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I thought about this for a while and decided to go ahead and remake this political blog into my journal.  I'll still write artificals about events that occurr that I want more of but, the other stuff is history… maybe not even there… guess we'll see.

Blogger's iPhone app seems to be failing with the spell checking.  So I apologize ahead of time… hopefully

Standard seems to suggest to keep a journal secret.  I know the humble, self-incriminating reasoning for this but I am eliminating the later.  So may it is better to be open and just leave out personal names.

I feel that I am getting somewhere with a novel I am writing.  It's still in its infancy but its fun and exciting.  I am focusing on those feelings and what I want to happen around the bend.

I understand some about positive thinking and the Law of Attraction.  I think what I choose to every moment of every hour of every day.

Everyday I am getting better and better, in everyway I am getting better and better.  I am extranenly, paranormally, and divinely healthy, fit, gifted, whole, beautiful, handsome, strong, successful, powerful, joyful, loved, and happy.

I want to begin and raise my ideal of a marriage and family;  with my ideal wife, with that I am her ideal husband.  I have incorporated many things into my life to help change myself into the person I said I want to be.  However, I remain at the end of the latest phase of my life… waiting for five years now, and of course I have grown and changed in those five years.

I sleep on my side of my bed.  I abundantly eliminate contractions from my vocabulary… or use tyem with clear intent.  I speak affirmations, and pray, multiple times a day.  I've drawn picture of what she might look like.  I've left over half of my closet and dresser empty and waiting with me.  Each drawer as a symbol of what she represents to me.

I daydream constantly of my Ideal Wife.  Yes, I even write them down.  They are not finished or published.  I draw some too but its not life-like.

I have battled with clinical depression for most of my life.  That and my life choices are why I am not married.  I've left behind most everyone I thought was a friend.  Some have kept themselves in the distance.  Many felt threatened by my intent to be increasingly positive…

Real life is stranger than fiction…

I've grown very religous but eclectic lately.  I have found a few others out there who think similarly.  I started a twitter account and FB page dedicated to those thoughts.

When asked the Goddess suggests Taylor Alison Swift is who is meant to come into my life.  That makes a lot of sense to me.  However, I focus on what that means to me, instead of a specific person.  Afterall, the devil is in the details.

The reason it makes since is because I find Tay Tay's voice, personality, and appearence to be the most beautiful entity on the planet… maybe in the universe too… but, I can't really back that up.

I can easily write stories for however long I want while listening to Tay Tay's music.  Other lyrical music fails to help me the same way hers does.  I can put her discography on random shuffle and love whatever song comes up.

Naturally realizing your thinking this way about a celebritiy is far from a picnic.  I've tested my reasoning on other musical groups and i've yet to hear anything that has the same effect on me as Tay Tay, much to my chagrin.

I mean, even my own mother looks at me like she is humoring a lunatic, while at the same time expresses worry about my sanity.  This is the one person who is nearly always supportive of me and what I want.  That fails to mean she spoils me, it means she believes in me when no one else will… except this.

So I've tried all my old tricks to shift my thoughts onto someone at least on the same side of the country.  As always to 'try' is admit failure.  Which only works on describing the past, when the results are already known.

None-the-less, I focus on how I want my life to be different and feel them.  Instead of Tay Tay or anyone elses.  To be specific merely invites the inconceivability for me to be wrong.

So far I am kind of enjoying writing my journal online and quasi-publik.  I suppose a really obsessed person could find me but that was true without the internet too.  I am going to sleep after I republish this, may delete more old posts, but I don't know… it's more than being indescive for me.  I simply acknowledge and accept that I am a very impulsive person.  Though I am undoubtedly predictable about somethings.

I will close with a list of characteristics that I believe my Ideal Wife has.  Some may be fanciful notions that I may be wrong about.  I leave it up to the Goddess to decide what would help me the most in making the choice to be happy.

