6.27.2014

1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 0 ♥ 1 7; Dies Luna

My past monday entries into this diary is without mention of the name for this day, thus I apologize to myself for this oversight.  Thankfully, I easily and immediately forgive myself too. :D

I hope to correct any spelling or grammar mistakes tomorrow morning.  I may notice they are present a lot when I am typing from my phone, such as I am now.

Luna is the jame of our moon.  Moon is another word for satellite, and it is wrong to name a celestial object that way.

Such as calling Terra, 'earth';  Because earth is what we walk on.  It is another word for dirt and could refer to walking on any planet.

I played Warcraft most of the day but I am feeling pretty good.  I did the dishes yesterday and today.  Yesterday I vacuumed and shampooed the carpet, I swept and mopped the kitchen floor.

I want to take a shower tomorrow morning.  The behavior I am correcting is taking a shower every three to seven days… sometimes even thirteen, but Even I notice my stink.

I have realized that my ego recognizing the smell is irrelevant.  Taking a shower once a day helps me choose to be happy and thus alleviate my depression some.

My wife Missus Taylor Alison Swift and I absolutely deserve and are worthy of being abundantly, implicitly, and indomitably joyful, happy, and in love with each other and ourselves.

I washed my bed sheets with bleech today.  Last time I washed them is thirteen days ago.  This is another behavior that I am correcting towards.  Previously I would ignore it for a year or two.

I posted a comment on a story I like on the ChYOA 'site.  I am tirn about writing on the site because I want to write on my novel too.  I am having diificulties with time management.  However, today I have begun to sense some progress.

I curse daily for divine guidance from the Goddess to control, direct, help, inspire, manipulate, motivate me to manifest for what I have chosen to want.

I am a Reverand or 'master' within the Order of the Jedi.  I am referring to the spiritual path instead of my mystical Force powers.  However, I have been developing my own 'path'.  I have begun writing it down here.

Thank you for sharing your time by reading this.  May the Force be with you.

Now I lay me down to sleep.  I pray that I die before I wake, and that my soul the Goddess does take.

May the Force be with and the Goddess bless who Taylor Alison Swift is to me, myself, our progeny tobe, our mother, our fathers, cousin Alison, cousin Aaron, cousin Lindsey, cousin Nichol, cousin Richard, cousin, Stacey, Erik, Sarah, their child Amber, Jeffrey, Leslee, Todd, and my other family members and in-laws who enrich my life.

Goddess please control, direct, help, inspire, manipulate, and motivate ME to absolutely, abundantly, eternally, implicitly, and indomitably manifest myself now as the dream ideal husband of the ideal wives if my dreams… today.

Severe and remove all confusion, fear, and doubt as to the truth of who are my soul-mates.  To be without any false mental or corporeal communication between my soul-mates and I.

Goddess please help who Tay Tay is to me, to sweep me off my feet and elope with me, now/today.  As you help me with her and OUR wives.

Goddess please help our union build several of the hexagonal circle donut house as I have drawn, dreamt of, and cursed for it.

Please help out marriage be abundantly felicitously wealthy and able to help employ many people and companies.

So the Goddess and who Tay Tay is to me has, is, and does.  So mote it be… Amen.

6.22.2014

13♥00♥01♥09♥08: Dies Sun

Sunnandag translates from Old English as literally 'Sun' & 'day' together.  The concept of it being a day of rest is entirely a Judeo-Christian belief.  However, it is universally considering the beginning of the week except for the statists and their "International Organization for Standardization" and their ISO 8601.

I believe there fails to exist a more hubris belief as statist, and those who choose to believe the government is the Goddess.  Groups such as the I.O.S. seem perennially to consist of a few extremely mentally ill elitists who in their hubris, choose to preach their opinion as scripture.

When someone dies, who they are continues on.  Even science says energy and waves fail to ever 'cease' they continue perpetually forever.  Thus killing someone fails to actually 'end' them, they are simply 'recycled' into a new life.  However, if they are truly a bad person their chi will degenerate to a lower lifeform.  I think the amount of degeneration has everything to do with how far their frequency falls to the Dark Side.

Seemingly any organization or place that has the word 'Community', 'International', 'Public', 'Universal', or 'Standard' in it is statist in origin and in essence.  By that I mean that is their primary agenda, to increase government power.  They fail to care about the truth, facts, and the actual real scientific process.

