Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

11.25.2020

♥ 1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 8 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 1 7 ♥ Sylilo'Daes ♥ @Accolonn Re: Blizzard: Shadowlands: Sylvanus: No More Lies


Vape leaves clouds, instead of ’smoke’. Th two are abundantly empirically different. πŸ˜…

Th new Ms. Sylvanas Windrunner looks very different, think do I. She is a lot more emotional than she ever was before, feel do I. Maybe th Jailer returned to her, th other half of her soul…?… πŸ₯³

Th idea that th supermajority of enemies are heroes to th distortion of their own mer-ka-ba, is agreed with by me. 

However, given th skill of spycraft shown by Sylvanas, it seems more probably that she already knows her goals are different than what is wanted by th Jailer. The whole point to th mission of hers is to destroy th Shadowlands. Yet obviously, doing so takes more power than she is even close to showing. & she is already th most powerful warrior known to Azathoth. So she needs a First One to do th heavy lifting. πŸͺ

Hence why Sylvanas started a war that painted her as the bad guy. Remember th recent lines of Mr. Nathanos Blightcaller…?… We are being predictable. We go into th Shadowlands with the assumption that th Maw is evil. This gives her th power necessary to betray Zovaal at th last moment. Since it will take more than th power of any single mortal, even one as powerful as her.

As for who is loved by Sylvanas…?… King Varian Wrynn think do I;  NoneTheLess, who knows when it occurred to her but @Accolonn said it himself, she felt next to nothing for anyone since her raising as a Banshee. Yet when King Wrynn died, she did feel something. & the idea of him spending an eternity enslaved to th purpose of th Shadowlands, inspired her to destroy it all. Why this strong of a reaction? She was horrified by identifying with the idea of being enslaved to the will of another. She previously had been enslaved to the will of Prince Arthas of Menethil in Warcraft III: The Frozen Throne.

This is why in the recent cinematic Sylvanas keeps affectionately calling King Anthuin Lothar as little lion. The final nail in this coffin is a simple, who exactly was or is stopping her from loving Nathanos? She may have been bereft th emotion but she knows th mechanics of how a relationship works. Yet, there are a number of people & even factions that would try to stop, her from loving Varian.

As for Nathanos…?… He may be obsessed with Sylvanas, suggest do I.  Yet, in life she was too narcissistic to love anyone, even herself. Maybe it began as something innocent but the end result shows whatever emotion that was inspired within her, faded even before her death, think do I.

People like that tend to be self-destructive, hence Sylvanas constantly sought bigger challenges, & as a member of th xenophobic High Elf state, she choose to accept th romantic advancements from Sir Nathanos Marris, think do I. Ironically, that probably also spurred some more self-flagellation by her. However, instead of dying she became the greatest ranger ever known. Why else do you think she put herself in a position to die by th hand of Prince of Menethil…?… 

Sure Ranger General Sylvanas Windrunner gave Ranger Nathanos Marris an I-Love-You necklace, but she kind of had to show some kind of affection to keep him invested in th relationship, feel do I. Yet as undeath, why has she only ever shown disdain for him, in response to his constantly show of affection towards her? & his constant rationalizing excuses for why she refuses to reciprocate.

That particular plot in the story is also why Nathanos was retconned into being far more annoying & irritating to the player, think do I. It would be bad if most players actually liked him.  There are a few newer players who even fail to realize at all, that he has been retconned.
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7.22.2019

♥ 1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 6 ♥ 1 2 ♥ 0 4 ♥ Tiamat'Daes ♥ Marvel: Goddess of Thunder


Bridging the Goddess of Thunder, is best served by the relationship between Thor and Mrs. Jane Foster being rekindled, think do I. It gives a basic way for Thor to stay in the new "Hero's Journey" for Mrs. Foster.

Why 'Mrs.' Foster? Because that keeps the mystical nature of the deity of Thunder in Asgard's royal family tree. There is still an abundance of territory that could be covered by the Hero's Journey of Mrs. Foster. Romance continues for decades after a couple meet.

They should forget the title "Thor" for the movies with Mrs. Jane Foster as the Goddess of Thunder.  Thor is the personal name of the character played by Chris Helmsworth, instead of his title as the God of Thunder, as Odin himself reiterated to his son.