Extraterrestrial Biological Entity; rylty; tht homosapiens r abl 2 breed wth

One parent = Japanese/Korean

Other is Swedish/German/Irish American

Non {female, woman}

She is happy with me being a poor starving artist.  Well… not exactly but maybe you get the idea.

Lithe & svelte

Blonde/Red Hair

More Intelligent & wiser than me

Early Twenties {we want thirteen plus divinely healthy, fit, & gifted kids}

Loves to watch movies and television

Loves accepting my help with her career… & vice versa of course

Loves playing video games, role-playing games {like Mass Effect, DA:O}

Believes small limited government with strong national defense is right.

Loves her parents and has a good relationship with them.

Letter to Tea Party people

2 things to help with PR battle.  Young people are 'new' and so is the 60% who are busy living their life versus reading the newspaper.  The common layperson sees "liberal" as 'libertarian' or 'liberty'.   Speak their language if you want "the general public" to understand instead of those in District of Columbia.  They already see themselves as "libertarians" and if we want to 'correct' them;  First step is to start speaking in a way they understand, instead of repeating the Statists' "misspellings and incorrect grammar".

• Use the correct dictionary definition of "liberal" which is libertarian.  Democrats are 'statist', 'socialists', or 'communists' but on the opposite end of the spectrum to 'liberals'.
• "Democratic Party" fails to exist.  There is only the "Democrat Party";  Which of course also fails but in an another topic.

A user's misspelling words and incorrect grammar on a message board, twitter, or some other social media technology is fine, and perfectly understandable.  For an 'organization' to do so, detracts from the 'message' as people automatically think less of the organization.  These common grammar error makes our organization look foolish, illiterate, uneducated, and ignorant.

I think misrepresenting the word 'liberal' is intentional as far as the Carnegie Foundation, Tides Foundation, George Soros, and their ilk are concerned.  They love being called a sheep instead of a wolf; or angels instead of the demons.  It confuses the low information voter.

Also, I think the mistake with the word "Democratic" is intentional for similar reasons.  Though maybe its more of a sign of how far our education system has fallen.

Apparently people often fail to realize how much power words have, especially when they are spoken with "mistakes".

Statist Psyche

A statist mind is broken so understand when their logic train fails. When this happens they will be reduced to silence if you are very lucky. Statists have been around for longer than recorded history. Most governments have been statist governments and that is why they have failed.

The mind is a very complex thing and it tends to be very resilient to damage both psychological and physical. However, when it breaks fundamental traits that are often taken for granted cease to be. For a statist their mind can be broken because of psychological trauma like an abusive parent, or physical trauma like brain cancer. The effect is that they are unable to see and/or comprehend the same patterns that a healthy brain can. However, do not mistake call people who call themselves a statist or a Democrat to actually be so. Sometimes people have been brainwashed.

Typically the brainwashed are average citizens who maintain careers somewhere other than politics. They can be saved with passive patience and sound logical arguements. "Politics" is the discussion of everything. Even how to fold your socks can be a "political" discussion if the other disagrees. So understand that it is ok to stay well away from topics of discussion about government if it makes them uncomfortable.

For the true statist mind, there is very little hope for them until the 'malfunction' is diagnosed and understood. They will try to engage with facts and science with someone who disagrees. However, humoring them and showing how their facts and science is wrong will unhinge their minds. When their logic fails them and they have lost the argument they will resort to rude and obnoxious behavior.

So when a statist starts slobering at the mouth with rude insults and obnoxious name calling just smile and nod at them. This is simply how they tell you that you won the argument. Their conscious mind may think otherwise of course. That is because the stress of failing to continue the discussion has unhinged their mind. Their psyche is reduced to the mentality of a seven year old child. Thus it is imperative that we believe and have high confidence in ourselves.

Laffer Curve

Cutting taxes raises revenue. This relationship works in reverse as well. Increases taxes reduces revenue. Only the broken psyche of the so called "Democrats", and their statist ilk, have a problem with this scientific and mathematical logic. Yet the statist created agency called the Congressional Budget Office {C.B.O.} confuse the reverse of the Laffer Curve as true. This is why "Congress" in Washington D.C. get such wrong numbers one what effect their bills have on the economy.

