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Listening to Neil Cavuto about Universities being 98% statist indoctrination propaganda machines spreading their mental illness to the young and ignorant.  I agree completely but I thought of a simple solution for concerned parents.

Simply require your children to attend the local community college for their first two year degree.  This cuts the among of time statist universities have to brainwash anyone.  Moreover, this educates the young to be slightly less ignorant.

By going to a community college, parents retain the ability to counter the indoctrinating propaganda and brainwashing from the intolerant statists.  This further prepares them for what they will face at the university, because lets be honest Statists are about as dull and unoriginal as watching paint dry or grass grow.

Of course, teenagers hate the idea of anyone forcing them to do anything, ironically considering how eager they are to jump into the lion's mouth.  However, this is the point of being a parent the additional years are supposed to be used to guide the children regardless of what they temporarily think they want in the 'now'.

The idea that children could go to 'college' without help is unlikely at best.  Federal Financial Aid fails to cover the outrageous tuition, books, and other fees the much vaunted elite universities choose to demand.  So again, money talks and parents should buck up and play hardball regardless of how horrible they may feel about it.  Later, their children will thank them for it in the end.

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Soulless is a salaciously ebullient omega to the Parasol Protector series of books.  Miss Alexia Tarabotti is an urbane pragmatic heroine with a erudite sagacious bluestocking intellect.  While expatiating the her life and adventures, Mrs. Gail Carriger is adroit in her writing of late 18th century.  The novel is virtuoso as an example of SteamPunk Romantic fiction.

Alexia's mother, step-father, and two half-sisters have convinced her that she is ugly and unwanted as the story begins.  Mrs. Carriger is bravura with how she expatiates Alexia's interpersonal relationships.  Her mother is far from fitting, say, the stereotype of the wicked stepmother in some fanciful fable.  Her sisters are still mean except it is easy to see how they are a product of their environment mostly.

I disagree with Mrs. Carriger in how truly 'alone' such an avatar would be.  Seemingly other eccentric and deviant compatriots the Alexia should be acquainted are mentioned as existing, however she fails to see them in her future.  For instance, it is only in the fourth book that Alexia begins developing her own information gathering spiderweb with her oldest friend Ivy.

However, all authors are limited by their own perception of the world around them.  I far from mean any disrespect it simply is pragmatic.  :)

Naturally a solution is easier said than done;  However if I were to suggest an example:   I think it is entirely reasonable that other Academic students would keep in contact with Alexia as their lives changed.  These 'scientists' would be a valuable information gathering source.  There is more in my mind but that would be getting off topic.

Alexia has deep seated flaws in her psyche, however she does evolve and grow with the world around her.  The novel essentially begins in the middle of 'Alexia's story.  Even near the end of the book the reader is learning her interpersonal verity of the past.

The significant other to Alexia is Lord Conall Maccon, an Earl, therianthropic wolf who is in charge of the government agency responsible for managing the supernatural element in London and England as a whole.  Both characters have alpha personalities and so history that Mrs. Carriger skips with beginning the novel is backfilled with the two characters challenging each-other constantly.  The novel begins as their amorous emotions swells over how much they challenge each-other, that being a great deal.

I highly encourage those reading this far into this post to at least get this first book and begin reading.  Whether you enjoy steampunk, science, fantasy, or romantic fiction I abundantly ken that ye will enjoy the story as much as I do


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The purpose of me reading this particular novel is to help me understand Steampunk and romantic fiction.  With writing my own stories I am very exuberant with all the old Victorian era words Mrs. Carriger uses.  I bookmark them after I look their meaning up.  I am fascinated with how she literally writes as if Alexia is writing an autobiography.

Anyone who reads my other 'entries' realizes this site is a journal of sorts for me.  I leave it public with the hope that it may help someone else.  This particular entry however is a review of a steampunk romantic fiction I have read recently.

I am into the fourth book already but I may be going back to read the third at some point.  The events depicted in the first half of the book are indecorous with my tastes.  I read fiction to help me be happy and forget about depression among other things.

That is why I read various subgenres of romantic fiction, there is always a happy ending.  I read Science Fiction and Fantasy earlier in my life and grew dissatisfied with books being a tragedy half the time like say Ender's Game.  Great book, just beyond my interests.

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Diaries seem like they should be written in every day… or at least have less than five months gap between entries.  Seemingly, I am extremely minutely selective with what I am consistent with or rules that ai follow… also, apparently both items share the same list and its size constriction.

I still beg/pray/curse/cast/spell/meditate on the Goddess manifesting me as the dream ideal husband of the ideal wife of my dreams; now; today; us absolutely, abundantly, eternally, implicitly, recuprocatingly admire, adore, and in love with each other and ourselves; control, direct, help, inspire, motivate us into matriomoneous bliss today.