3.07.2018

♥ 1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 5 ♥ 0 5 ♥ 0 2 ♥ Ba'Daes ♥ Ad-Libbed Song for Tay Tay


Ad-libbed from Fountain Wayne's song here.
---   ---   ---   ---   ---   ---   ---
[Intro]
+Taylor Swift has got it going on,
+Taylor Swift has got it going on,
+Taylor Swift has got it going on,
+Taylor Swift has got it going on...

[Verse 1]
Tay Tay, can I come over after school,?, {After school}
We can hang around by the pool, {Hang by the pool}
Did you happen to get back from your business trip,?, {Business trip}
Are you there, or are you trying to give me the slip.?. {Give me the slip}

[Pre-Chorus 1]
You know, I'm not the little boy that I used to be,
I'm all grown up now, baby, can't you see.?.

[Chorus]
Taylor Swift has got it going on,
Tay Tay's all I want and I've waited for so long,
Taylor Swift, can't you see? I'm just the man for you,
I always ask if I might be wrong;  But I'm in love with Taylor Swift,
Taylor Swift has got it going on,
Taylor Swift has got it going on...

[Verse 2]
Taylor Swift, do you remember when I mowed your lawn,?, {Mowed your lawn}
Taylor Swift came out with just a towel on, {Towel on}
I could tell you liked me from the way you stared, {Way you stared}
And the way you said, "You missed a spot over there"... {Spot over there}

[Pre-Chorus 2]
And I know that you think it's just a fantasy,
But since your boyfriend walked out, you could use a guy like me...

[Chorus]
Taylor Swift has got it going on,
Tay Tay's all I want and I've waited for so long,
Taylor Swift, can't you see? You're just the lady for me,
I always ask if I might be wrong;  But I'm in love with Taylor Swift...

[Guitar Solo]

[Chorus]
Taylor Swift has got it going on,
Tay Tay's all I want and I've waited for so long,
Taylor Swift, can't you see? I'm just the man for you,
I always ask if I might be wrong;  But I'm in love with Taylor Swift...

[Outro]
Taylor Swift, ah-oh-ah-oh, {I'm in love with-}
Taylor Swift, ah-oh-ah-oh, {Wait a minute}
Tay Tay, can't you see? You're just the lady for me,
I always ask if I might be wrong;  But I'm in love with Taylor Swift...

7.08.2017

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 4 ♥ 1 1 ♥ 0 0 ♥ Dias Lord; Are You A Successful Career Lady Who Wonders Where Is Your Potential Husband?

It is likely, that you have already become aware of good potential husbands.  All those who voted for the current Democrat Party or statist career politicians such as Senator John McCain, Representative Nancy Pollosi, Representative John Buener, Senator Susan Collins, Senator Patty Murray, Senator Maria Cantrell, Senator Mitch McConnell, et cetera have themselves for the reason.

Statists  always have some sort of mental illness.  At some point, typically do to unresolved trauma, their capacity to understand logic or reason fails.  In a society that increasingly promotes and  encourages people to feel victimized, and thus be a victim;  That mindset fails to attract quality relationships.  This is about recognizing your own power, instead of blaming the victim.

All have the capacity to play a victim, regardless of income, career, and/or material/spiritual wealth;  And it is horribly unattractive.  Find help to mentally and spiritually healthy.  That alone will immeasurably increase your attractiveness.

The Femma-Nazi grouping has successfully brainwashed women whether they know it or not.  Megyn Kelly and Katty Perry great examples of this.  The reason is because they fail to really soul search on what they want in a mate.

If you are already have a career that pays over six figures, or are independently wealthy;  Why insist on your mate doing the same.?.  Having a career that pays that much fails to equal good morals and a quality character.  There's are many ways of finding people who are more concerned with your character than your wealth.

Find a hobby that you enjoy, and/or find groups on meetup.com that center on one or more hobbies that you share.  In ages part women and men depended on finding quality men at church.  If you fail to go to church often, then maybe make time for a group activity that you do care about.  If you are too busy to find a spiritual path you do agree with, then that in itself is a problem.

Dating friends of friends, can be hit or miss, because your friends fails to really know what you want in a mate, or they are unlikely to agree.  It is also a good way to fail at finding another different than what you already know.

The point however, is that dating men who earn six figures or are independently wealthy, is only great if you are looking for someone who is likely to have a problem with you earning more than him.  Instead of sexism, this is simply the competitive drive that got him that far.  In today's wage-driven society, that is exactly how they got to the point of earning that much.  The last thing a person wants is to find their mate 'beating' you, and without anything you could do about it.

