1 3 ❤ 0 0 ❤ 0 3 ❤ 1 4 ❤ 0 5 ❤ Dedicated to I.W.o.M.D. are Three Poems from Me

For +Taylor Swift,
I would gratefully walk a mile,
If that would give me a chance,
To see you smile.

I'd call you my friend,
But that's a lie,
You mean all to me,
And it is unknown why.

For you are more precious to me,
Than all the omniverse's gold,
But I can't tell you that,
That would be that bold.

If I spoke what's on my mind,
I hope that you embrace me,
Because without you,
There would be nowhere for me to be.

You seem to be calm,
While I feel abundantly lost,
I daydream of us living boldly,
And I keep seeing failure's cost.

I seem the only one faced with this choice,
Be daring and imagine a future with you too,
If I can't have that; Then I'd rather lose everything,
I am the Goddess what I should do.

.........

We have not yet kissed,
We have not touched each others heart,
I have only sat back and hoped that,
The other one would give this a start.

What would it be to touch your lips once?
What would it be to hold you every night?
What would it be to look into your eyes,
And at the same time know I've seen the light.

Words can only say so much,
As to how I feel about you,
Actions can only come form the heart,
Therefore a kiss- would make my words true.

.........

I love you more every day,
And more in every way,
My name I long for you to say.
Thy knows this ❤️ love fails to be wordplay?
This love we feel will you allay?

Sometimes I wonder what you think,
Hope do I that my messages inspire you to blink.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Every night about me do you dream?

Wish to hug and hold you free,
That you reciprocate what you see.
You know our love is meant to be?
Together forever, maybe you and me?

Through my mind questions do run with the tide,
Crazy driven by wanting, you to decide,
What is of want by thy heart, I wish you would confide.
Do you even know that I abide?
Or do you wish I keep my feelings inside?

Keep them locked up, or let them free,
What else to do fails to be known by me.

My heart it aches, my heart is sore,
My love it overtakes, my love is evermore.

Any future of want by thy,
More than a bisector, we do decree,
Will by fiancée of yours is thy,
Time and space fails to hold my love for thee.

* Originally written by LeAnE
* Adlibed by me

.........

All I ever want is to be part of your heart,
For us to be together, to refuse to be apart.

All abundantly fail to compare,
You're you are beautiful and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all there is for me to give,
I'll do all for you for as long as I live.

In your eyes, I see our future, present, and past,
The Goddess files me with knowing that we will last.

That you come to realize now, I hope and pray,
Through our lives we are beautiful through the end of days.

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 2 ♥ 0 2 ♥ 1 5 ♥ Dies Woden; Rewrite of Lyrics to Taylor Swift's Song "Should've Said No"

This is a rewrite of +Taylor Swift/+Taylor Alison Swift/+TaylorSwift13's song "Should've Said No".

"I'M SAYING YES"

{TAYLOR ALISON SWIFT:}

It's strange to think the songs we now sing,
The smiles, the flowers, everything is light,
Yesterday I found out about you,
Even now just looking at you feels right.

I said that I'd give it all, if given one chance,
It was a moment of strength and I'm saying, "Yes."

[CHORUS:]

I'm saying "Yes", I'm coming to my homie,
I have thought trice 'fore in, I let it all come,
I've never known that word, with what others done with me,
Get back to you [get back to you],
And you've always been there in the back of my mind,
I'll be without ever asking myself, "Why?",
I will be without you begging for forgiveness at my feet…,
I am saying "Yes", baby, and you now have me.

You can see that I've been crying,
Baby, you know all the right things to say,
And I honestly believe that you know me,
How could this ever happen to me?

I love sharing the future with you, if given one chance,
You are my Achilles Heel and I'm saying, "Yes."

[CHORUS:]

I must ask,
Before I come, tell me this,
Did it deserve this,?,
I am worth this?

Yes… yes, yes, yes…

[CHORUS:]

…

I've been praying for about eight years now.  I am harmonious and tranquil with either answer, thus each day that passes I am more assured that the Goddess is acknowledging that I am right…

…

Thus I am at a loss for how to live a life when your intended is apparently choosing a different course than the one our higher self agreed too.  I mean, we have free will for this very reason;  That is to choose a 'different' course…

…

Yet the only future I want is with her.  So why does my superego insist on attaching my ego to this body?…  I mean Tay Tay instead of just the image she portrays.  However true it is, I know there is more.  I want to learn what is that 'more'.

