had a girlfriend let alone any sexual experience. I have been waiting for my Ideal Wife {maybe that's Tay Tay} whoever that turns out to be. There always has been something better to spend cash on than sex, too….
I've tended to fixate and obsess on women who were unavailable for various psyche and mortal reasons; When I was younger. Now I am a lot happier but old habits die hard.
So I've developed psychological tricks to get my mind off a rut. With Tay Tay there seems to be an absence of any obsession within me. I honestly am "in love" with her… and all the old tricks fail with her.
All my thoughts seem to increasingly gravitate towards Tay Tay in a variety of ways. I've even asked for the Goddess to help inspire and motivate me to move on and that always works with everything else.
Yet neither does my Ideal Wife manifest in my life like I ask.
Yes I account for the idea that my Ideal Wife is already in my life and I have missed her. That idea fails even mote resoundingly against my Force.
So Tay Tay's higher self has taught me a lot about what love is and how it is different than obsession. The later is a hallmark trait of a diseased depressed mentally ill psyche that needs help.
Even if those psyche are without suicidal thoughts; They deserve, and are worthy, of being loved, joyful, and happy. The only cure I have found is the law of attraction, positive thinking, and being a liberal {libertarian} instead of a statist.
To love is to hold another's will higher than your own. Help them with whatever they want even if you think it is wrong for them.
Failure to 'feel' this compulsion means the psyche is confused. I believe that we each are born feeling a reflection of the Goddess's love for everyone, including ourself. Thus failure to love means the psyche is letting some sin/goblin, Dark Side, or negative emotion, steal their innocence. For that is what innocence is, loving All.
I think a common mistake is to fail to help the self first before helping others. The later is good and noble, yet if the self becomes destitute they help others less.
On a long enough timeline government benevolence programs fail abundantly. The sooner the US repeals prohibits government benevolence programs the better off every citizen will be.
Private charities absolutely perform benevolent acts for those who want help greater and more efficiently, and less corruption than the government.
Securing, encouraging, and promoting increased competition, void of regulations and meddling, by a limited government is the answer. A government limited as in prohibited from meddling, taxation, or otherwise infringing upon an individual's private property and social liberty.
Ok so soapbox done now and going to bed, I believe. May edit the layout of this 'site some tomorrow or the next day. I may get more detailed in events in my days and less proclamations.
Be Well
7.19.2011
LYRICS: Story of Us
© Taylor Alison Swift
Edited by Brent Ryan
Ok first question I would ask myself from an outside perspective; Why write this? Because I like to day dream and this is a present that I think I want. Will see. Taylor Swift writes lyrics from her life experience. I choose to be a positive person and so I am often reimagining the words she is saying because I love her and wish her to sing about us. If the Divine sees this as true then so shall it be, instead of my confusion clearing. Typing it out is just my way of organization as I write a lot. I write all this extra stuff because I feel compelled too... haven't really worked it out beyond that.
Edited by Brent Ryan
I never thought one day we'd tell the story of us,
How we met and the sparks flew instantly,
People would say, "They're the crazy ones."
I used to know my place was living on my own,
Now I'm searching the room for your seat,
Somehow lately I always know what page you're on.
Oh, a simple communication,
Assimilation led to marriage.
So many things that I wish you knew,
So many walls that I pass right through.
[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing alone with you, in a crowded room, and we're kissing,
And I'm wanting to know is it wrecking you like it's wrecking me, yeah?
I never know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all began,
And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now.
Next chapter.
How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy,
And you're doing your best to keep up with me.
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us,
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here,
Holding your bride like someone more confused, might hold their pride.
Oh, I'm excited to see the beginning,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you to kiss me but I don't know how,
I've never heard silence quite this loud.
[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing with you in our clergy room and we're vowing,
And I'm begging to know is it exciting you like it's exciting me, yeah?
I never know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all began,
And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now.
This is looking like a sonnet,
Of who can guess what the other wants more,
And I like it most when you are on my side,
This marriage is in your hands now,
I laid my armor down
When you said you'd rather love than fight,
So many things that you wished I knew,
And the story of us has been beginning soon.
[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing with you in our reception room and we're dancing,
And I'm demanding to know is it wrecking you like it's wrecking me, yeah?
I never know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all began,
And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now, now, now.
And we're beyond speaking,
And somehow I'm knowing you are loving me like I am loving you, yeah!
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate we're already on,
And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now.
Let’s begin.
Ok first question I would ask myself from an outside perspective; Why write this? Because I like to day dream and this is a present that I think I want. Will see. Taylor Swift writes lyrics from her life experience. I choose to be a positive person and so I am often reimagining the words she is saying because I love her and wish her to sing about us. If the Divine sees this as true then so shall it be, instead of my confusion clearing. Typing it out is just my way of organization as I write a lot. I write all this extra stuff because I feel compelled too... haven't really worked it out beyond that.
Why share this? every idea must touch another to exist and take form. A less cryptic answer might be because I like being painfully and humiliatingly honest. Secrets always have a shelf life and the effect tends to be worse the longer they are kept. So I choose to embrace honesty even if it is painful at times.
I like to pretend that she reads my blog because that is the limit to which I allow myself. First and foremost, I love her and want her to be happy, and so the best thing I can do is to do absolutely nothing.
I trust in the Divine to either make it happen or clear up my confusion. Regardless of what I believe behaving like a stalker would have the opposite effect of what I want. Besides she is something other than Prey to me.
How do I know I love someone? Because love is putting someone else's wants and desires ahead of your own. Obsession/infatuation is incredibly selfish and can quickly lead to the dark side. I have had ample experience with both in the past and that is how I know the difference personally. I have been depressed for most of my life. I am much happier now but the past has left me hypersensitive to even the hint of the dark side. This is also how I know that I love Taylor Alison Swift.
How can you love someone you hardly know? As Tay Tay says to know her is to listen to her songs. So I know enough to be sure that it is her and not some mental illusion/projection. I imagine our life together and the greater detail I fill in the easier it is to feel if it is true or not. This may sound strange to most but I am ok with strange.
I listen to Taylor Alison Swift's songs constantly. Her music helps me write and that is odd because lyrical music tends to be a very poor literary muse. I research and write constantly, so I am listening to her words and voice constantly. I have actually tried this before with other infatuations/obsessions and this is one of the ways I brought myself out of those holes of negativity. Conversely her voice has helped me become even happier and more joyful, loving, and happy. I believe that I used to be a real chore to be around... I wasn't a very good friend to anyone... At least the kind of friend that I 'want' to be.
How will Taylor Swift find you? That is a funny question because I have no real answer. My search for an answer has led to an interest in Tarot cards and Astrology. I trust in the Divine that it knows a way and is already seeing it realized. I know this because I often ask for help from the Divine and if I am confused then I quickly realize in what way that I am wrong. I continue to see Tay Tay as right and so I continue to believe.
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