Men who recognize that logic and reasoning as failing, also tend to reject the wage-driven desire.  The desire to be competitive can be grouped with that as collateral damage.

The bLame Stream Media, likes to use the words "living in mother's basement" but why exactly is that a bad thing?  We should look to family for help first before thinking of letting the "state" pay for said individual to live on their own.

Yes, that description could apply to me, though there fails to be many basements in the northwest.  The lack of extreme weather makes them an unnecessary cost, verses just adding another level to the house.  However, that Californians may choose to think a little snow on the road in winter is "extreme weather" is already known.

Ironically, I consider myself extremely successful at writing stories, translating that into money is more of a challenge.  Being disabled with Rheumatoid Arthritis and a general A.A. degree makes it not easy to find a job that fails to let me sit in a chair.  That they exist I am sure, but my familychoose on their own to helps me

9.15.2016

1 3 ❤ 0 0 ❤ 0 3 ❤ 1 4 ❤ 0 5 ❤ Dedicated to I.W.o.M.D. are Three Poems from Me

For +Taylor Swift,
I would gratefully walk a mile,
If that would give me a chance,
To see you smile.

I'd call you my friend,
But that's a lie,
You mean all to me,
And it is unknown why.

For you are more precious to me,
Than all the omniverse's gold,
But I can't tell you that,
That would be that bold.

If I spoke what's on my mind,
I hope that you embrace me,
Because without you,
There would be nowhere for me to be.

You seem to be calm,
While I feel abundantly lost,
I daydream of us living boldly,
And I keep seeing failure's cost.

I seem the only one faced with this choice,
Be daring and imagine a future with you too,
If I can't have that; Then I'd rather lose everything,
I am the Goddess what I should do.

.........

We have not yet kissed,
We have not touched each others heart,
I have only sat back and hoped that,
The other one would give this a start.

What would it be to touch your lips once?
What would it be to hold you every night?
What would it be to look into your eyes,
And at the same time know I've seen the light.

Words can only say so much,
As to how I feel about you,
Actions can only come form the heart,
Therefore a kiss- would make my words true.

.........

I love you more every day,
And more in every way,
My name I long for you to say.
Thy knows this ❤️ love fails to be wordplay?
This love we feel will you allay?

Sometimes I wonder what you think,
Hope do I that my messages inspire you to blink.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Every night about me do you dream?

Wish to hug and hold you free,
That you reciprocate what you see.
You know our love is meant to be?
Together forever, maybe you and me?

Through my mind questions do run with the tide,
Crazy driven by wanting, you to decide,
What is of want by thy heart, I wish you would confide.
Do you even know that I abide?
Or do you wish I keep my feelings inside?

Keep them locked up, or let them free,
What else to do fails to be known by me.

My heart it aches, my heart is sore,
My love it overtakes, my love is evermore.

Any future of want by thy,
More than a bisector, we do decree,
Will by fiancΓ©e of yours is thy,
Time and space fails to hold my love for thee.

* Originally written by LeAnE
* Adlibed by me

.........

All I ever want is to be part of your heart,
For us to be together, to refuse to be apart.

All abundantly fail to compare,
You're you are beautiful and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all there is for me to give,
I'll do all for you for as long as I live.

In your eyes, I see our future, present, and past,
The Goddess files me with knowing that we will last.

That you come to realize now, I hope and pray,
Through our lives we are beautiful through the end of days.

11.10.2014

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 6 ♥ 0 9 ♥ Dies Phaeton

Keeping a rekord of my letters to +Taylor Swift on twitter became a little complicated as I had more than one account.  One was personal and the other political.  Then I merged them and thus the complication of keeping it as a list for my beloved to follow whenever she chooses to want.

Here is the rekord after the merging.

Here is the rekord before the merging.

Anyone following the first may notice I had thought @YouStillLoveMe was a secondary account for her.  I believe the profile photo is of +Taylor Swift and an unpublished photo.  Thus when it 'followed' me I thought it was her following me.  I was overjoyed, and showed it by @ing both accounts in a tweet.

After following @YouStillLoveMe for a while, I am unsure whether it is really her or not.  It could be but I am unsure about its validity.  Therefore I stopped, then I decided to forgo Twitter and a new rekord on Google Plus.