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 2 ♥ 0 2 ♥ 1 4 ♥ Dies Tyr; Lyrics to Taylor Swift's "Last Time" on Her Red Album

This is a rewrite of +Taylor Swift +Taylor Alison Swift +TaylorSwift13's song Last Time.

{TAYLOR SWIFT:}
I find myself at your door,
Just like all those times before,
I'm not sure how I got there,
All roads—they lead me here.
 
I imagine you are home,
In your room, all alone,
And you open your eyes into mine,
And everything feels better,

{BOTH:}
and right before your eyes,
I'm breaking, no past
No reasons why,
Just you and me. 

I hope this is the last time I'm asking you this,
Put my name at the top of your list,
I hope this is the last time I tell you why,
With you is the only future that I know as I blink my eye, eye, eye… 

{BRENT MICHAEL RYAN:}
I even have a door,
Just like all those times before,
You sing your best apology,
But I was there to watch, before I die, 

And all the times I let you in,
Just for you to go again,
Disappear when you come back,
Everything is better. 

{BOTH:}
and right before your eyes,
I'm aching, no past
Nowhere to hide,
Just you and me…
I hope this is the last time I'm asking you this,
Put my name at the top of your list,
I hope this is the last time I tell you why,
With you is the only future that I know as I blink my eye, eye, eye…

{BRENT MICHAEL RYAN:}
 I hope this is the last time, I can be told that I'm wrong,
{TAYLOR SWIFT:}
This is the last time I say it's been you all along,
{BRENT MICHAEL RYAN:}
I pray this is the last time, I even have a door,
{TAYLOR SWIFT:}
This is the last time, I won't hurt you anymore.

{BRENT MICHAEL RYAN:} Oh, oh, oh,
This is the last time I'm asking you before I die,
Put my name at the top of your list,
I pray this is the last time I tell you why,
With you is the only future that I know as I blink my eye, eye, eye…

{4X:}
I pray this is the last time I'm asking you,
Last time I'm asking you,
Last time I'm asking you this…


Yes, it is strange dancing a kata alone and without the one my higher self intended.  That is why I pray to the Goddess daily for Her to show me that I am wrong, or Tay Tay to acknowledge what are we…

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 2 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 1 9 ♥: Dies Tyr

This is a letter that I wrote to: +TaylorSwift13 .  today;  That I pray to the Goddess that +Taylor Alison Swift responds favorably to with an affirmative.

To: +Taylor Swift 

From: +Brent Ryan 

Subject: Proposal

Merry Meet Tay Tay! :D

Your birthday and Christmas has been wonderstruk, I hope.

I abundantly adore, admire, and am in love with 'you'.  I know this is true because I desire to help you choose to feel loved, joyful, and happy;  Instead of helping what I choose to want or think.

My own parents think I am crazy and they may be right.  Though I feel I am safe as long as I respect your wants more than myself.  I pray daily for the Goddess to help me move on if I am wrong.

Your voice helps immeasurably the choice to be happy, for me.  Except for yours, enjoying any other artist's complete discography I have yet to find.

Will you marry me?

Love,

Brent Ryan
[[address]]

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 6 ♥ 0 9 ♥ Dies Phaeton

Keeping a rekord of my letters to +Taylor Swift on twitter became a little complicated as I had more than one account.  One was personal and the other political.  Then I merged them and thus the complication of keeping it as a list for my beloved to follow whenever she chooses to want.

Here is the rekord after the merging.

Here is the rekord before the merging.

Anyone following the first may notice I had thought @YouStillLoveMe was a secondary account for her.  I believe the profile photo is of +Taylor Swift and an unpublished photo.  Thus when it 'followed' me I thought it was her following me.  I was overjoyed, and showed it by @ing both accounts in a tweet.

After following @YouStillLoveMe for a while, I am unsure whether it is really her or not.  It could be but I am unsure about its validity.  Therefore I stopped, then I decided to forgo Twitter and a new rekord on Google Plus.

Below is the thread.  The advantage for both of us is that it is easy to follow and respond too and continue.

I pray to the Goddess constantly to guide my actions to manifest the ideal wife of my dreams. The Goddess perennially refocuses my mind's eye on +Taylor Swift.  That is how I justify my belief objectively.