For two centuries science has been able to compile mathematical economic numbers for trillions of transactions in free market economies around the world. In the early 1900s a man named John Maynard Keyne wrongly assumed that government spending has a positive effect on the economy. The statists Presidents Woodrow Wilson, Harry Truman, and Franklin D. Roosevelt all grabbed onto this theory immediately like a lifesaver thrown to someone drowning. So, economics quickly created a name for this too called Keynesian economics.

The problem is that to spend money, government must use force to "take" money from its citizens. Doing this destroys jobs! The effect is so disastrous that there is zero hope for the government to create more jobs than are lost. The reason this is true is because when the government does this. Those who have money "protect" their money and protecting it is the opposite of investing it. So the total amount of money taken out of the system is greater than what the government has to spend.

Even if the Government creates more money this actually creates a universal tax by default. This universal tax is inflation as every dollar is worth less than it was yesterday. It takes more dollars to buy the same thing today than it did yesterday. This is what inflation is and it destroys wealth. This action is so disastrous that economists have a special name for it called "monetizing" the debt. The Federal Reserve Bank, has been doing it for half a decade now and it is demonically evil for them to do so.

Only private sector investments creates jobs. There is a sweet bell in the Laffer Curve around thirteen percent. This thirteen percent is the sweet spot where tax revenue is maximized. Another way to look at this is to realize that the "economy" is like water. If you make a fist, the water slips through your fingers. When you open your hands and form a cup, you hold a great deal more water than your fist ever could.

The mind of a statist is locked in the past. All they see is last years "economy" and falsely wish they could take a slice of the pie. This is how the C.B.O. comes up with numbers that are so very wrong. The reason they are wrong is because the pie is yesterday's pie and we are talking about a "future" pie. Through taking action today.

A Libertarian like Laffer uses geometry and calculus, instead of algebra, to come up with numbers of next year. Look at recent history of trends and overall change in various different ways. Then a winner like Laffer uses calculus and geometry to make the hurdle of finding "next years" numbers. The more precise the data the more accurate they end up being. That is how an agency like the Heritage Foundation create a track record of being right 96.8% of the time. Among other things they do what the C.B.O. does but Heritage ends up be right far more often.

LYRICS: Story of Us

© Taylor Alison Swift
Edited by Brent Ryan

I never thought one day we'd tell the story of us,

How we met and the sparks flew instantly,

People would say, "They're the crazy ones."

I used to know my place was living on my own,

Now I'm searching the room for your seat,

Somehow lately I always know what page you're on.

Oh, a simple communication,

Assimilation led to marriage.

So many things that I wish you knew,

So many walls that I pass right through.

[Chorus:]

Now I'm standing alone with you, in a crowded room, and we're kissing,

And I'm wanting to know is it wrecking you like it's wrecking me, yeah?

I never know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all began,

And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now.

Next chapter.

How'd we end up this way?

See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy,

And you're doing your best to keep up with me.

I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us,

How I was losing my mind when I saw you here,

Holding your bride like someone more confused, might hold their pride.

Oh, I'm excited to see the beginning,

Why are we pretending this is nothing?

I'd tell you to kiss me but I don't know how,

I've never heard silence quite this loud.

[Chorus:]

Now I'm standing with you in our clergy room and we're vowing,

And I'm begging to know is it exciting you like it's exciting me, yeah?

I never know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all began,

And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now.

This is looking like a sonnet,

Of who can guess what the other wants more,

And I like it most when you are on my side,

This marriage is in your hands now,

I laid my armor down

When you said you'd rather love than fight,

So many things that you wished I knew,

And the story of us has been beginning soon.

[Chorus:]

Now I'm standing with you in our reception room and we're dancing,

And I'm demanding to know is it wrecking you like it's wrecking me, yeah?

I never know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all began,

And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now, now, now.

And we're beyond speaking,

And somehow I'm knowing you are loving me like I am loving you, yeah!