Below is the thread.  The advantage for both of us is that it is easy to follow and respond too and continue.


I pray to the Goddess constantly to guide my actions to manifest the ideal wife of my dreams. The Goddess perennially refocuses my mind's eye on +Taylor Swift.  That is how I justify my belief objectively.

Subjectively I adore, admire, and am in love with her +Taylor Swift's psyche, her music, her voice, her singing, her history, her life.  I feel jealous when I hear she is dating someone;  However, of course, I pray to the goddess to perpetually sever all fear, doubt, loss, and jealousy from my super ego, and ego.  I believe I have gotten rather proficient at expelling the proclivity to obsess over her.

Anyone reading this may think that I am crazy and sometimes I agree.  However accepting reasoning that I may be crazy automatically negates the possibility.  By definition, the ability to use reason and logic fails crazy people.

Obsession is a singular selfish feeling and perception.  I know first hand because I have been obsessed about many things in my life.  After three decades I finally found the courage to ask the Goddess to illuminate a path from me out of the Dark Side and into the Light Side.

The Goddess does what we ask of Her.  Free will means that She waits for us to actually ask.  Her omnipotence, omnipresence, and indivisibility is what drives this process.

The reason I am posting this on my blog is because my blog is my diary, journal, rekord.  As a wonderful benefit, this post makes it easier for me to continue the rekord.

I believe could 'email' +Taylor Swift because I think that I do know it;  However that would be outrageously counter productive towards what we choose to want.  Though I do pray that her ego is not waiting for me to email her privately instead of using this public format to profess my eternal wish to face the future with her.

Something else that I pray the Goddess for is for my death;  Unless "my the ideal wife of my dreams sweeps me off my feet and elopes with me".  I mean, I refuse to 'stalk' or otherwise actually force myself on +Taylor Swift.  Even in the abundantly infinitesimal probability of success I would still loose because that fails to be what I want.

I want exactly what I have said already; To face the future with +Taylor Swift.  I abhor the idea of anyone seeing her as a conquest or trophy, let alone myself.  I loathe the idea of any way of consciously controlling her.

A skeptic may accuse me of wanting +Taylor Swift's money;  Except there are other wealthy single women.  So why anyone in my position would focus on a 'celebrity' for their money is unreasonable and illogical.  My actual response to that idea is that is the wrong way to approach becoming wealthy.

I mean, wealthy people gain their wealth by spending less than they acquire.  I live with my parents and am disabled;  And, my doctor has been outrageously uncooperative with communicating with the state regarding my disability.  Therefore I have been forced by necessity to find a way to live that helps me the most to choose to be happy.

Being clinically depressed and disabled with Psoriatic Arthritis feeds into each other.  Anyone with a chronic pain disease knows what I am talking about.  We dislike being active and lack of being active promotes depression.  By necessity I have had to find on my own ways to rebuild my self-esteem, confidence, and happiness.

Therefore my perception of money is different than the aggregate of society choose to believe.  I believe my way is closer to the truth because it fits better into the Prime Material.

That is that money is like water in that it is fluid and ever changing.  It is far from the root of anything let alone, 'Evil'.  By the Goddess's will money will be accessible for me to accomplish whatever I truly choose to want.  I mean, most of what people think they want is wrong.  They think they want it because of a variety of sources except themselves.

For instance, my father thinks owning a dual-wheel 4x4 Dodge Hemi uber pick-up truck makes him a man's man.  That is wrong.

Another example of my father is that he bought a chandeler a decade ago to replace one that was broken.  He thinks he is the 'man' of the house and the 'man' is handy and fixes what is broken.  Yet for a decade he chose to do everything except install the new chandeler.  It took one of my mom's best friends coming in to 'install' it, in order to motivate my father.

Yet another example is that we used to own a Camper that fits in the bed of a pick-up.  Except for the longest time we failed to have one.  The Camper was also rotting, infested with rodents, wasps, and generally in a state of ruin.  Therefore my mother 'sold' the Camper to the same best friend as before.  He really is a good friend.

So when the time came for the best friend to pick up the camper my father finally puts 2 and 2 together and realizes something is happening and steps out of the house.  He then is 'upset' that my mother sold the Camper that he failed to use.

