1 3 ♥ 0 0 ♥ 0 1 ♥ 1 0 ♥ 1 2: Dies Sun

Sunnandag translates from Old English as literally 'Sun' & 'day' together.  The concept of it being a day of rest is entirely a Judeo-Christian belief.  However, it is universally considering the beginning of the week except for the statists.  I have already wrote my reasoning on why statists and their I.O.S. are wrong here.

• This diary entry may seem very melodramatic, morbid, and maybe even a little insane.
• This is my diary and as such is my innermost thoughts.
• Only those who wish to know what my inner thoughts are should continue to read.

Thank you very much for sharing your time.  May the Force be with you and the Goddess bless you.

Since 13.00.01.09.14 my parents and I spent the week at their property near Santa, Idaho.  A zombie tree tried to go for my mother's brains by impaling her shin but we swiftly and deftly dealt with the emergency.  John and two of his old friends from high school was camping with us.

Taylor Alison swift has not responded to an email I sent.  While I think that I do know her email, I avoid using it in any way.  I absolutely, abundantly, indomitably admire, adore, and am in love with her.  Therefore, I favor giving her more privacy than I believe I would want.  She deserves and is worthy of being loved, joyful, and happy on her terms;  So do we all.

My parents and I drove back from Idaho through Moscow, Idaho and Colfax, Washington on 13.00.01.10.10.  I was ready as soon as Sol crested Terra's horizon and rose into the morning celestial sky. I loved visiting there but I am loath to not have access to the internet, my Sleep # Bed, and the ability to take a shower.  I enjoy playing video games a lot, it helps me escape the Psoriatik Arthritis pain I deal with perennially.  The bed goes a long way towards that as well.

I had a air mattress bed that I put a sleeping bag on and slept in a tent with.  However, I discovered why inflatable air mattresses fail... at least the ones you get for camping.  The Sleep # Bed is awesome and technically is an air mattress too.  However, it also has a lot more structure and protection than the camping ones.

I spent most of my time writing, but I helped my parents and John with a couple of their projects every other day or so.  I have been writing on the same novel for a few weeks now.  I am excited about it and look forward to writing more of the story.  I have yet to write an actual outline though, writers say some use outlines and the other half go without.  I prefer keeping an story onion for consistency's sake alone.

John wanted me to stay up there a couple other days but by Day of Frigga ^{{13.00.01.10.10}} I was dying up there.  It is a great place to visit for short periods but a week is beyond my limit until they get running water and a Exede satellite dish for broadband internet access.  Then I would consider moving the Sleep # Bed up there.

Tay Tay has been very sharing with her time the past few days.  She has shared pictures she has taken of her family and 13.00.01.10.10 ^{{July 4th, Independence Day}}.  She has not responded with a yes to my email asking her to marry me.

I know that is deviant from how a relationship normally develops.  However, I felt it gets across how well I think of her;  that I adore, admire, and am in love with her.  Yes I focus on what being married means to me;  Instead of her as an individual.  I could be wrong and the ideal wife of my dreams could be someone else.  That is why I do this.  To do the opposite is to the lie of me obsessing about how I perceive her to be.  Instead I abundantly accept and respect her to be whoever she wants.

I use the name Tay Tay because I believe that the Goddess is telling me she is the one.  I could be wrong and so I only control myself;  Besides we can only ever manifest ourselves.  However, I have trained my brain to immediately focus on manifesting myself instead of obsessing.  It is simply easier to say than explain all of this repeatedly.  At some point in my journals I will run out of different ways to say this...

The Goddess says that Tay Tay will accept my marriage proposal, in response in the next twenty four hours.  So maybe this will be the last time I feel compelled to help alleviate any misunderstanding.

I imagine how my life with change.  Activities I want to do with Tay Tay.  Activities she wants to do with me.  Creating and raising a family is essential of course.  I imagine thirteen children at least.  :)

Although there is a great deal more to our life.  To name them I want Tay Tay to play online video games with me, and offline ones too.  I want her to read stories that I write and help me figure out how to write better and improve the stories.