Subjectively I adore, admire, and am in love with her +Taylor Swift's psyche, her music, her voice, her singing, her history, her life.  I feel jealous when I hear she is dating someone;  However, of course, I pray to the goddess to perpetually sever all fear, doubt, loss, and jealousy from my super ego, and ego.  I believe I have gotten rather proficient at expelling the proclivity to obsess over her.

Anyone reading this may think that I am crazy and sometimes I agree.  However accepting reasoning that I may be crazy automatically negates the possibility.  By definition, the ability to use reason and logic fails crazy people.

Obsession is a singular selfish feeling and perception.  I know first hand because I have been obsessed about many things in my life.  After three decades I finally found the courage to ask the Goddess to illuminate a path from me out of the Dark Side and into the Light Side.

The Goddess does what we ask of Her.  Free will means that She waits for us to actually ask.  Her omnipotence, omnipresence, and indivisibility is what drives this process.

The reason I am posting this on my blog is because my blog is my diary, journal, rekord.  As a wonderful benefit, this post makes it easier for me to continue the rekord.

I believe could 'email' +Taylor Swift because I think that I do know it;  However that would be outrageously counter productive towards what we choose to want.  Though I do pray that her ego is not waiting for me to email her privately instead of using this public format to profess my eternal wish to face the future with her.

Something else that I pray the Goddess for is for my death;  Unless "my the ideal wife of my dreams sweeps me off my feet and elopes with me".  I mean, I refuse to 'stalk' or otherwise actually force myself on +Taylor Swift.  Even in the abundantly infinitesimal probability of success I would still loose because that fails to be what I want.

I want exactly what I have said already; To face the future with +Taylor Swift.  I abhor the idea of anyone seeing her as a conquest or trophy, let alone myself.  I loathe the idea of any way of consciously controlling her.

A skeptic may accuse me of wanting +Taylor Swift's money;  Except there are other wealthy single women.  So why anyone in my position would focus on a 'celebrity' for their money is unreasonable and illogical.  My actual response to that idea is that is the wrong way to approach becoming wealthy.

I mean, wealthy people gain their wealth by spending less than they acquire.  I live with my parents and am disabled;  And, my doctor has been outrageously uncooperative with communicating with the state regarding my disability.  Therefore I have been forced by necessity to find a way to live that helps me the most to choose to be happy.

Being clinically depressed and disabled with Psoriatic Arthritis feeds into each other.  Anyone with a chronic pain disease knows what I am talking about.  We dislike being active and lack of being active promotes depression.  By necessity I have had to find on my own ways to rebuild my self-esteem, confidence, and happiness.

Therefore my perception of money is different than the aggregate of society choose to believe.  I believe my way is closer to the truth because it fits better into the Prime Material.

That is that money is like water in that it is fluid and ever changing.  It is far from the root of anything let alone, 'Evil'.  By the Goddess's will money will be accessible for me to accomplish whatever I truly choose to want.  I mean, most of what people think they want is wrong.  They think they want it because of a variety of sources except themselves.

For instance, my father thinks owning a dual-wheel 4x4 Dodge Hemi uber pick-up truck makes him a man's man.  That is wrong.

Another example of my father is that he bought a chandeler a decade ago to replace one that was broken.  He thinks he is the 'man' of the house and the 'man' is handy and fixes what is broken.  Yet for a decade he chose to do everything except install the new chandeler.  It took one of my mom's best friends coming in to 'install' it, in order to motivate my father.

Yet another example is that we used to own a Camper that fits in the bed of a pick-up.  Except for the longest time we failed to have one.  The Camper was also rotting, infested with rodents, wasps, and generally in a state of ruin.  Therefore my mother 'sold' the Camper to the same best friend as before.  He really is a good friend.

So when the time came for the best friend to pick up the camper my father finally puts 2 and 2 together and realizes something is happening and steps out of the house.  He then is 'upset' that my mother sold the Camper that he failed to use.

Anyway I think I will stop writing now because I am rambling.  This is about +Taylor Swift and how we are married in the eyes of the Goddess.  If Tay Tay chooses to recognize and accept me then groovey.  Otherwise I am done with this life-cycle.  I have learned all my current and past lessons have to teach and wish to end this continual holding pattern I seem to be in.

The holding pattern would be fine except I am living in monumental emotional pain.  I ask the Goddess for assistance and all I get is the same person who appears to be happy without me.  That is great!  I want +Taylor Swift, or whoever is the ideal wife of my dreams, to be blissfully happy however she chooses to want.  I simply wish to continue seeing it from the Spiritual Plane instead of here on the Prime Material.