I do value and love myself as an independent individual.  Though I understand my writings may appear otherwise.  Neglible is my desire yo control or 'own' anyone other than myself.  I am whole, beautiful, strong, powerful, loving, joyful, and happy.

However, I am done done with this lifecycle and this mortal coil;  Unless what stated earlier is made manifest through me, today.  I have learned how to deal with my chronic emotional and physical pain.  Yet, i am done with doing it anymore.

I know of two things that will help me the most to choose to be happy.  Heaven; another life; or Tay Tay.  However, I do acknowledge utimately happiness is my choice and only I can achieve it.  Others may help but they are incapable of doing it 'for' me.

My life as it is at an impass.  I am single, thirty nine year old, dirt poor and live with my awe inspiring mother and father.  I am a writer of science fiction romance stories and suffering from writer's block for a few years now.  I continually explore new ideas to get past the block but no joy so far.

I think I have mentioned before my absolute inexperience with an actual romantic girlfriend.  After it is to late, I learn of another's interest in me sometimes.  However I have been so wrapt up in my own pain that I have been an idiot for the most part.

In addition, my physical pain has greatly impacted my mostly sedentary life style.  The longer I stand/walk the more pain I am in until I collapse.  The actual timing varies and my current success with weightloss seems to have helped a little with pain and a lot with fatigue.

So yes, only I can change this.  I have already stated possible course changes.  How does one collide without the other entity to collide into?

Thus I am back to praying/cursing/meditating/spelling/casting for the Goddess to control, direct, help, inspire, and motivate me to manifest myself as who I want to be.

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Mayan Date: 13♥00♥00♥17♥14

Tuesday: α, β, θ, δ

So yesterday was a Tayday and that is a pretty big deal.

Today I wake up fifteen hours after going to bed last night; 10:30.  My Mother has been chain calling me freqking out about some debt charges.  However she calmed down when I said it is for Kindle books…

Mother gave some lame excuse for making it exciting;  So I suspect it hs to do with Christmas presents.

Of course I am very grateful if my parents got me anything.  They do a lot for me already.

Yet today is quickly heading into α category.  The negative fog is dampening all feelings, and the standard tricks to fight it are less effective: like forcing myself to smile, think about someone I am blissfully in love with {Taylor Alison Swift}, et cetera

Therefore I am going back to bed.  As normal, i pray the Goddess and Her angels severe/separate/take me from this life unless my Ideal Wife {whomever} and I elope now/today and begin our Ideal Marriage/Family.

I am so very tired of living a life that is other than what I want.  I know I am the one who got me here.  At one time I DID want this life but that time hss long since passed.

So yes a new beginning would be beautiful.

Google's messed with blogger and is lreventing me from editing posts.  Hopefully, I just need to update the program on my iPhone.

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I woke up about 13:00, so I guess this fits.  I felt better at first but right now it is drudging the α barrell.  The only benefit is that I feel never-never-land waiting behind my eyes.

Maybe Peter Pan and I will get something sexy going with Tinkerbell.  Thst way I can forget about coming back to this Prime Material ever.  It's evidently through with me, and I am definitely through with being in constant pain.

Maybe will see if my reinstall of Blogger's iPhone App allows me to edit posts again.

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Mayan Date: 13♥00♥00♥17♥13

Monday: α, β, θ, δ,

As i wake up, today feels like a θ day;  and I pray that the Goddess and Her angels help me manifest it as a δ.  That will take my Ideal Wife {mb Taylor Alison Swift} and I, eloping and beginning our Ideal Marriage/Family.  This I spell… So mote it be, Amen.

I feel like taking a shower within the next couple hours and having lunch with my Mother, @ SafeWay.

Shower and getting ready takes an hour at most so I have some more time to fill.

I think that I will write some more in my first novel.

Oh! Doctors want me keeping track of my pain on a daily basis so I think I will start doing that now.

There is a semi dull but escalating throbbing pain in my rib cage along my back and hips.  It's letting me know that it is time to wake/get up and take happy pills.

My feet feel great but that's because They have yet to support any weight for ten hours.  They should end up taking over the semi dull but escalating pain duties from my ribs and hips.

Thirty minutes in and I my body is feeling less lethargic.

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Mayan Date: 13♥00♥00♥17♥12

Sunday: α, β, θ, δ,

Today started as a θ, but is ending as a β day.  Just am feeling that my parents are confusing themselves from feeling any love my way.  Their worrying about 'my' future if they should die.  Well, that would be a problem and a solution will present itself or it will not.  I see little productive in fretting over what 'might' be.

Better to focus on what I want and let the Goddess handle the disharmony between that and the Prime Material.

My first novel is a Steampunk Romance novel.  So I have been reading books in this genre and am loving them.  They are exactly what I want.  So I look for more.