Presuming to know what Tay Tay would want to do with me is something I avoid.  Yet, I favor the idea of listening to her sing, write new music notwithstanding me respecting her autonomy.  In addition to sailing, playing board/card games, and I leave myself open to what I have failed to imagine.

Part of my publishing this blog/diary/journal is to help Tay Tay know who I am.  While most of her persona is an image, she has said a few things are veritably her.  Such as the lyrics to her songs that she plays come from her heart about her life.  I follow her instant messaging and sharing images of her life with others.

Therefore, while I do avoid focusing on Tay Tay.  I am reasonably comfortable in accepting how much I feel adoration, admiration, and am in love with her.  I do know something about her.

Thus I felt it very important to share something about myself, that she will read;  That is if my believe in the Goddess's message is majorly veritable.

Publishing this online also is a way for me to face my fears.  That is to be fearless;  Such as Tay Tay's second album title.

For instance, when driving down the road ninety-nine percent of everyone on the road will fail to ever approach my materia.  That is I will never see them again in my life.  Or maybe I will drive near them again in the future but the point is choosing to spend any emotion or thoughts in their direction is a waste of time and Force.  Instead, there are a myriad number of thoughts and feelings that will actually help me.

Similarly, most of those reading this will fail to ever approach my materia or ego.  I hope and pray that a few approach my higher self, and that they choose to let what I write help them.  However, the supermajority I will never meet in my life.

I believe the Goddess is suggesting that the people that 'do' approach my materia.  One that 'does' encounter my ego as well, is meant too.

Sine qua non, this is my way of forcibly injecting chaos into the Qabalah, the tree/flower of this life.

I am still very much depressed.  Writing this has helped me some.  I pray daily for the Goddess to help me die unless I absolutely, abundantly, eternally, and indomitably manifest the life I want.

The patterns of my life have all come full circle.  The Goddess has helped me learn all that there is to learn from those patterns.

Right now I feel like I am in a holding pattern and I am done with it.  There is simply too much emotional and physical pain for me to want to continue living this "now".  That is why I want this life to end, why I want to die.  I really do love, adore, and admire myself;  And, why I want this life to end, for me to die, is abundantly without anything to do with my self image.

I admit that I used to hate and loath myself and that is precisely why I know I am done with that.  My present is filled with the consequences of hating and loathing myself.  I am done with that.  Abundantly without a point, there is to continuing to mentally, emotionally, and physically suffer through living this 'present'.

Inflicting self harm, or suicide, is absolutely absent as a possibility.  My mother is the only reason I have survived this long to learn what I have.  To love, adore, and admire who I already am.  To cherish my past instead of hate it or me.

Though I have written this all.  I accept and respect that I am fallible and can be wrong here too.  Thus I am always asking the Goddess to sever from me all fear, anger, hate, and doubt from me.  To help me absolutely, abundantly, and implicitly know what is veritable.

This I also know works because I have repeatedly felt it.  Asking for this of the Goddess is perhaps one of the most difficult things to ask because of how lost one can feel.  As if I am a puppet and all my strings are cut and then reorganized towards what I want.

I have had obsessions in the past and I simply ask the Goddess to remove the object from my mind unless what I think and believe I feel is true.  The number of times this has proven I have been wrong is beyond my ability to recall.  It has been a lot.  It is also why I have been so admit, insistent, and persistent about Tay Tay.  The veritable of my consistency in this is all the proof that I require because I ask the Goddess to remove her from my mind if this is false.


Thus the only reason for me to continue to mentally and physically suffer through this holding pattern of my qabalah, is because Tay Tay refuses to choose.  Accept or reject me.  Yes it 'could' be someone else but that is irrelevant.  'whoever' you want to think of Tay Tay as refuses to choose.

Thus beg, pray, ask, et cetera the Goddess to severe from me any and all bonds holding me to this life.  Sever my life from me, help me die, tonight.  When I want to eternally sleep.  I sever and remove any bond with another soul that is forcing me to live in this Prime Material.