I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate we're already on,

And the story of us looks a lot like a comedy now.

Let’s begin.

Ok first question I would ask myself from an outside perspective; Why write this? Because I like to day dream and this is a present that I think I want. Will see. Taylor Swift writes lyrics from her life experience. I choose to be a positive person and so I am often reimagining the words she is saying because I love her and wish her to sing about us. If the Divine sees this as true then so shall it be, instead of my confusion clearing. Typing it out is just my way of organization as I write a lot. I write all this extra stuff because I feel compelled too... haven't really worked it out beyond that.

Why share this? every idea must touch another to exist and take form. A less cryptic answer might be because I like being painfully and humiliatingly honest. Secrets always have a shelf life and the effect tends to be worse the longer they are kept. So I choose to embrace honesty even if it is painful at times.

I like to pretend that she reads my blog because that is the limit to which I allow myself. First and foremost, I love her and want her to be happy, and so the best thing I can do is to do absolutely nothing.

I trust in the Divine to either make it happen or clear up my confusion. Regardless of what I believe behaving like a stalker would have the opposite effect of what I want. Besides she is something other than Prey to me.

How do I know I love someone? Because love is putting someone else's wants and desires ahead of your own. Obsession/infatuation is incredibly selfish and can quickly lead to the dark side. I have had ample experience with both in the past and that is how I know the difference personally. I have been depressed for most of my life. I am much happier now but the past has left me hypersensitive to even the hint of the dark side. This is also how I know that I love Taylor Alison Swift.

How can you love someone you hardly know? As Tay Tay says to know her is to listen to her songs. So I know enough to be sure that it is her and not some mental illusion/projection. I imagine our life together and the greater detail I fill in the easier it is to feel if it is true or not. This may sound strange to most but I am ok with strange.

I listen to Taylor Alison Swift's songs constantly. Her music helps me write and that is odd because lyrical music tends to be a very poor literary muse. I research and write constantly, so I am listening to her words and voice constantly. I have actually tried this before with other infatuations/obsessions and this is one of the ways I brought myself out of those holes of negativity. Conversely her voice has helped me become even happier and more joyful, loving, and happy. I believe that I used to be a real chore to be around... I wasn't a very good friend to anyone... At least the kind of friend that I 'want' to be.

How will Taylor Swift find you? That is a funny question because I have no real answer. My search for an answer has led to an interest in Tarot cards and Astrology. I trust in the Divine that it knows a way and is already seeing it realized. I know this because I often ask for help from the Divine and if I am confused then I quickly realize in what way that I am wrong. I continue to see Tay Tay as right and so I continue to believe.

LYRICS: Superstar

© Taylor Alison Swift
Minor Edits by Brent Ryan

This is wrong, but I can't help but feel like

There ain't nothing more out there

Misty morning, comes again and I can’t

Help but wish I could see your face

And I knew from the first song played

I'd be breaking all my rules to see you

You smile that beautiful smile and

All the girls’n’boys in the front row scream your name

So dim that spotlight, tell me things like

I never take my eyes off of you

I'm no one special, just another

Wide eyed boy who's desperately in love with you

Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, superstar

Morning loneliness, comes around when I'm not

Dreaming about you

When my world wakes up today

You'll be in another town

And I knew when I saw your face, I'd be

Counting down the ways to see you

You smile that beautiful smile and

All the girls’n’boys in the front row scream your name

So dim that spotlight, tell me things like

I never take my eyes off of you

I'm no one special, just another

Wide eyed boy who's desperately in love with you

Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, superstar

You play in bars, you play guitar

I'm invisible and everyone knows who you are

And you'll never see, sing me to sleep

Every night from the radio

So dim that spotlight, tell me things like

I never take my eyes off of you

I'm no one special, just another

Wide eyed boy who's desperately in love with you

Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, superstar

Sweet, sweet superstar, superstar

I only list my name to hopefully avoid confusion with unaltered lyrics. I love and dream of Taylor, and she is a woman and I am a man. So I pretty much just flipped 'girl' to 'boy' and 'girls in the front row' to 'girls'n'boys in the front row', more of a tongue twister but I believe she could easily sing it flawlessly. Whoever inspired the song "Mean" needs some serious mental help. Though it also is a good thing cause that means she is free to see me. ;)

LYRICS: Enchanted

© Taylor Alison Swift

Edited by Brent Ryan

Here I am again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles

Same old tired, lonely place

Walls of insincerity

Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I see your face

All I can say, that I am enchanted to meet you

Your eyes whisper "have we met?"