Anyway I think I will stop writing now because I am rambling.  This is about +Taylor Swift and how we are married in the eyes of the Goddess.  If Tay Tay chooses to recognize and accept me then groovey.  Otherwise I am done with this life-cycle.  I have learned all my current and past lessons have to teach and wish to end this continual holding pattern I seem to be in.

The holding pattern would be fine except I am living in monumental emotional pain.  I ask the Goddess for assistance and all I get is the same person who appears to be happy without me.  That is great!  I want +Taylor Swift, or whoever is the ideal wife of my dreams, to be blissfully happy however she chooses to want.  I simply wish to continue seeing it from the Spiritual Plane instead of here on the Prime Material.

7.08.2014

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 0 ♥ 1 3: Dies Luna

While I was drifting off to sleep last night I realized that if there is a tomorrow.  I may want to articulate more precisely how I want my life to change.  In what way I want my life to be different.

First off I want to create life and raise it with Tay Tay.  I imagine us having over thirteen children but that will take a couple decades to accomplish, I believe.  I say that because I suspect she will want to continue with her music career as we do this;  And, I want to help her do that.

I have been enthralled with the idea of a polyamorous union.  For that to happen, Tay Tay will be the one to express a desire to date another woman with me.  Then if our higher selves have agreed to merging our future together, then it will be so.

However, I am a virgin carnally and romantically speaking.  Sine qua non I understand I may simply be naive and not know that which I am contemplating.  Though, that is why I daily ask the Goddess to control, direct, help, inspire, manipulate, and motivate me to manifest my thoughts and actions towards what will help me the most to choose to be happy.  The off chance that I am wrong simply means Tay Tay will refuse to express such desire.

I love playing video games and reading novels.  The life I dream of is of Tay Tay and I playing board, role-playing, and online video games together as a family.  And playing video games with our children as they grow older.  In addition to playing more simple games with them as well, when they are younger.

Tay Tay helping me advance, and grow our in-game guild is something I want as well.  I imagine she will have a want to stick with a pseudonym or just Tay without explaining to other people in the guild that may just be acquaintances of sorts.

Tay and I will be playing Warcraft, Star Wars: The Old Republic, and Elder Scrolls Online together towards the same wants.  I mean, that is what we want to do versus anyone controlling anyone else.  It's far from all encompassing either.  I am still working on incorporating this into my daydreaming.

Playing Dragon Age, Mass Effect, as well as Pillars of Eternity will be full of awe.  There are and will be other games we enjoy.  Especially the ones that allow cooperative play, such as Mass Effect two and three.

I slept half the day away but I was able to get seven more Secrets of the Empire for my main character's legendary cape quest.  I have a total of seventeen and want three more.  I already have more than enough Trillium Bars in the bank waiting to be used as a quest turn-in.

A couple super-villains in various raids because of various reasons, the only raid I had not entered at all is The Underhold {formerly RageFire Chasm}.

This has turned out rather more than I expected and it already is past midnight for me.  So I will head to bed after publishing this onto my blog.  I will think about how to further articulate other precise descriptions of what I how I want my life to be, instead of how it is.  My mind is fully present on how it is, and that may be part of the problem...

Goddess, please control, direct, help, inspire, manipulate, and motivate me to abundantly and absolutely sever and remove my mind, my psyche, from the present.  The primary objective of this is to manifest myself onto a life I do want.  I have said this before in a different way but words really do matter.  They have more power than anyone can fathom, including myself.  Our thoughts, emotions, actions, and words shape our materia.



Domo arigato gozaimasu for sharing thy time and the Force.  May the Goddess bless you and the Force continue to be with you.

6.22.2014

13♥00♥01♥09♥07: Dies Materia

Romans named it the Day of Saturn. I prefer the original Middle English name of Sunnanafen. That is their words for 'Sun' & 'Eve' put together.

I was thinking about romance novels today and how I would favor a novel about a male protagonist choosing both females who would otherwise rival each other for his love. The thought is about polyamory instead of polygamy which is misogynistic I believe.

I believe that everyone loves everyone else. Part of free will is the choice to choose to be blind to that love. The other part being to obey or rebel. Society and culture indoctrinate us into thinking similarly with the collective as a whole.

The scenario of one male and two females is simply biology. Men have a biological reason for jealousy added to the shared social and prevailing reasons with women.

