It is likely, that you have already become aware of good potential husbands. All those who voted for the current Democrat Party or statist career politicians such as Senator John McCain, Representative Nancy Pollosi, Representative John Buener, Senator Susan Collins, Senator Patty Murray, Senator Maria Cantrell, Senator Mitch McConnell, et cetera have themselves for the reason.
Statists always have some sort of mental illness. At some point, typically do to unresolved trauma, their capacity to understand logic or reason fails. In a society that increasingly promotes and encourages people to feel victimized, and thus be a victim; That mindset fails to attract quality relationships. This is about recognizing your own power, instead of blaming the victim.
All have the capacity to play a victim, regardless of income, career, and/or material/spiritual wealth; And it is horribly unattractive. Find help to mentally and spiritually healthy. That alone will immeasurably increase your attractiveness.
The Femma-Nazi grouping has successfully brainwashed women whether they know it or not. Megyn Kelly and Katty Perry great examples of this. The reason is because they fail to really soul search on what they want in a mate.
If you are already have a career that pays over six figures, or are independently wealthy; Why insist on your mate doing the same.?. Having a career that pays that much fails to equal good morals and a quality character. There's are many ways of finding people who are more concerned with your character than your wealth.
Find a hobby that you enjoy, and/or find groups on meetup.com that center on one or more hobbies that you share. In ages part women and men depended on finding quality men at church. If you fail to go to church often, then maybe make time for a group activity that you do care about. If you are too busy to find a spiritual path you do agree with, then that in itself is a problem.
Dating friends of friends, can be hit or miss, because your friends fails to really know what you want in a mate, or they are unlikely to agree. It is also a good way to fail at finding another different than what you already know.
The point however, is that dating men who earn six figures or are independently wealthy, is only great if you are looking for someone who is likely to have a problem with you earning more than him. Instead of sexism, this is simply the competitive drive that got him that far. In today's wage-driven society, that is exactly how they got to the point of earning that much. The last thing a person wants is to find their mate 'beating' you, and without anything you could do about it.
Men who recognize that logic and reasoning as failing, also tend to reject the wage-driven desire. The desire to be competitive can be grouped with that as collateral damage.
The bLame Stream Media, likes to use the words "living in mother's basement" but why exactly is that a bad thing? We should look to family for help first before thinking of letting the "state" pay for said individual to live on their own.
Yes, that description could apply to me, though there fails to be many basements in the northwest. The lack of extreme weather makes them an unnecessary cost, verses just adding another level to the house. However, that Californians may choose to think a little snow on the road in winter is "extreme weather" is already known.
Ironically, I consider myself extremely successful at writing stories, translating that into money is more of a challenge. Being disabled with Rheumatoid Arthritis and a general A.A. degree makes it not easy to find a job that fails to let me sit in a chair. That they exist I am sure, but my familychoose on their own to helps me
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Stardate 13.00.02.09.04; 20:13
I am nearing the end of this cycle of my life. I used to be so depressed that I was suicidal. I still am depressed somewhat but I have healed to abundantly healthy my self-esteem/image. I have lost a lot of weight and am loosing more. I love who I am now and I cherish my past even as I am most adamant to never repeat any cycle from this life ever again.
Thus I have gun to think about spiritual plane and past lives. I have made a new rule for myself with my ego. I pray to the Goddess that she absolutely and abundantly helps me manifest this rule to my satisfaction... well, really to help me manifest anything that I want enough to pray to Her for. I have already written out my prayer for the soul mate that I is an Ideal Wife of my dreams for me. As I am the Ideal Husband of her dreams.
The new rule is to absolutely and abundantly remember any and all other lifecycles that I have lived. I think, remembering present or future ones would be too confusing. I further limit these memories to be equalized all emotions both Light and Dark Side of the Force. I want to remember them but I must ensure that my focus is on the lifecycle I am living.
I have had a mental conversation with a voice in my head that I perceive as +Mrs. Taylor Alison Swift Ryan/+Taylor Alison Swift . As always I refuse to physically do anything based on this conversation without actual physical verification that it was true. Thus I maintain my sanity, and protect myself from biological and energy based entities of the #Dark #Side.
Yes I am a Master of the Jedi {Reverend}; However, I have started my own order that is very much based on Hermetic, Edgar Cayce, Jesus, Buddhism, and Judaism. The reason I keep the name is because the movies describes the Force exceptionally well, though George Lucas's mind failed to comprehend a couple key pieces of information I believe spirits relayed to him about that reality.
It is Father's Day this weekend.