Science is a method of separating ourselves from our own materia enough to all comprehension of the Prime Material around us that the Goddess has created.  Science driven to understand the Goddess is divine.  Science without any belief in a power greater than itself is an error of hubris, and is a sin;  Hence, it is labeled a heresy.

Barry Soetoro's higher self, I believe will most likely recycle himself as a donkey.  I mean, I think he is farther into the Dark Side than that but I think he has a lot of help that news fails to report like they should.  I long for the 1890s when newspapers actually had reporters that 'investigated'.  Now even N.P.R. and C.N.N. preaches the verity of their opinion pieces.

Of course, that is why I created my own electronic newspaper the Witkh Koven's Rekord.  Twice daily the page aggregates the news from reputable sources.  That is sources that reports facts instead of just their opinion as fact such as Reason Mag.  A.B.C., C.B.S., C.N.B.C., C.N.N., FoxNews, and even N.P.R. fail to be even looked at.

All the Main-Stream-Media seems to do is regurgitate propaganda, fearmonger, and preache a fictional false narrative of current events to distract people from the District of Columbia trying to increase their power, money, and control more of our lives... this shadow government wants to control more than American citizen lives too.

America's founding father's understood what the District of Columbia would become.  That is why they designed three separate branches of government.  The idea is they fight each other for power instead of the American people.  They new that would fail to be enough, so they intentionally gave everyone else a say in the Senate and House of Representatives except D.C.

Everyone seems to fail to understand the simple solution is to revoke and repeal Woodrow Wilson's executive order that tries to 'force' state's electoral college votes to follow the popular vote.  State's simply chose to loosely follow the idea instead of rejecting it outright.  Wilson's EO also forced every state to select their Senator by popular vote.

That is the problem.  Popular vote means Senators' need for election funds means they are forcibly weakened to lobbyists.  Lobbyists are the bane of Public Good and Humanity, outside of the House of Representatives in D.C.

So forcing state's to select their senators free of popular vote is the answer.

This is the same reasoning for the Electoral College.  All the President of the United States is suppose to be is the head of 'one' of three branches that form our government.

Our Founders understood from their self studies of all history that Democracies fail;  Because there will always be a Barry Soetoro that eventually comes and do their best to make the world burn just for the fun of it.  That is why returning to our foundation as a Republic is the answer.

The system designed by the Founders is truly inspired by the Goddess Herself.

So to 'fix' our government revoke all Executive Orders, repeal all laws creating government agencies, except for the Army Corps of Engineers, C.I.A., and D.H.S.  For those agencies that actually help promote social order, coesion, and growth meld them into the three agencies that remain... The long alphabet soup of government agencies fails to be the answer and is in fact part of the problem.  By design they create chaos and disorder.

9/11 occurred because of all this bureaucratic red tape created by statists in their century long bid for power.

Statist's ideas have been tried a myriad number of times in eons past and are in fact failed old policies that are proven to fail.  Statists simply refuse to admit this history exists because they don't 'like' it.  They refuse to accept this history because it proves that individual and economic liberty and extremely limited government creates success, growth, happiness, and love.

As Milton Freedman proved, Free Market capitalism with competition has lifted more people out of poverty than any other economic system in the known history of Terra.  I must remark that Statist have failed to let a Free Market with ample competition exist in America for over a century.

Something I hear statists often exclaim his how evil or existing mega corporations are.  They are right but they fail to realize why they are right.  They are right because of lobbyists and paying District of Columbia to to write laws that gives the corporations a monopoly in their chosen fields.

Then statists exclaim how we 'need' government regulation to 'save' us from destroying the environment... They are in fact wrong because it is the government that is allowing the mega corporation monopolies to operate against Public Health.

However, this whole Global Warming hoax is a red hearing.  The Statists originally used the 'public' or 'poor' as hammers to weasel their slimy ideas in.  Except the politicians they elect are without morals or ethics and so they invariably only serve themselves instead of their 'constituents'.