Across the room your silhouette starts to make its way to me

A playful conversation starts

Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you

All I can say is I am enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, never let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you know

I am enchanted to meet you

The lingering question keep me up

2am, who do you love?

I wonder till I'm wide awake

Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door

I'd open up and you would say,

It is enchanting to meet you

All I know is I am enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, never let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you know

This night is flawless, please never let it go

I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone

I'll spend forever wondering if you know

I am enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that this is the very first page

Place where our story line begins

My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again

These are the words I hold back as I am leaving too soon

I am enchanted to meet you

Please be free of love with someone else

Please be free of someone waiting on you

Please be free of love with someone else

Please be free of somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, never let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you know

This night is flawless, never let it go

I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone

I'll spend forever wondering if you know

I am enchanted to meet you

Please be free of love with someone else

Please be free of somebody waiting on you

The goal is to edit out the contractions she uses. I love Taylor and this is one of my favorite songs of hers. I listen to all her songs endlessly which is weird for me. Anyhow I believe in the "Law of Attraction" and that our subconscious naturally ignores a contraction in a sentence. So "don't" because "do"; and of course that is bad.

HARVEST FESTIVAL: Autumnal Eve

As one of the solar festivals Autumnal Eve has been celebrated as one of the celebrations of harvests. The other two celebrations are Autumnal Equinox, and Samhain {or Halloween}. The wiccans celebrate death and rebirth of all things, and in particular what, and who, has gone before to lead to the now. Some festivities are baking a figure of a Godess in bread and symbolically commemorating by eating the bread. We as free, and accepted, Jedi can use this activity, in a more noble and glorious purpose, of communing with the Divine through the Force.

Autumnal Eve marks the beginning of harvesting what we have sown the previous half of the year. Instead of tending to the harvest; Maybe, think what you have done the first half of this year that has lead you to this point; And, then maybe think of other events farther in the past. Another activity may be to think of random acts of kindness that you have benefited from, whether they be from the Divine or from a particular person. Though even if it is from a particular stranger, or friend, maybe it is still part of the Divine. As free, and accepted, Jedi we can use this holiday, for the more noble and glorious purpose, of self improvement.

I feel that it is important to remember that this is merely the first of three celebrations and each celebration has a different focus. As, the crest of a wave the Autumnal Equinox is a celebration of the transition that is twilight. I think that cold may be a good celebration of our ancestors as they are one with the Divine, which is all, and is Samhain. We as free, and accepted, Jedi are able to use these celebrations for the more noble and glorious purpose of self-improvement. The rest of the year may be about the future, and/or maybe the past, but the harvest festivals are a celebration of what is now. And as now, we are Jedi.

Of course, ideally this holiday is earlier this month on August 1st. I got the date from my Witch Calendar but the Wheel of the Year wiki online has and the others as well: [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wheel_of_the_Year]. The idea of celebrating holidays originated from Wiccan and Witchcraft and the actual tie of "Jedi" Holidays is more to Hermes and Hermetic Principles and Traditions. Hermetics mostly prefer to tie everything to Lunar and Solar cycles; And, those cycles are governed by the principles of gravity and geometry; Which, I feel are virtually the same thing to God or the Divine. I feel that the Force is the same as the Spiritual Plane which is the principal mental construct of the Divine from which everything is created. First there is the Force and within that there is us. :) Thank you for your time, and energy. I hope you have a wonderful day.