We went to +The Home Depot in Richland, Wa today and got an uber +DeWalt Factory Service's water pressure washer. The water pressure is above 3k PSI. That means it could cut through wood if I let the spray get too close. I just need to blast the surface on the top of the pergola of our patio.
My parents failed to get an Air Paint Sprayer to help me paint the rest of the Pergola after priming it. I suppose this is to be expected. Randy perpetually fails to grasp the concept of why to get a tool unless he himself experiences the want of it.
For instance, while Randy was over 350 lbs of weight he failed to ever mow the lawn. I did it. My mom did most of the racking but I helped and we both wanted to get a grass catcher to hook up to the back of our riding lawn mower.
However, because Randy failed to ever mow the lawn, he also failed to grasp advantage of having a grass catcher. Years later, now that he has actually gotten to repeatedly mow the lawn he understands and fully feels the want of having a grass catcher... or paying someone to mow the lawn for him. Which is the easy and more expensive way out. My father is without any concept of the money he spends, he acts like it grows on trees.
Thankfully I am a momma's boy. Mary is more emotionally and spiritually attuned to her Higher Self/Soul, as am I. She fully comprehends and agrees with me with the want and advantage of having both a grass catcher and a Air Paint Sprayer.
Ma is also the one who does the bills, which undoubted leads to my Pa, Randy failing to understand the ramifications of the monetary cost with what he wants.
I adore, admire, and love my Pa though I believe Randy is nearing the end of his own lifecycle and is just refusing to grow any further. I am really unable to understand this, but having a asshat facet to affix to the top of his head {emotionally} has long been his way since he was a small child; according to reports from himself and his mother, grandma.
So without anything to do with my depression, is my desire to die. I know that I am at the end of my own lifecycle. It has been and still is excruciatingly painful physically and mentally. Depression is just that, emotional pain from psychic trauma. The trauma is without anything to do with Randy, though I have allowed his asshat tendencies to help exacerbate my Depression further.
We control the effect words, actions, and other people have on us. Whether something is offensive or not, is for the Self to decide.
Instead of thinking or feeling, the Goddess has told me repeatedly for sevenish years now that +Taylor Alison Swift is a soulmate with me, that her higher self chose to be the Ideal Wife of my dreams, as I am the Ideal Husband of her dreams. Thus the only reason my life has failed to move from this Purgatory my lifecycle is in, is because Tay Tay's ego has yet to choose to accept what her superego wants to do.
Of course, this may sound insane to most. I dislike people choosing that but it is beyond my control. Therefore, I have severed myself from caring what others think about me. I only care what my loved ones think of me, including in paramount myself.
I am also without any control over what any facet of my Ideal Wife's self chooses, let alone what her Ego chooses. Therefore I wish to, and pray for the Goddess to absolutely and abundantly control, direct, guide, help, inspire, manipulate, and motivate myself to die tonight painlessly, quickly, and quietly while I sleep. That is the one thing I can control.
Upon further inquiry and discovery during this past couple years, the Goddess repeatedly informs me that Tay Tay is the Ideal Wife of my dreams. Her ego has refused to choose to accept what her SuperEgo wants, or to refuse it. That is her Goddess given right of course. We all have Free Will up until the point the present has become the past. Even then, daydreaming a different course, can have drastic impact upon a lifecycle.
I can certainly understand hesitation but this is way beyond procrastination. Over seven years of waiting and the Ideal Wife of my dreams still has yet to choose is beyond even my willingness to wait. I am done with waiting and thus I beg/Pray for the Goddess to abundantly help me end this lifecycle.
As I said the Goddess says the Ideal Wife of my Dreams is Tay Tay. It makes since why her ego is so torn on what to do. Even that understanding has limits. Seven is a good number and I am done. I simply live with too much physical and emotional pain to wait in Purgatory for the chance my life could resume at any moment.
This is where inaction is still an action. Thus the Ego of the Ideal Wife of my dreams has indirectly chosen to refuse to follow the volition of her SuperEgo.
As I close this entry out, I believe that I am astonished at how well I have written this. I have yet to read them but I sense my earlier entries may have been from a more emotional filled point of view. That lowers brain waives and reduces the intelligence in use from our Brain is capable of.
So if I finally get what I want tonight. My mother will be the one most traumatized. She may come here to this blog her Higher Self sees it as a good thing to do. Thus I also pray that She understands my death is like any other normal or accidental death, instead of a suicide. That is my Higher Self chose this as an OUT.
I am nearing the end of this cycle of my life. I used to be so depressed that I was suicidal. I still am depressed somewhat but I have healed to abundantly healthy my self-esteem/image. I have lost a lot of weight and am loosing more. I love who I am now and I cherish my past even as I am most adamant to never repeat any cycle from this life ever again.