There seemed to be a lack of any group on goodreads.com that focused on that combined genres or even the broader science fiction romance genre.  They had the categories for books but no groups.

So I created one, and a FaceBook Page to accompany it.  Tomorrow I might create a Google+ Page but will see how well I can integrate the three pages.  Probable will want to fine tune the FB+ page too.

My parents went over to a friends house to eat 'dinner' but I stayed home.  I want to start living Sunday as a holy day of rest again… just holy in a Jedi Witkhkraft way.

Admittedly, the professional stuff with the goodreads.com and FaceBook+ pages creation was more prevelant in my mind but it all contributed to me saying no.

Well… I did give them an option to show they 'actually wanted' me to be there and they refused.

I said I wanted to take a shower.  My Mother after she asked my Father, and she said they would wait if I did it now... Or once I got to a point in Goodreads that I could save and start up again on another computer later.  Which would be a literally a minute or two.

That was enough for my Father to declare it improper behavior and left.  My mom probably thought she did not have a choice but that is false.  She choose to confuse herself with archaic mesogynistic rules, instead of making a choice.  I shrugged and did my thing.

They both obviously confused themselves, failed to act intelligent & wise, and actually want my company.

I have zero control over their choices.  I can only control my own.

I choose to 'expect' them to behave like their sentient sapiens.  Times like today they let me down.

I did mess up and choose to eat a couple slices of a cheese cake;  That, is off the Ideal Protein diet.  I know that I am as flawed as anyone else.

I had a television dinner entree too.  But the ones I got are low carb… still off the diet but a lot closer.

Being on the Ideal Protein Diet is without a switch to turn it on and off.  The focus is keeping your body in "Ketosis".

That is why eggs, cheese, and meat are better because they just give you more fat to burn;  Instead of shifting your liver's chemistry out of "Ketosis".

The people who run the Ideal Protein clinic are looking to hire a new coach.  They had two quit in short succession.  I am thinking of applying.  I ask the Goddess and Her angels to control, direct, help, inspire, and motivate me to be, do, feel, and think whatever will help me manifest what I want… whatever will help me the most to choose to be happy…

What I want, what will help me the most to choose to be happy… is for my Ideal Wife {mb Taylor Alison Swift} and I to meet, get married, and begin/live our Ideal Marriage/Family.

I know that I am without any way of manifesting that besides casting spells {prayers} to the Goddess.  Writing daydremaing, and artistic fun is supposed to help too.

They idea of controlling other than the self, is a dangerous delusion.

There is a very rigid disharmony between my Prime Material and my happiness.

Thank you for sharing your Force and be well.

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Mayan Date: 13♥00♥00♥17♥11

Saturday: α, β, θ, δ,

Today is a θ day.  However I stayed home half the day and even did not take a shower.

With my Mother, I went to the LifeQuest building to get weighed by our Ideal Protein dietary coach.  Afterwards we went to get groceries at Yokes.  My FS paid for almost all of the groceries, that was surprisingly awesome and sucky at the same time.

Sucky because that just means the FRB is mondtizing our debt even more than they did before.  That is sucky for our countries future.  I pray that the FRB is repealed disowned by the fed gov soon.

I spent a couple hours writing more on my first novel.

I tried explaining to my mother how I am praying for the Goddess and Her angels to guide me with my desire to refuse to participate in ObamaFailCare.  Part of the reason I am praying for guidance is that I wish to avoid arguing with my parents over it.

So my mother took this revelation as a sign to argue with me about it.

Both of my parents seem to have a disconnect with understanding what providence means and how it relates to us living our life.

That is weird for especially my Mother who was raised an orthadox Roman Catholic schoolgirl, and still is very religious though more Coptic now, later in her life.

I explained it to my mother but I think she just nodded her head to shut me up.

Some people fail and take the idea that the Goddess provides all that we want, as a sign to do nothing and be nothing, and everthing will be copasetic.  That is wrong.

What it means is to envision the future we want and let the Goddess handle the details of how that happens.  An omnipotent and omnipresent entity is better at it.

The higher-self still calls for us to manifest our will and actions in the present.  In the now, still let morals and ethics guide actions in response to day to day events.

Using Providence as an excuse to expect the Goddess to live our life for us is wrong… and only leads to failure.  Instead it is there to comfort us and give us hope when the night is darkest.

I downloaded the "Kindle for iPhone" app and am discovering the wonderful world of reading for a lot less than I was.  I bought a couple books for kindle on amazon.com and it sent it to my iPhone… that is hella awesome.

Thank you for sharing you Force. Be well…

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Mayan Date: 13♥00♥00♥17♥10

Friday: α, β, θ, δ,

I believe that I forced today into the θ, category by forcing myself to sleep from last night until 10:30 this morning.

Then I forced myself to get ready and go into town with my parents.  They went to Broadmoore RV to buy an Arctic Fox camping trailer.