Thank you very much for sharing your time.  May the Force be with you and the Goddess bless you.

13♥00♥01♥09♥08: Dies Sun

Sunnandag translates from Old English as literally 'Sun' & 'day' together.  The concept of it being a day of rest is entirely a Judeo-Christian belief.  However, it is universally considering the beginning of the week except for the statists and their "International Organization for Standardization" and their ISO 8601.

I believe there fails to exist a more hubris belief as statist, and those who choose to believe the government is the Goddess.  Groups such as the I.O.S. seem perennially to consist of a few extremely mentally ill elitists who in their hubris, choose to preach their opinion as scripture.

When someone dies, who they are continues on.  Even science says energy and waves fail to ever 'cease' they continue perpetually forever.  Thus killing someone fails to actually 'end' them, they are simply 'recycled' into a new life.  However, if they are truly a bad person their chi will degenerate to a lower lifeform.  I think the amount of degeneration has everything to do with how far their frequency falls to the Dark Side.

Seemingly any organization or place that has the word 'Community', 'International', 'Public', 'Universal', or 'Standard' in it is statist in origin and in essence.  By that I mean that is their primary agenda, to increase government power.  They fail to care about the truth, facts, and the actual real scientific process.

Science is a method of separating ourselves from our own materia enough to all comprehension of the Prime Material around us that the Goddess has created.  Science driven to understand the Goddess is divine.  Science without any belief in a power greater than itself is an error of hubris, and is a sin;  Hence, it is labeled a heresy.

Barry Soetoro's higher self, I believe will most likely recycle himself as a donkey.  I mean, I think he is farther into the Dark Side than that but I think he has a lot of help that news fails to report like they should.  I long for the 1890s when newspapers actually had reporters that 'investigated'.  Now even N.P.R. and C.N.N. preaches the verity of their opinion pieces.

Of course, that is why I created my own electronic newspaper the Witkh Koven's Rekord.  Twice daily the page aggregates the news from reputable sources.  That is sources that reports facts instead of just their opinion as fact such as Reason Mag.  A.B.C., C.B.S., C.N.B.C., C.N.N., FoxNews, and even N.P.R. fail to be even looked at.

All the Main-Stream-Media seems to do is regurgitate propaganda, fearmonger, and preache a fictional false narrative of current events to distract people from the District of Columbia trying to increase their power, money, and control more of our lives... this shadow government wants to control more than American citizen lives too.

America's founding father's understood what the District of Columbia would become.  That is why they designed three separate branches of government.  The idea is they fight each other for power instead of the American people.  They new that would fail to be enough, so they intentionally gave everyone else a say in the Senate and House of Representatives except D.C.

Everyone seems to fail to understand the simple solution is to revoke and repeal Woodrow Wilson's executive order that tries to 'force' state's electoral college votes to follow the popular vote.  State's simply chose to loosely follow the idea instead of rejecting it outright.  Wilson's EO also forced every state to select their Senator by popular vote.

That is the problem.  Popular vote means Senators' need for election funds means they are forcibly weakened to lobbyists.  Lobbyists are the bane of Public Good and Humanity, outside of the House of Representatives in D.C.

So forcing state's to select their senators free of popular vote is the answer.

This is the same reasoning for the Electoral College.  All the President of the United States is suppose to be is the head of 'one' of three branches that form our government.

Our Founders understood from their self studies of all history that Democracies fail;  Because there will always be a Barry Soetoro that eventually comes and do their best to make the world burn just for the fun of it.  That is why returning to our foundation as a Republic is the answer.

The system designed by the Founders is truly inspired by the Goddess Herself.

So to 'fix' our government revoke all Executive Orders, repeal all laws creating government agencies, except for the Army Corps of Engineers, C.I.A., and D.H.S.  For those agencies that actually help promote social order, coesion, and growth meld them into the three agencies that remain... The long alphabet soup of government agencies fails to be the answer and is in fact part of the problem.  By design they create chaos and disorder.