Thus I have gun to think about spiritual plane and past lives. I have made a new rule for myself with my ego. I pray to the Goddess that she absolutely and abundantly helps me manifest this rule to my satisfaction... well, really to help me manifest anything that I want enough to pray to Her for. I have already written out my prayer for the soul mate that I is an Ideal Wife of my dreams for me. As I am the Ideal Husband of her dreams.
The new rule is to absolutely and abundantly remember any and all other lifecycles that I have lived. I think, remembering present or future ones would be too confusing. I further limit these memories to be equalized all emotions both Light and Dark Side of the Force. I want to remember them but I must ensure that my focus is on the lifecycle I am living.
I have had a mental conversation with a voice in my head that I perceive as +Mrs. Taylor Alison Swift Ryan/+Taylor Alison Swift . As always I refuse to physically do anything based on this conversation without actual physical verification that it was true. Thus I maintain my sanity, and protect myself from biological and energy based entities of the #Dark #Side.
Yes I am a Master of the Jedi {Reverend}; However, I have started my own order that is very much based on Hermetic, Edgar Cayce, Jesus, Buddhism, and Judaism. The reason I keep the name is because the movies describes the Force exceptionally well, though George Lucas's mind failed to comprehend a couple key pieces of information I believe spirits relayed to him about that reality.
It is Father's Day this weekend.
We went to +The Home Depot in Richland, Wa today and got an uber +DeWalt Factory Service's water pressure washer. The water pressure is above 3k PSI. That means it could cut through wood if I let the spray get too close. I just need to blast the surface on the top of the pergola of our patio.
My parents failed to get an Air Paint Sprayer to help me paint the rest of the Pergola after priming it. I suppose this is to be expected. Randy perpetually fails to grasp the concept of why to get a tool unless he himself experiences the want of it.
For instance, while Randy was over 350 lbs of weight he failed to ever mow the lawn. I did it. My mom did most of the racking but I helped and we both wanted to get a grass catcher to hook up to the back of our riding lawn mower.
However, because Randy failed to ever mow the lawn, he also failed to grasp advantage of having a grass catcher. Years later, now that he has actually gotten to repeatedly mow the lawn he understands and fully feels the want of having a grass catcher... or paying someone to mow the lawn for him. Which is the easy and more expensive way out. My father is without any concept of the money he spends, he acts like it grows on trees.
Thankfully I am a momma's boy. Mary is more emotionally and spiritually attuned to her Higher Self/Soul, as am I. She fully comprehends and agrees with me with the want and advantage of having both a grass catcher and a Air Paint Sprayer.
Ma is also the one who does the bills, which undoubted leads to my Pa, Randy failing to understand the ramifications of the monetary cost with what he wants.
I adore, admire, and love my Pa though I believe Randy is nearing the end of his own lifecycle and is just refusing to grow any further. I am really unable to understand this, but having a asshat facet to affix to the top of his head {emotionally} has long been his way since he was a small child; according to reports from himself and his mother, grandma.
So without anything to do with my depression, is my desire to die. I know that I am at the end of my own lifecycle. It has been and still is excruciatingly painful physically and mentally. Depression is just that, emotional pain from psychic trauma. The trauma is without anything to do with Randy, though I have allowed his asshat tendencies to help exacerbate my Depression further.
We control the effect words, actions, and other people have on us. Whether something is offensive or not, is for the Self to decide.
Instead of thinking or feeling, the Goddess has told me repeatedly for sevenish years now that +Taylor Alison Swift is a soulmate with me, that her higher self chose to be the Ideal Wife of my dreams, as I am the Ideal Husband of her dreams. Thus the only reason my life has failed to move from this Purgatory my lifecycle is in, is because Tay Tay's ego has yet to choose to accept what her superego wants to do.
Of course, this may sound insane to most. I dislike people choosing that but it is beyond my control. Therefore, I have severed myself from caring what others think about me. I only care what my loved ones think of me, including in paramount myself.
I am also without any control over what any facet of my Ideal Wife's self chooses, let alone what her Ego chooses. Therefore I wish to, and pray for the Goddess to absolutely and abundantly control, direct, guide, help, inspire, manipulate, and motivate myself to die tonight painlessly, quickly, and quietly while I sleep. That is the one thing I can control.
Upon further inquiry and discovery during this past couple years, the Goddess repeatedly informs me that Tay Tay is the Ideal Wife of my dreams. Her ego has refused to choose to accept what her SuperEgo wants, or to refuse it. That is her Goddess given right of course. We all have Free Will up until the point the present has become the past. Even then, daydreaming a different course, can have drastic impact upon a lifecycle.