Then around half a century ago the statists' side of the shadow government decides the 'proletariat' fails to work as a good enough motivator.  They decide this because their policies immediately demean, degrade, and insult their proletariat.  Thus they created the 'Weather Underground' to fearmonger about how drastically the climate will 'change' because of 'humanity'.  Thus they get away with immediately hurting the people that 'elect' them because its all for the 'greater good'.

Evil is perpetually done in the name of the 'greater good'.  The root social illness are the ideas that the 'needs' of the many outweigh the needs of the few;  And, that the ends justify the means.  If anyone says anything close to that they are automatically revealing they are a statist by default.  Though sometimes they may think they are a 'republican'.

The very idea that Terrans could destroy the environment of the planet with our existing technology and growth is a Comedy of Hubris Error and a sin;  Hence it is heresy.

I am all for minimizing our impact on the environment as a secondary objective.  However, historically an unrestricted Free Market has already proven to do this with technological and cultural growth and prosperity.  All any government can do is successfully diminish or destroy said progress.  I write this because historical that is what any government has ever done.

China impacts its own environment horrendously compared to America.  They are also evolving from a statist government and economy.  The more personal and economic liberty they allow, the more of it's citizens grow out of poverty.

Cuba was fantastically successful state compared to what Fidel Castro drove it to with his communism.

Venezuela was a gem of growth and prosperity in South America until they elected a little known newcomer named Hugo Chavez as President.  He promptly declared himself Caesar and is burning his entire state to the ground with his communism.

The ultimate reason the Founders put in the Right to Bear Arms against the government is precisely directed at armed revolt against the government.  A government is right to be afraid of its citizens.  An apocalypse only follows when citizens are more fearful of the government.

Please understand I am against public violence.  Martin Luther King and Gandhi have shown that peaceful civil disobedience is far more effective at promoting change than armed revolts.

Everyone is an animal at heart.  When you attack someone the only successful automatic response is to attack back.  Therefore, that is what people tend to do and they do so without 'thinking'.

Please let Goddess flow through and feel harmoniously serene and tranquil.  Extreme emotions only lead to literally stupid actions; as we use less of our brains the more emotional we choose to be.

Despite this I am categorically against Gun Control in any form.  Again history has proven Gun Control only promotes physical violence.  When a state outlaws guns, then only outlaws have guns.  If this were not true, then Detroit, Chicago, and District of Columbia would be the safest cities in the United States.

A mentally ill criminal is less likely to rape a woman they know is carrying a gun in her purse and knows how to use it.  Martial Arts is a great tool as well because the government fails to be able to take that from you.

A robber is less likely to break into a house they know the owner owns guns and are willing to defend their property.

13♥00♥01♥09♥07: Dies Materia

Romans named it the Day of Saturn. I prefer the original Middle English name of Sunnanafen. That is their words for 'Sun' & 'Eve' put together.

I was thinking about romance novels today and how I would favor a novel about a male protagonist choosing both females who would otherwise rival each other for his love. The thought is about polyamory instead of polygamy which is misogynistic I believe.

I believe that everyone loves everyone else. Part of free will is the choice to choose to be blind to that love. The other part being to obey or rebel. Society and culture indoctrinate us into thinking similarly with the collective as a whole.

The scenario of one male and two females is simply biology. Men have a biological reason for jealousy added to the shared social and prevailing reasons with women.

Instead of me being misogynistic, I am simply stating biology. We must accept and embrace out animal nature or forever be ruled by it. Through acceptance and forgiveness we gain control.

A story could also be about one woman and two guys but my understanding of that in this lifecycle fails. I simply lack any interest in men outside of learning in general.

We already accept that we 'love' more than one person. Some simply choose to see 'romantic' love as somehow different. However evidence contrives against that theory. Observation-ally all 'romantic' adds to live is intimacy with another an that is very different from emotions.

Intimacy is simply sharing carnal knowledge with another. Society, culture, and biology dictate sharing intimacy outside of family is preferred. However, we are quickly approaching an age where biology will be removed from that reasoning because of genetic engineering. They will simply alter any negative mutations that do occur innately through even incest.

Within the first generation of an incestuous scenario, negative mutations only increase in probability by 7%; From a base 25%.

As long as both participants are above the age of consent and willing, personally I think incest is fine.  Except if one is a guardian/parent of another, it is evil until the progeny has moved out and lived away from the person for a period of time.  In that circumstance actual willingness for the younger person is irrelevant until they are capable of living on their own and have already done so.