9/11 occurred because of all this bureaucratic red tape created by statists in their century long bid for power.

Statist's ideas have been tried a myriad number of times in eons past and are in fact failed old policies that are proven to fail.  Statists simply refuse to admit this history exists because they don't 'like' it.  They refuse to accept this history because it proves that individual and economic liberty and extremely limited government creates success, growth, happiness, and love.

As Milton Freedman proved, Free Market capitalism with competition has lifted more people out of poverty than any other economic system in the known history of Terra.  I must remark that Statist have failed to let a Free Market with ample competition exist in America for over a century.

Something I hear statists often exclaim his how evil or existing mega corporations are.  They are right but they fail to realize why they are right.  They are right because of lobbyists and paying District of Columbia to to write laws that gives the corporations a monopoly in their chosen fields.

Then statists exclaim how we 'need' government regulation to 'save' us from destroying the environment... They are in fact wrong because it is the government that is allowing the mega corporation monopolies to operate against Public Health.

However, this whole Global Warming hoax is a red hearing.  The Statists originally used the 'public' or 'poor' as hammers to weasel their slimy ideas in.  Except the politicians they elect are without morals or ethics and so they invariably only serve themselves instead of their 'constituents'.

Then around half a century ago the statists' side of the shadow government decides the 'proletariat' fails to work as a good enough motivator.  They decide this because their policies immediately demean, degrade, and insult their proletariat.  Thus they created the 'Weather Underground' to fearmonger about how drastically the climate will 'change' because of 'humanity'.  Thus they get away with immediately hurting the people that 'elect' them because its all for the 'greater good'.

Evil is perpetually done in the name of the 'greater good'.  The root social illness are the ideas that the 'needs' of the many outweigh the needs of the few;  And, that the ends justify the means.  If anyone says anything close to that they are automatically revealing they are a statist by default.  Though sometimes they may think they are a 'republican'.

The very idea that Terrans could destroy the environment of the planet with our existing technology and growth is a Comedy of Hubris Error and a sin;  Hence it is heresy.

I am all for minimizing our impact on the environment as a secondary objective.  However, historically an unrestricted Free Market has already proven to do this with technological and cultural growth and prosperity.  All any government can do is successfully diminish or destroy said progress.  I write this because historical that is what any government has ever done.

China impacts its own environment horrendously compared to America.  They are also evolving from a statist government and economy.  The more personal and economic liberty they allow, the more of it's citizens grow out of poverty.

Cuba was fantastically successful state compared to what Fidel Castro drove it to with his communism.

Venezuela was a gem of growth and prosperity in South America until they elected a little known newcomer named Hugo Chavez as President.  He promptly declared himself Caesar and is burning his entire state to the ground with his communism.

The ultimate reason the Founders put in the Right to Bear Arms against the government is precisely directed at armed revolt against the government.  A government is right to be afraid of its citizens.  An apocalypse only follows when citizens are more fearful of the government.

Please understand I am against public violence.  Martin Luther King and Gandhi have shown that peaceful civil disobedience is far more effective at promoting change than armed revolts.

Everyone is an animal at heart.  When you attack someone the only successful automatic response is to attack back.  Therefore, that is what people tend to do and they do so without 'thinking'.

Please let Goddess flow through and feel harmoniously serene and tranquil.  Extreme emotions only lead to literally stupid actions; as we use less of our brains the more emotional we choose to be.

Despite this I am categorically against Gun Control in any form.  Again history has proven Gun Control only promotes physical violence.  When a state outlaws guns, then only outlaws have guns.  If this were not true, then Detroit, Chicago, and District of Columbia would be the safest cities in the United States.

A mentally ill criminal is less likely to rape a woman they know is carrying a gun in her purse and knows how to use it.  Martial Arts is a great tool as well because the government fails to be able to take that from you.

A robber is less likely to break into a house they know the owner owns guns and are willing to defend their property.