I can certainly understand hesitation but this is way beyond procrastination. Over seven years of waiting and the Ideal Wife of my dreams still has yet to choose is beyond even my willingness to wait. I am done with waiting and thus I beg/Pray for the Goddess to abundantly help me end this lifecycle.
As I said the Goddess says the Ideal Wife of my Dreams is Tay Tay. It makes since why her ego is so torn on what to do. Even that understanding has limits. Seven is a good number and I am done. I simply live with too much physical and emotional pain to wait in Purgatory for the chance my life could resume at any moment.
This is where inaction is still an action. Thus the Ego of the Ideal Wife of my dreams has indirectly chosen to refuse to follow the volition of her SuperEgo.
As I close this entry out, I believe that I am astonished at how well I have written this. I have yet to read them but I sense my earlier entries may have been from a more emotional filled point of view. That lowers brain waives and reduces the intelligence in use from our Brain is capable of.
So if I finally get what I want tonight. My mother will be the one most traumatized. She may come here to this blog her Higher Self sees it as a good thing to do. Thus I also pray that She understands my death is like any other normal or accidental death, instead of a suicide. That is my Higher Self chose this as an OUT.
12.04.2013
13♥00♥00♥17♥08
Mayan Date: 13♥00♥00♥17♥08
Wednesday,
I awoke around 07:30, looking at a clock failed to be a high priority.
I updated some tasks on Taylor Alison Swift's, and my, GoT: Ascent characters.
Then I watched last night's s09e09 of Supernatural "Holy Terror". I think the writers should have kept Kevin, the prophet, alive; Letting him get assasinated by Godzillel is wrong.
Sam and Dean should begin to build something 'good' with the bunker as home. The place is supposed to be a small underground city/sanctuary instead of a bachelor pad.
After nine seasons Sam and Dean should have more than a couple groupies. Especially with 'God' putting their story out on the internet. Their story is popular in our Prime Material. Thus their Prime material's publik should love it too.
Now I am taking a mid day nap. I want to overcome this depressive imbalance I'm currently feeling.
I am leaving my door open to let Ariel Miss Scarlett {mb Tay Tay} sleep in bed with me.
Be well
… 18:50 …
The map was rather poor, woke up two hours later with only this post to show for it.
Leaving the door open was a mistake. Ariel does not quiet down fast enough.
I watched a couple episodes of Haven's latest season and am caught up now… just in time for their Winter Solstice rerun break.
I think Mr. Stephen King should stay away from Audrey's past unlike he is in this fourth season. He is explaining too much too quickly.
Better would have William be a different Haven's 'Audrey'. I mean as in another town somewhere else with a different name but same 'troubles'. And 'William' did end up killing the woman he loved. Say it was an accident but…
However such a character does not exist. It is as if Mr. King is wanting to end the television show and 'wrap up' the story. I hope that i am wrong.
I think I will be giving the second G.o.T.:A. toon to Tay Tay soon. I have been feeling different thoughts lately… or its all just a goblin {thoughts of doubt and other Dark Side feelings of the frequency of Light.}
Such energies are Dark/Light based on what frequencies our brain emits when focusing on a feeling; Therefore, what half of the spectrum of Light they fall means they are light or dark. As a 'sunspot' on Sol still emits light, just less than the surrounding surface; Therefore sunspots are 'perceived' as dark.
I wonder what I am getting out of this. However, is this journal being publik, indirectly or directly helps someone else make the choice to be halpy then that is awesome.
Keeping this journal is just somewhat humbling. Or maybe it will help a future more experienced version of me with something(s).
I did the dishes today. This is big because my depression related apathy knows no bounds. However, I someone has to help my mother and my father's chauvanistic attitude about what is 'proper' keeps him paralized.
I pray that the current attitude of my father's: That the two people with Rheumatoid Arthritis in the family should do all the house work… comes to a screeching halt and 180 degrees turn around.
I believe that I know what is driving my Dad to act this way; It ties into how he acts in other ways. He is entirely too concerned with what is 'proper' or propriety in general.
I wish this is one 'trait' that inheritance fails to pass on to me. I want to avoid acting this way towards my Ideal Wife {mb Tay Tay} or our thirteen children.
I find it interesting that most of the character traits my father complains about in me, comes from him. Yet he remains oblivious to where I get it from.
Most of the time I compel myself to change the traits my Father mentions because I have little use for them either. They fail to help me with the choice to be happy in variety of ways.
Thank you for sharing your time and Force. Be Well.
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