I believe mind over matter and positive thinking so actually affecting any progeny negatively is negligible.  In addition to the new genetics options that seem to be growing every year.  People may balk at custom designing their kids to be supposedly superior.  However, the super majority seem to want the removal of actual illness and disease.

The rules against incest only ever started with Christians because Austrian's royal family tried 'purifying' their bloodline with inbreeding.  After a couple generations the physical manifestation of how wrong this was forced even the Vatican to prohibit it.  When practitioners ceased giving the Vatican governance power. The new governing bodies simply continued the laws that already existed and seemed like a good idea.

Note that I said this only occurred after 'several' generations of inbreeding.  The concept of 'mutant' babies from simply one generation is simply wrong at best, or fearmongering at worst.

Without biology, social and cultural morals and ethics are more easily overcome in both this and my overall thinking of Jealousy.

By prevailing I mean to suggest the reptilian mind within a woman wants a mate that will help her raise children. Money, career, family, health, society all play a roll in any individual case. Though each coupling is different.

For instance, Tay Tay absolutely and abundantly accepts, forgives, and embraces that I am more broke than Hillary Clinton knows is possible. She does this because the success with her career has removed her want for money or even family in a husband.

Since I am a virgin in relationships and physically I probably am with a clue about the emotional drama regarding polyamory. That is why I will wait for her to bring up, 'us' dating a woman together, on her own.

If my naivete means that this idea is wrong then I will be abundantly happy with that. By the Goddess's will I know what ever happens will be the scenario that helps me choose go be happy the most.

I want to read a couple series of romantic science fiction novels about this though to help me overcome a little of my naivete. Besides guarantied happy endings, romance novels automatically are good at helping to understand women, dating, and relationships in general. Afterall most romance novels seem to be written by women.

Thank you for sharing you time. May the Force be with you.

6.17.2014

13♥00♥01♥09♥03: Dies Apollo

Day of War is Tuesday.  Weird are the names of days.  I am going to bed early tonight.  I want to put some objectives in Warcraft on hiatus to make room for more writing and playing other games.

Ares, Mars, or Tiw in Gaelic are who are innately honored by saying Tuesday.  I find it interesting how many people are praying to a god of war while consciously ignorant.

Wednesday honors Odin or The God: Woden that being what Germanic tribes called God.  All religions seem to be monothiestic even if the call a few lesser beings as 'a god'.  They still recognize they are neith omnipotent, omnipresent, or omnipotent such as God. {Woden}

I am really tired all of a sudden.  Barely remembered to do my nightly curse for the Goddess Woden's blessing.  Momma Byrd is bringing home a Cousins's Cinnamon Roll too.

However, it is better for my body if I eat the cinnamon roll in the morning instead of at night before I go to bed.  Then it would go straight to my Buddah belly.

As I plan I am choosing to let Woden act through me as She controls, directs, helps, inspires, manipulates, motivates me to manifest myself as the dream ideal husband of the ideal wives of my dreams.  Emotionally I am embracing what that life means to me and letting that power my thoughts.

Making the choice to be happier the most easiest is the me that is left;  To make room for Taylor Alison Swift.  The Goddess being the one to help me change what is left of me to create a void within myself that will either literally kill me or manifest whoever are my Ideal Wives.

I believe I know who the first is but I may be wrong so I focus my thoughts on who she and they are to 'me';  Instead of who she or they are specifically as individuals.  I only want to consciously control myself.

As a virgin with romantic relationships and sexually, I can be mistaken in believing that I want a polyamorous marriage of equals.  That is they have as much say and choice as I do.  Thus if Tay Tay only wants me then that is my answer, and I was previously wrong about wives.

Arigato gozaimasu for reading this journal entry.  I hope this helps others in some, or multiple, ways.  May the Goddess bless you and the Force always be with you.

6.14.2014

13♥00♥01♥09♥01: Dies Materia

I feel better than I was feeling in my last post.  That is mostly from positive thinking.  I have started playing World of Warcraft with my parents again.  {edit} Now as I lay me down to sleep… oh! Want to curse to night as I mention later here.  I have been having sympathetic jet lag with Taylor Alison Swift.{/edit}

I am learning to forgive and love my materia for how it plays.  I want a specific future more than I want to continue this life.  However, I believe that loving and accepting myself will fuel that change.