Instead of me being misogynistic, I am simply stating biology. We must accept and embrace out animal nature or forever be ruled by it. Through acceptance and forgiveness we gain control.

A story could also be about one woman and two guys but my understanding of that in this lifecycle fails. I simply lack any interest in men outside of learning in general.

We already accept that we 'love' more than one person. Some simply choose to see 'romantic' love as somehow different. However evidence contrives against that theory. Observation-ally all 'romantic' adds to live is intimacy with another an that is very different from emotions.

Intimacy is simply sharing carnal knowledge with another. Society, culture, and biology dictate sharing intimacy outside of family is preferred. However, we are quickly approaching an age where biology will be removed from that reasoning because of genetic engineering. They will simply alter any negative mutations that do occur innately through even incest.

Within the first generation of an incestuous scenario, negative mutations only increase in probability by 7%; From a base 25%.

As long as both participants are above the age of consent and willing, personally I think incest is fine.  Except if one is a guardian/parent of another, it is evil until the progeny has moved out and lived away from the person for a period of time.  In that circumstance actual willingness for the younger person is irrelevant until they are capable of living on their own and have already done so.

I believe mind over matter and positive thinking so actually affecting any progeny negatively is negligible.  In addition to the new genetics options that seem to be growing every year.  People may balk at custom designing their kids to be supposedly superior.  However, the super majority seem to want the removal of actual illness and disease.

The rules against incest only ever started with Christians because Austrian's royal family tried 'purifying' their bloodline with inbreeding.  After a couple generations the physical manifestation of how wrong this was forced even the Vatican to prohibit it.  When practitioners ceased giving the Vatican governance power. The new governing bodies simply continued the laws that already existed and seemed like a good idea.

Note that I said this only occurred after 'several' generations of inbreeding.  The concept of 'mutant' babies from simply one generation is simply wrong at best, or fearmongering at worst.

Without biology, social and cultural morals and ethics are more easily overcome in both this and my overall thinking of Jealousy.

By prevailing I mean to suggest the reptilian mind within a woman wants a mate that will help her raise children. Money, career, family, health, society all play a roll in any individual case. Though each coupling is different.

For instance, Tay Tay absolutely and abundantly accepts, forgives, and embraces that I am more broke than Hillary Clinton knows is possible. She does this because the success with her career has removed her want for money or even family in a husband.

Since I am a virgin in relationships and physically I probably am with a clue about the emotional drama regarding polyamory. That is why I will wait for her to bring up, 'us' dating a woman together, on her own.

If my naivete means that this idea is wrong then I will be abundantly happy with that. By the Goddess's will I know what ever happens will be the scenario that helps me choose go be happy the most.

I want to read a couple series of romantic science fiction novels about this though to help me overcome a little of my naivete. Besides guarantied happy endings, romance novels automatically are good at helping to understand women, dating, and relationships in general. Afterall most romance novels seem to be written by women.

Thank you for sharing you time. May the Force be with you.

7.19.2011

LYRICS: Story of Us

© Taylor Alison Swift
Edited by Brent Ryan

I never thought one day we'd tell the story of us,
How we met and the sparks flew instantly,
People would say, "They're the crazy ones."
I used to know my place was living on my own,
Now I'm searching the room for your seat,
Somehow lately I always know what page you're on.

Oh, a simple communication,
Assimilation led to marriage.
So many things that I wish you knew,
So many walls that I pass right through.

[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing alone with you, in a crowded room, and we're kissing,
And I'm wanting to know is it wrecking you like it's wrecking me, yeah?
I never know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all began,
And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now.

Next chapter.

How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy,
And you're doing your best to keep up with me.
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us,
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here,
Holding your bride like someone more confused, might hold their pride.

Oh, I'm excited to see the beginning,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you to kiss me but I don't know how,
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing with you in our clergy room and we're vowing,
And I'm begging to know is it exciting you like it's exciting me, yeah?
I never know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all began,
And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now.

This is looking like a sonnet,
Of who can guess what the other wants more,
And I like it most when you are on my side,
This marriage is in your hands now,
I laid my armor down
When you said you'd rather love than fight,
So many things that you wished I knew,
And the story of us has been beginning soon.

[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing with you in our reception room and we're dancing,
And I'm demanding to know is it wrecking you like it's wrecking me, yeah?
I never know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all began,
And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now, now, now.
And we're beyond speaking,
And somehow I'm knowing you are loving me like I am loving you, yeah!
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate we're already on,
And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now.