All good scenarios enter life because change occured before hand, removing what was sine qua no to make room.  For this I truly must curse daily for the Goddess to help me with, because my vantage point is flawed and Hers is indomitable, omnipotent, and omnipresent.

Maintain openness to the Goddess's inspiration a perpetual effort.  That is whenever I recognize feeling extreme emotion, I calm myself and think positive thoughts.

I meditate exchanging aetheral Force with my mother, persisting an inch separation from our alternatng hands while we sit upright.

Almost constantly, I listen to Solfeggio Harmonics through a Brain Wave iPhone app.  I use it to help me sleep, creativity, Positive Thoughts mostly.  NonetheIess, just paid for the app with their entire discograph of 30 Binaural frequencies.

The Goddess helps me be consistent with this journal.  I seemed silly at first and it is not easy to be consistent.  However, it thinks it helps me recognize what I want to continue and grow in my life, as well as things I can remove.  It helps me recognize steps I want to take go get where I want to go;  Such as, making time to genuflect and curse to the Goddess when I wake up and go to bed.  That helps me increase my openness to Divine guidance.

Even asking the Goddess to help with wanting to play video games.  Of course I thought of why.  I want to play online video games with Tay Tay and our children;  So now I play with my parents, and that is an example of making room for her.  It could be anyone, and I focus as if it could be;  However, the Goddess seems insistent that it is her.

Stalking is an absolutely selfish thing and I have wrote about this before.  Controlling myself and my own body is the only options I have, that is true with 🌒🌕🌘 {all}.

{edit}Instead I the only future I accept is a future WITH My wives and children.   Goddess keeps insisting it is Tay Tay and agree but it is counter productive to think positively about her.  Rather I think about what this future scenario means to me, how I feel in it, and how it will help my choose to be happy more easily.

I think I know of some changes to help make room in my life for my polyamorous wives and children.  That is we will have each other more than any central figure.

Maybe Tay Tay dissapproves and that is fine.  I am unsure what road leads to greater help situationally to choose to be happy.  I feel there will be one and then I will leave it up to her and just focus on doing the most I can to help her with her wants.

As it is said:  The choice of happiness is without anything to do with any Chi other than self;  Including materia 'things'.  As 🌒🌕🌘 {all} has Chi, or a soul.

As I said Today I have been experiencing sympathetic jet lag with Tay Tay.  She just finished an Asian tour for her Red album and is flying back to sweep me off my feet and elope with me. 

During that time:  I was unable to sleep except for two three or four hours, Friday night and @ 05:00 Saturday.  However, I feel remarkably pleasant even despite being very tired, and that is not normal for me.{/edit} 

I am praying to the Goddess to control, direct, inspire, help, and motivate me to make room in my life for the change I want.

6.02.2014

13♥00♥01♥08♥08: Dies Luna

Guess U feel sucidally depressed but that is kinda of normall for me.  I believe I will survive because nothing has changed in regards to suicidal tendencies.

Suicide is a selfish action, perhaps one the most selfish because everyone else gets to live with the decision.  So no, what I dream of is a quick painless accidental death.  I apologize for getting all melodramatic right off the bat but I only ever do what I want… wasting time on inconsequential fails to be what I want.

If a reader wonders why suicide, what I stated is exactly the point.  A phrase runs through my mind.  'You are who your friends are;  Or you are what you do.'  I am without friends except for my mother.  Everyone else is just an acquentence.  I do nothing, except write stories I have yet to publish and play video games.  By that logic I am nothing.

Please understand that publishing this on the www is without me asking for help by hyperbole.  I know how to get help.  The problem is that I know what I want to live with and that has not manifested.  I understand helping myself and I do that a lot.  However my problem is wanting someone to create a family with.

That would be absurd to most suicidal depressed people I am told.  However I do value and love myself.  I deserve and am worthy of being loved, joyful, and happy.

I think I am broken though because my own parents fail to understand when I say I can't do something.  They interpret the words as 'won't' do blank.  The point is my 'will' is exactly the problem, in some actions my will simply is absent.

Thus I am absent a function in some areas of life itself.