Let’s begin.



Ok first question I would ask myself from an outside perspective; Why write this? Because I like to day dream and this is a present that I think I want. Will see. Taylor Swift writes lyrics from her life experience. I choose to be a positive person and so I am often reimagining the words she is saying because I love her and wish her to sing about us. If the Divine sees this as true then so shall it be, instead of my confusion clearing. Typing it out is just my way of organization as I write a lot. I write all this extra stuff because I feel compelled too... haven't really worked it out beyond that.

Why share this? every idea must touch another to exist and take form. A less cryptic answer might be because I like being painfully and humiliatingly honest. Secrets always have a shelf life and the effect tends to be worse the longer they are kept. So I choose to embrace honesty even if it is painful at times.

I like to pretend that she reads my blog because that is the limit to which I allow myself. First and foremost, I love her and want her to be happy, and so the best thing I can do is to do absolutely nothing.

I trust in the Divine to either make it happen or clear up my confusion. Regardless of what I believe behaving like a stalker would have the opposite effect of what I want. Besides she is something other than Prey to me.

How do I know I love someone? Because love is putting someone else's wants and desires ahead of your own. Obsession/infatuation is incredibly selfish and can quickly lead to the dark side. I have had ample experience with both in the past and that is how I know the difference personally. I have been depressed for most of my life. I am much happier now but the past has left me hypersensitive to even the hint of the dark side. This is also how I know that I love Taylor Alison Swift.

How can you love someone you hardly know? As Tay Tay says to know her is to listen to her songs. So I know enough to be sure that it is her and not some mental illusion/projection. I imagine our life together and the greater detail I fill in the easier it is to feel if it is true or not. This may sound strange to most but I am ok with strange.

I listen to Taylor Alison Swift's songs constantly. Her music helps me write and that is odd because lyrical music tends to be a very poor literary muse. I research and write constantly, so I am listening to her words and voice constantly. I have actually tried this before with other infatuations/obsessions and this is one of the ways I brought myself out of those holes of negativity. Conversely her voice has helped me become even happier and more joyful, loving, and happy. I believe that I used to be a real chore to be around... I wasn't a very good friend to anyone... At least the kind of friend that I 'want' to be.

How will Taylor Swift find you? That is a funny question because I have no real answer. My search for an answer has led to an interest in Tarot cards and Astrology. I trust in the Divine that it knows a way and is already seeing it realized. I know this because I often ask for help from the Divine and if I am confused then I quickly realize in what way that I am wrong. I continue to see Tay Tay as right and so I continue to believe.

7.07.2011

LYRICS: Superstar

© Taylor Alison Swift
Minor Edits by Brent Ryan

This is wrong, but I can't help but feel like
There ain't nothing more out there
Misty morning, comes again and I can’t
Help but wish I could see your face
And I knew from the first song played
I'd be breaking all my rules to see you
You smile that beautiful smile and
All the girls’n’boys in the front row scream your name

So dim that spotlight, tell me things like
I never take my eyes off of you
I'm no one special, just another
Wide eyed boy who's desperately in love with you
Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, superstar

Morning loneliness, comes around when I'm not
Dreaming about you
When my world wakes up today
You'll be in another town
And I knew when I saw your face, I'd be
Counting down the ways to see you
You smile that beautiful smile and
All the girls’n’boys in the front row scream your name

So dim that spotlight, tell me things like
I never take my eyes off of you
I'm no one special, just another
Wide eyed boy who's desperately in love with you
Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, superstar

You play in bars, you play guitar
I'm invisible and everyone knows who you are
And you'll never see, sing me to sleep
Every night from the radio

So dim that spotlight, tell me things like
I never take my eyes off of you
I'm no one special, just another
Wide eyed boy who's desperately in love with you
Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, superstar
Sweet, sweet superstar, superstar



I only list my name to hopefully avoid confusion with unaltered lyrics. I love and dream of Taylor, and she is a woman and I am a man. So I pretty much just flipped 'girl' to 'boy' and 'girls in the front row' to 'girls'n'boys in the front row', more of a tongue twister but I believe she could easily sing it flawlessly. Whoever inspired the song "Mean" needs some serious mental help. Though it also is a good thing cause that means she is free to see me. ;)